Soulmate

“One day you will sing along to the songs you sang when you were young and sad. You’ll be screaming them from the top of your lungs laughing your ass off with your friends and realize why would you ever be sad when life so wonderful. That’s the day you’ll feel pure and true happiness, that’s the day I pray that will come soon for you.”
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I hummed along silently to the blasting of my music through my car stereo when that all too familiar feeling hit me.
Mother Nature had graciously sent me her monthly gift of wonderful life. What’s so good about our society when I still get cramps and bleed over everything I see? I grumbled angrily to myself as I pulled off the road to another leading off to a supermarket.
“What a wonderful day, I have a date and I’m not pregnant.” I announced to myself as I hopped out of my car walking in a rushed manner to get supplies for the rest of the week.
After I hit up the food aisle with my items in my hands I was filled with stress throughout my whole body and mind trying to think of what I can do.
Suddenly I was taken aback when a man had suddenly cut me off due to his tall stature. Luckily, due to my short height I was able to maneuver around him quickly and set down my items a little too forcefully on the conveyor belt with a loud thump since he had not reach the line yet and I was angry at the fact people use their long legs and height to get their way.
“Melissa?” I heard someone say behind me and I turned around to find the man I have met a couple of times before.
“Hi? Your name is Yoongi right?” He stood tall and I was around chest height compared to him; he wore his hair pulled back with a snapback and a pair of black shorts and a black shirt.
“Yeah, I’m glad you remembered me.” He smiled kindly at me and I felt warmth seep into my heart and I returned the favor by smiling back at him.
We both waved goodbye, going our separate ways after I had paid for my things with no further interactions with each other.
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Thirty minutes had creeped up on me and passed by as if it were cars on the freeway. I had been trying to pick out a good outfit for my date with Namjoon since I wanted to be comfortable, and thank god he did say comfortable clothing.
I gave up soon after groaning and making whining noises and complaining about my serious case of indecisiveness. I immersed myself in the pleasant temperature bath water to slowly build up my energy to last me the rest of my eventful day.
I had not even bothered myself to throw in a bath both since it would only lead to my disappointment. So instead, I looked around my bathroom when my shirt that I had been wearing earlier had suddenly changed color right in front of me.
This provoked a fire in my heart as I rubbed my eyes to only find it had gone back to grey. The fire was once again put out by my own disbelief and I slumped back down and dived under the water.
By the time Namjoon has messaged me he was outside of my house, I had barely slipped on my black sneakers and tying up my shoelaces.
I had decided to wear a pair of dark jeans and I soft sweater that paired with it well, adorned with embroidered with wild flowers.
I grabbed my small backpack as I walked silently out of my front door double checking to see it had been locked and I messaged Jaylin quickly about how I would be out on a date with a man as I slid onto the passenger seat of his cool car that gave off the feeling of freshness.
“Um, hi.” I turned to face him and I saw that he was wearing a pair of round glasses and a grey sweater. He had pulled up his sleeves to cover his hands so that you could only see the part of his fingers above the knuckles.
I smiled at him. I admired the fact how adorable he was when he pulled his sleeves out of instinct as I greeted him. I also admired how he had look so put together as in that he changed his hair style so that his hair parted the other way and he just looked so cute.
We were halfway down the street of my neighborhood when I suddenly spoke up. He quickly lowered the volume of the radio as my voice came out quiet and soft spoken.
“Hey,” I cleared my throat, “so what are we going to do today?” I bit my lip as I stared at him, quietly anticipating his answer, he was so engrossed in paying attention to the road that he didn’t even flinch when he answered back to me.
“You’ll see once we get there.” He smiled and gave me a quick wink with his right eye and a quick blush lurked onto my cheeks, blush of the same tint of roses I had once received as a present when I had gone to a dance.
The curiosity soon faded away and so did the awkwardness as if it hadn’t even hit us at all as we both played childish car games to pass the time being.
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We sat comfortably on top of a smooth and silky fleece blanket laid upon the heavenly delicate white sand of the beach we went to.
We nuzzled into each other, my head rested on his broad shoulder and his head on mine, just watching as the bright sun set before us.
“Do you see in color?” His deep voice was raspy in my ear as he had spoken for the first time since we picked our spot on the beach.
I simply lifted my head and looked at him and nodded, signaling that I didn’t. His expression suddenly changed right before me.
“What?” I asked in a soft confused tone as he looked changed from serenity, to confusion, and finally to anger.
“What do you mean you don’t see in color, are you messing with me? I thought we should be together-” He was cut off by me as I stood up not being able to take any of this.
