Gratefulness~ pt.4

"Do you have a specific place you want to go to?"
I'm driving slowly along the roads, still not too far away from the concert hall. It's my first time driving a car this expensive and amazing but I'm still not afraid. Ji is silently looking outside of the window.
As I turn from the main road to left to a smaller one, I jump a little when something cold touches my back. I look at Ji Yong quickly and see that he has his arm behind my back. He smiles as he sees my reaction.
"Ji Yongie~! Your hand is so cold!!" I yell and focus on driving again.
But Ji just utters a silent laughter and tickles my back with his finger tips. I fidget around.
"Park here," he points at the silent yard of an old factory where I curve. I park behind the corner where it's dark. The engine quiets down. I look at Ji suspiciously.
"So, this is why you wanted to take a ride --"
But at the same time he takes his arm back and get out of the car.
"Oh."
I get out of the car too and follow him to the double doors. He makes sure I'm still with him and he tries to pull the handles. It's locked. And again. But it's still locked.
"What are you doing?" I wonder.
"Nothing," he kicks the door lightly and turns to me. "This is the place where we filmed the Good Boy video," he says.
"Jinjjaeyo?" I glance at the big building. Ji sits down on the ground and takes a lighter out of his pocket.
"You smoke?" I sit down next to him.
"Sometimes..." he tries the lighter. The flame disappears, and again and again. After a while he startles from his thoughts and glances at me."But now now."
"Okay," I lean against the wall. Underneath the tall hedgerow a million little lights sparkle on the sky. It's late already.
"What are you thinking about?" I notice his blank look and wonder why I haven't asked him that before. I have always wanted to get into his head and hear his thoughts. When I didn't know him personally yet. Ji lifts his head and leans against the door. I can't see him perfectly in the darkness but I can see enough. He leans to my direction and looks at me.
"Do you like our new music? The comeback."
"I haven't heard all of them because the album isn't out yet... But of course. I love it a lot," I answer immediately. Of course their music is good. He's so unbelievably good songwriter and then there are the other awesome members.
"Do you really mean that?" he wants to make sure. I nod once.
"Your music never lets me down," I promise him. Ji looks back at the sky and sighs loudly.
"We are coming back after so long time that I'm afraid it's not enough..."
"Seriously now," I take his hand. Ji looks at me. "You have to trust in yourself more." And then I let his hand go and I look at the stars in turn.
"You are an artistic soul," I say. "Just like me. You will do well and the fans you have will always support you. And even if they won't," I smile. "You will get new fans." I look into his eyes.
"You are so good. You're a legend... Kwon Ji Yong."
Ji looks at me silently for a moment and smirks then.
"Aah!" he laughs and stretches his neck.
"You should live for yourself, not for anyone else," I add.
"You're teaching me things and I should be the one teaching you," he hides behind his hands. I laugh.
"It's okay. You teach me something every day."
"Yeah... I guess I just have so many things in my mind that I forget what's important," he smiles at me.
"You should teach me something though," I say and he looks at me wondering what it is.
"You should tell me how I can survive when you're not here," I lean on his shoulder. "Tell me."
Ji's head leans on mine and our cold hands wrap around each other.
"You think you can't survive without me?" his gentle voice asks.
"I can. But you should help me... Sunbaenim."
Ji laughs silently.
"Well," he thinks about it for a moment. His fingers fiddle mine.
"I can give you the key to my apartment."
I turn to look at him eyes widen and mouth opened.
"Really??" I'm looking at him amazed.
"Ne," he smiles a little. I need to hug him.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" I feel so grateful. I look into his eyes.
"Can I sleep in your bed?"
Ji Yong nods with a smile on his adorable face.
"Can I use your clothes?"
"Yes, whatever," he laughs and I smile like an idiot.
"Waah, you are the best! I think I'll survive."

As we get back in time before the last song, I sit down on the stairs to wait. No one is no longer telling me to do something, instead one of the staff persons asks me to come up and watch the show with other V.I.Ps. I get to enjoy the last emotional stage and the ending speach. The fans are screaming and they are crying, the banners are flying in the air and people are moving like great waves against the stage. "I'm so close," I think to myself. "Maybe soon I get to too... No maybe but I will get to stand on stage too with my members and thank my fans. I promise it to myself, that I will."I walk to the backstage with Lydia Paek as the sweaty idols are jumping and running to their rooms. Lydia goes her way too. I stay leaning against the coffee machine, waiting for someone who could take me back to the dorm. Taeyang is the last person to come down the stairs as he has been talking to the sound director. He sees me and waves at me. I smile a little. He doesn't go to the rooms but instead comes to me, with his shirt hanging on his bare shoulder. He's half naked as always. And he's smiling happily after the successful concert, not looking sad anymore which is good.
"There's someone who wants to see you," he says and I follow his look that directs at the stairs. Behind the curtains comes a hand, and then I see a glimpse of pink hair. Who the heck...
"Sara!" I yell as I see her hopping down the stairs and I run to hug him.
"Heii!" she laughs cheerfully and squeezes me. Taeyang smiles and leaves us catching up. I grab my friend's shoulders and take a good look at her. Sara is sparkling and she's smiling as widely as it's just possible. Her glittery outfit is just making everything perfect. I myself am dressed casually in jeans and a black shirt.
"How are you!?" I ask excited and we sit down to talk. She smiles again and I try to still realize the thing that she's actually here.
"I'm good! And what an amazing show it was! I changed a few words with Dara too," she seems to be so excited.
"How are you are?" I laugh.
"I had a some extra money to spend. And didn't I say that I would visit you?"
"Well, yeah you did," I smile. She's holding a flower in his hands. And as she sees that I notice it, she coughs shyly.
"Taeyang gave this to me," she says silently, still smiling widely.
"Ooh, okhaaay," I nod.
"I missed him a bit though," Sara grins.
"I hope you two would end up together," I laugh. "I don't want to come between you two." I might have said too much. Sara gives me a weird look.
"What do you mean coming between us two...?"
"Ash," I huff and make a hand gesture. "It's a long story." Longer than she wants to hear.
"Huh?" she frowns and seems to be upset already. "Tell me right now!"
"Well," I sigh and reveal the thing: "It happens to be so that Tae has a crush on me."
Sara looks at me furiously and glances at the doors, then again at me.
"On you?"
I nod.
"What did you do?"
"Hmh?" I know I should not have told her. But it's not my fault that Young Bae has been interested in me.
"Well, you must have done something to make him like you," she talks loudly and doesn't seem to be at all as happy for seeing me anymore.
"No, not really," I shrug.
"Yeah, right. So, all the famous male idols just happen to have a crush on you? What a good luck you have," she makes fun of me and stands up.
"Where are you going?" I ask astonished of our short conversation.
"To the hotel," Sara answers silently and walks to the door.
"But you could have slept," the door slams shut. "In the dorm too..."

Notes

Actually I have to run but I'll publish the rest of the chapters soon~
And if someone is wondering how many chapters there are... 36th will be the last one.

edit! I don't think I'll be able to update the last chapters today. I'll update them when I can.
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Teaser for chapter 29