Heartbreaker

”Well, were going now! You okay Ji?” TOP said from the door.
”Okay, have fun!” Ji said from the living room.
”We will hurry back, promise!” Seungri said and came out of his room.
”Don't worry about it, just remember to party enough for me to!” Ji smiled and looked up from his phone.
”Okay! Bye!” Daesung said and closed the door.
”Bye.” Ji answers.


JI waited a couple of minutes until he was sure they were gone before putting his phone away. He let out a heavy sigh and sank down into the couch. He felt awful. He hadn't slept at all last night and he didn't think he would do it this night ether. He know he should have talked with the others, they would want to know. But he didn't want to worry them.
In fact it was only his fault, he should be able to get over her. But he only felt love for her, and it broke his heart into even smaller pieces, knowing he didn't care about him.


”Why can't i hate you?!” Ji said frustrated and opened the heart he had been wearing around his neck. The same necklace she should have been wearing. Ji didn't really know why he was wearing it but he couldn't take it of. He didn't want to lose her... Even if it hurt to remember it was better then forget.
The picture inside made Ji's eyes teary and he quickly closed the heart and put it back inside his shirt.


Slowly he got up and walked into the kitchen, he was really hungry. He had not eaten any breakfast and barely any lunch. He opened the fridge to look for something to eat but for some reason when he saw the food he wasn't hungry anymore. With a sigh he closed the door and walked over to his bag witch lay by the front door. He picked up some papers and sat down by the kitchen table. Work was always the best thing to do when you needed to get you're mind of off something.


He picked up the paper with the concert songs and read it again. But he couldn't concentrate, he just couldn't do anything. Every Time he tried to think of different songs or melodies they just mixed together and he ended up thinking of her. He sighed sad and rested his head on the table. This wasn't going to work if he couldn't concentrate.
”Come on GD! Concentrate!” He said frustrated to himself and closed his eyes to try to focus.


He looked up when his phone buzzed and he picked it up to see he gotten a text from Daesung. It considered of a short text message saying 'look who we meet!' and a photo of TOP, Seungri, Taeyang and Daesung together with the new band, Winner. Ji opened his keypad and quickly replied to the text.
Ji: well that's nice, say hi to them from me!
Daesung: Will do! Whose it going?
Ji: Good i guess, just doing some work...
Daesung: Of course you are... well i'm going to go dancing, see you later!


Ji opened the picture Daesung said and looked at it again but something caught his attention. A lightning bolt of pain shoot through his heart when he recognized the three girls sitting at a table in the background. And in the middle she sat, her hair was beautiful as usual and she had that big smile he always loved, but now it just made him wanna cry.


Ji quickly put his phone away and got up from the table. He rushed to his room and slammed the door behind him. As he lay down on the bed he felt tears starting to run down his face.
He wasn't sure how long he had been lying there, but even if he was tired he couldn't sleep. He just lay there, crying silently.


Suddenly the front door opened and he could hear voices. Ji tensed and turned his back towards his bedroom door where he could hear whispers from the others. The door opened slowly but Ji don't turn around. 'Please let them think i'm sleeping, don't come in, leave me alone, please' he thought and forced himself to breathe calm and deep.
”His sleeping..” Ji heard TOP said and the door closed again.
A shaky breath escaped His lips as he turned around and looked at the door. He knew his friends could help him, make him feel better... but he didn't want to burden them with his troubles... he just wanted to be left alone with his own problems, so no one would feel bad for him ar worry over him...

Notes

This is my first fanfiction so please don't hate me for being a nobe and please tell me what you think and what can improve.