“I-I don’t- I don’t know.” I hung my head down low, staring at the blanket under my feet fiddling with my fingers as he kept ranting on.
I felt slowly take over my body and I felt it within every piece of my soul, my bones, and my veins. My heart feeling heavy.
“I’m sorry.” Was all I said as I walked back to where the car was parked but I had barely lifted my foot off the blanket when I was violently tugged back and fear shook me cold.
I stared blankly at his eyes fearing the worst as warm tears started to fall so violently down my cheeks and I tasted the saltiness.
I just stood limp in his hairs as he hugged me tightly holding me up, giving me support. “I shouldn’t have asked that, I’m so sorry. I made you cry, I shouldn’t have done this, I’m so sorry.”
I felt exhausted at the situation that just had happened and I didn’t know how to react. He pulled away and kept me still in his arms. “I’m guessing you’re still learning to see in color.” His voice sounded broken at this point. I did not have the courage to speak up so I nodded once again, this time to say yes.
“You must be exhausted. Do you just want to order food and watch a movie at my house?” I didn’t have to energy to say no so I just complied as he helped me inside his car.
This time, there was awkward silence. I just blankly stared outside of the car window just wondering how different that could have gone if I was only able to see in color….
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I was still shaken up over what had happened only half an hour ago as I stared blankly at the TV screen in front of me, picking out a good movie for the both of us to watch.
“What movie are we going to watch?” Namjoon asked me as he set down the food on the coffee table placed a lot closer to their couch than usual.
I stayed nuzzled within the confines of the blankets, scrolling through the variety of movies spread out for me.
“You sure you want to watch that?” He sat down next to me and laid his long warm around around my shoulders and I played along, leaning into his body and nodded up at him.
“I’m really sorry Melissa.” He embraced me hard into his arms and a tear fell from my left eye and I quickly wiped it away.
I smiled softly as I looked into his eyes, “it’s okay.” I placed my left hand on his right arm to reassure him and tried my best for my voice not to crack.
He handed me two small takeout containers and I pair of chopsticks, I took them happily as I laid comfortably into him just enjoying his warmth and company.
“Baby girl, are you sure you want to watch this?” I could feel his body tense under mine and I giggled at him softly.
“Aww is my dork scared??” I teased him as I pinched his cheek.
“Yes, you should hold my hand.” He winked at me and I admired his deep dimpled smile.
Well too bad, I’m eating and I’m in your arms anyways. I stuck my tongue out at him and I felt a deep pain in my heart. It hurt a lot but I did everything to ignore it as I continued eating.
My head laid against his chest and I could hear the steady beat of his heart.
Out of habit, I placed my hand on his knee and I tapped my fingers along to his heart and suddenly I flinched when I saw something appear of out nowhere.
“Aww so is my baby girl sad now?” He pouted at me and I swear, I wanted to sock the smug look off his face and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Husshhhhhhhh.” I said as I placed my hands on his face and covered his mouth and then his eyes and we stayed for that for a minute just laughing at each other.
I turned his thighs to serve me as my new pillow and he started to softly play with my silky long hair…
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I opened my eyes slowly as I stretched my body as hard as I can while making little whining noises when I noticed shadows of giant tower figures.
I heard the background noise of a TV and I was confused due to the fact the TV was on and my bed wasn’t exactly my bed.
I opened my eyes to find the other members just staring at me. “Good morning princess.” They all said in perfect unison and I blushed, pulling my sleeves to cover my hands and my face felt hot.
“Melissa stop being cute in front of them! You’re only supposed to be my baby girl!” Namjoon whined from the kitchen and I suddenly smelled pancakes being made.
“So you all live together?” I asked as I sat down at the mahogany like table in their back porch.
“Yeah, pretty much.” Hoseok answered as he handed me my plate topped with three pancakes and I thanked him happily.
I splashed some blueberry syrup on my pancakes and Yoongi set down a cup of iced coffee down for me. “Thank you.” I smiled at him and I quickly took a sip, perfectly content because it was the perfect iced coffee I had in a while.
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I hugged all the members tightly and I was sandwiched in between Jimin and Taehyung. “Alright boys that’s enough.”
Namjoon separated them from me and I laughed, jumping into Namjoon’s car as we drove off to my house.
“I had fun.”
“Really? I’m glad to hear that.”
“Of course, plus I got to see how the members really are and it was cute to see you being a leader.”
“Aish, those guys are really such a handful.”
“Well you do an amazing job as a leader, you’ll do amazing!” I encouraged him on.
“Well, as long as I got my baby girl by my side, I can do anything.” He rubbed my left hand with his right.
“Yeah, well anyways, I’ll see you soon.” I gave him a quick peck on the cheek and I walked quickly to my front door.
I closed the door and slumped against it, taking. a deep. breath.

Notes

sorry guys, my laptop broke and so it was hard to revise this chapter during my computer class but y'know :^)