Gratefulness~ pt.4

"I knew it!" Seungri's having hard time trying to play it cool when he sees that I'm sitting on Ji Yong's lap at the backstage.
"I knew you two would end up together! I new it right from the beginning!" he applauds, keeps an eye on us for a moment and then walks into the next room to change his sweaty clothes. I laugh amused. Ji keeps blushing and tries to keep his poker face on. He has once again given a great show along with the others and I got a chance to climb up onto the stage and do a little featuring as well. YG thinks that it's good promotion for my future career.
I wait for the boys to collect their stuff and then we head back to the YG building where everyone leaves to their own directions.

"Do you want to sleep in my bed?" Ji Yong smirks showing off his white teeth as we get into his car.
"You invite me to your home?" I ask surprised with high-pitched voice. He smiles.
"It would be unfair for my friends to sleep in your fancy home though," I sigh.
"Come on," Ji utters a laughter because he knows that I can't refuse. I wrinkle my nose.
"You don't want to see my apartment?"
Of course I want to.
"Okay then," I give in. I really still can't believe that I don't have to restrain myself. I like him for real and he's not with Kiko anymore. I just don't know... Something feels off.

I almost fall asleep on our way and after all I don't know how I got inside. Ji Yong must have carried me through the doorway like they do in the wedding night. Yuck, I don't even want to think about weddings. It's way too soon.
His apartment is gorgeous, as gorgeous as Taeyang's. Electronics that are brand new and are not going to be found in European homes before a couple of years go by. There are some modern and artistic details and a shelf filled with CDs.
When I go searching for the toilet, I get scared badly of a rustling sound. A small dog founds me as he looks around the corner and starts staring at me with his brown eyes. We stay there looking at each other frozen like two statues.
"Oh, hello," I whisper at last and smile at the dog. He tilts his head almost like asking are you talking to me? Then he he walks away with his claws scratching the wooden floor and goes to greet GD.
"Gahooo!" I can hear Ji's happy silent voice babbling and his hands clapping once.
"Bogo shipeo! Mmuah!" he kisses the pile of wrinkles. How cute, I think to myself and can't help smiling as I sneak into the bathroom.

Ji is already waiting for me in the bed when I get back from the bathroom after washing my face and clearing my mouth with mouthwash I found from the shelf. He's laying under the sheets and playing with his phone. I walk to the other side of the bed and undress myself to my lingerie. He doesn't even glance at me but instead lets me get in bed comfortably. Sometimes I feel like I was his naughty foreign girl and nothing else, although, we haven't even gotten that far yet...
Here I am again, laying beside him in the same bed with him. Sometimes I wonder if it's right but I wouldn't like to leave either. I just don't know what to feel... What's okay to do and what's not? What does he think about things like sex and serious relationships, partnerships? How often does he have sex? Occasional sex with random girls or only with the one's he's close with? Does he watch porn or read those kind of magazines? Or is snuggling and kissing more likely his thing? The night in Paris comes to my mind and what it almost lead into, thanks to the bubbly drinks. At that time, Ji said that he couldn't do it because of Kiko. He must be loyal. And I don't think he does a lot one-night stands. Or...? How would I know. There must be a nice queue to his bed so why wouldn't he take advantage of it and his status? No. He can't be like that. At least in my mind he isn't. But I don't know him well enough yet that I would be able to answer.

"Jagiya?" Ji says using soft tone and puts his phone down, looks at me. I pull the blanket over me but leave my lace bra slightly exposed, just because I'm curious to see how he reacts. Ji clearly notices it but doesn't mind. I conclude that he must have seen enough bras an bare skin in his life already. And, well, he's a model as well so of course he has seen a lot of things. He must have.
"You want to sleep?" he smiles at me in a friendly manner. I stare at him.
"Umm," I mumble quietly. Ji gives a laugh and grins. He feels so comfortable in his own house and I am a bit nervous having to sleep in a strange bed.
He wraps his arms around my body thightly and I lean against him without hesitating. But it feels like nothing. My heart aches. What is this...?

Notes

A little shorter and lamer chapter this time. I can't wait to be able to start writing the 5th part. I want to make it even better than the other parts.
------------------------------------------------------

Teaser for chapter 6