But with You, I can Feel again

So you all met once you were enrolled at the same school in the second grade? sulli askes astonished.

Ne, and weve been friends only to eachother ever since.

Wahh, thats amazing, to keep such a small circle that is.

I smile weakly, well it doesnt take much effort for us.

Minho-ah, may i ask you a question?

hmmm, ne. what is it?

what exactly is that around your neck?

i look down at what shes pointing at, my necklace lays sqaurely at the center of my chest.
its a necklace.

sulli chuckles, obviously its a necklace, Im asking why you wear it..

ahh, it was a gift from my deceased grandma.
theres an awkward silence once i tell her.

ahh, mian-ah.

gwaenchanh-ayo

how close were you too her?

haha, i was actually really close, any chance i got, i always went to visit her.
i was her favorite i respond as a-matter-of-fact and proudly

she begins to laugh hysterically, I cant imagine, she begins as she wipes a tear from her eyes that you were grandmas little baby shes now clutching her stomach.

*gasp* i look intensely at her.

she stops laughing and smirks
Wae? did i hurt your pride and ego??

time lapse ~next morning~

(plays song)I was awoken by something that was not my usual alarm sound.
after listening to for it awhile i noticed it was something my middle brother would play. I mentally roll my eyes, what is he doing here. in agony i get up and begin my routine to get ready for school. Im done in 10mins but to my horror when i come back to nightstand next to my bed my necklace isnt where i left it last night.
that only means one thing. my hands ball into fists and i walk out of my room and down the stairs to see my brother sitting in the dining room with a smirk. A smirk on his face.
my blood is now boiling….

Yi-Jung-Hyung! where is it. Im able to keep a steady and cool voice as i ask my brother.
Where is what? I dont know what your talking about, he says with the smug look.

hyung, hajima, you know im talking about my necklace, now where is it.
hmmm, minho-ah you might want to watch the tone of authority you have in your voice, i am your older brother. plus if you want to know where it is, its best playing nice.

I dont care what he says, and i really dont care what will happen to me, but subconsciously my body dashes over shoved yi-jung-hyung off his feet and his collar is already in my hands.

as long as i could remember yi-jung-hyung has always liked picking on me, out my my 2 hyungs, min-hyeok-hyung(the eldest) and yi-jung-hyung, ive always been closer to min-hyeok-hyung.

hyung, Give it back. I raise my fist ready to have it land on yi-jung’s face when something or someone stops my hand, and picks me up moving me away from yi-jung-hyung.

I cant tell untill the person sets me down and i turn to face, min-hyeok-hyung.

h-h-hyung??min-hyeok-hyung, goes over to yi-jung-hyung and picks him up by the collar til his standing, “when are you going to grow up yi-jung, honestly, just give minho his necklace and stop being a pain-in-the-neck.
yi-jung-hyung scoffs and reaches into his pocket pulling out my necklace and throwing it to me.I catch in mid-air and begn to examine it,
minho.
I look up to min-hyeok-hyung,
you better hurry before your late.hmm, i nod my head and make my way out.

~school~I finally make it to class, im still bewildered by what happen this morning that i never actually put my necklace back on, stupidly i place in on my desk as i begin to fish for things ill need.

Oppa, this is pretty! where did you get it?I look up instantly to see a girl-student, her name isnt processed in my mind because im only watching my necklace in her hands.
What do you think youre doing? Give me back my necklace.

oppa, im just looking at it, now just answer the question: where did you get it?I dont have time for your stupid questions. and Im telling you to give it back to me… Now!I lower my gaze and glare at her.I will not ask you a third time.

This girl really has a death wish. Im holding onto my anger and sanity to not lash out at her, since itll be awful rude to hurt a lady. but shes testing my patience and im quickly running out of it.

I dont understand why you just cant answer! the girl raises her hand and throws the necklace down.
Im bewildered, frozen in shock, anger and fear.. I cant move.
Suddenly without warning sulli leaves her desk, marches over to the girl, retrieving my necklace and *smack* she slaps the girl hard, leaving her to stumble and hold her red cheek.
“you should really learn to not but your nose in where it doesn't belong.”she turns around, grabbing shirt sleeve, she drags me, and up to the roof.

When we reach the roof she lets go of me after shoving my down onto the bench.
Sheesh, talk about not knowing your own strength… I mentally accuse her as I shake the pain off of impact of the bench and myself.

Sulli then turn and looks at me, she leans in close wrapping her arms around my neck and leaning in, removing any space between us.I can slowly feel my face becoming redder and my ears heating up. I sit frozen unaware what to do.

There.

sulli leans back, Thats where it belongs, around your neck.

dumbfounded, i look down and see the necklace. I smile and reach for it.

But as soon as a touch it, it falls from my neck. necklace and ring. The side of the ring broken leaving a hole to slip through the necklace, but the necklace is also broken so it slipped off of my neck.

Not knowing what to feel, I take the necklace in my hand and place into my pocket.
Im filled with mixed emotions and I know itll be unfair for the people around me, but im back into my icy,cold minho mode.
and i dont think ill leaving this state anytime soon, not after this incident…

Mian-ah minho.Wae? I look back at sulli, a little annoyed but confuse on why she is saying sorry.

Its just that, from what you told me, The ring being from your grandma and all i thought I was really special and after it breaking… I dont know…i just thought…

well you thought wrong. im fine.

the necklace was only a reminder of my grandmas words so me.

she looks hurt at my first response, but her expression changes too.. hopeful?she takes a small step forward, and what were her words.

*sigh* she made me promise this: "youll live your own life, by your rules and no one elses."
but of course after i beat my father at his own game.

“pshh” why do you keep going on about that nonsense, Minho-ah you dont have to do everything your father tells you! Your grandma was a wise woman, you might actually what to listen to her.

Annoyed with her response, although i know its was harsh, but i could stop myself, the words had already slip through my mouth.

of course its nonsense to you, because you dont know what its like, honestly tell me what can an illegitimate child like you understand.

*gasp* sulli looks hurt, like ive stabbed her a thousand times. but overwhelmed by my own emotions, I could even process it all, all i know is giving her a cold stare i scoff and leave the rooftop.


sullis pov

of course its nonsense to you, because you dont know what its like, honestly tell me what can an illietimate child like you understand.
*gasp* i-i-i cant believe he just said that. you have got to be joking, i search minho’s face and eyes but his not giving anything up. Its like his soul is filled with hatred and ice.

he scoffs and then leaves.
he just freakin leaves.

Im so frustrated, i ruffle my hair and curse minho under my breath. before walking off the roof.

when i make it down the hall i run into someone fimilar.

See? we told you out to intrude with the boys, it will honestly drive you insane. Krystal stands infront of me leaning on lockers.

Come on. she holds out her hand for me too take.

where are we going?youll see now come on.

hesitantly i grab her and and she pulls me away, soon ending infront of the school library.

were meeting the other girls in here, com’on youve got a lot to learn about this school.

Authors pov
after meeting the rest of the girls inside, f(x), begins to profile every person in their grade level for sulli to understand, the system and why some kids are so closed off, while others are so bratty. But the touch subject of the group SHINee, consisting of Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Taemin, and Minho is what sulli is really interested in knowing.

Sullis pov

I dont care, I will reach minho and his thick skull one way or another, Im determined to make him open his eyes and live his life for himself. i then gave myself the hwaiting sign (:

the rest of f(x) begin to grumble and complain, sulli! didnt you hear a word we said in the last 2 hours?!

ok enough! Tell you what, ill explain the little details i know of SHINee, will that satisfy you?My face automatically lights up hearing victoria-unnie?
Plus ill support you, in what your trying to achieve.
I break into a smile, jinja unnie, I half exclaimed half shouted!Shh!!mian-ah!Me too, ill support you, im interested to see how this turns out. But I believe youre capable, amber unnie shoots me a smileWell then we’ll come in too, krystal and luna-unnie chimes in smiling.

Notes

I hope you Like this chapter!!!

Sorry its been awhile, I had writers block >.< (not to mention school -.-)
but hopefully this makes up for it, and Love you all!!