Your pov

I don't notice the tears that are falling till they hit my hand.
Im in complete shock, I can't move or speak all i can do it repeat the words spoken to me in my
mind.
(y/n) your condition has worsen.
you will need surgery….
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but you only have a 10% chance of survival, or you only have 2 months left to live….
I basically how 2 chooses to die.
I can lose my life on the operation table, or die 2 months from now due to my condition.
They doctors leave so we can “discuss” our choices and chose one.
(y/n) what do you want? Risk it with 10% and live healthily or Live out your last 2 months. J-
hope-oppa asks me.
Lets say (y/n) takes the risk, how do we know that 10% is in her favor when she goes to
operate? jimin shoots out.
(y/n) you don't have to choose right now either, you can always sleep on it and come back and
decide. Minho-oppa pitches in.
While everyone else adds in their thoughts, suho-oppa speaks up, bring a thought that had not
ever crossed my mind.
“When do you plan on telling Luhan-hyung, or were you ever going too (y/n)?”
The room is silent and all eyes are on me.
“I dont know…. but ill tell him after i make up my mind whether or not im going to do the
surgery.”
A nurse walks in and pulls Minho-oppa aside, a couple of other nurses come in and start to
unhook me from all the machines that were connected to me.
You are discharged, you may go home now. But please return anytime within 2 weeks to let us
know if you want to do the surgery.
Ne, gamsahabnida minho-oppa says and bows and we all follow his lead.
Everyone helps me off the bed and gets our things together to leave when someones phones
ring.
Sehun picks up his phone, he looks at his screen and all color disappears from his face as if
he'd seen a ghost.
Sehun, gwaenchanh-a?
he looks up ne, mian but somehing has come up, ill excuse myself and leave before you guys.
He bows, turns around curses under his breath and then is out the door.
odd?


Sehuns pov

I pick up my phone, I stare at my screen and what is written on it sends cold chills down my
back.
Sehun, gwaenchanh-a? (y/n) asks
I look up ne, mian but somehing has come up, ill excuse myself and leave before you guys.
I bow, turn around and rush out the door.
Once im in my car I race home.

Luhans pov

Im worried about (y/n).
Ive tried calling her, actually I called probably about 20 times already, but i kept getting her
voicemail, something wasnt right.
she wasnt at our usual spot after school. Minho, suho, Kai and Sehun were all gone too.
Next i tried calling Minho, he didnt answer either.
I decided to go to their house instead.
I knock and butler Lee opens the door.
annyeonghaseyo.
ahh, Luhan, mian but young master minho and the mistress (y/n) are not home, but you are
welcome to come in and wait for them.
gamsahabnida, I bow to him as I walk through the door.
Subconsciously I walk around the house for 15 mins just looking, their house is a bit larger than
mine, but i still havent seen most of it, soon i end up in front of (y/n) room.
I smile before i walk in and wait in there.
I look around, I had helped (y/n) rearrange her room, a few months earlier.
Now one on of her walls hangs a collage of all her photos shes taken over the years, but my
favorite is her ceiling.
I lay down to look at it, On her ceiling is all the photos we have taken together, the center photo
I have my arms wrapped around her, kissing her cheek, while she has shocking expression
responding to my kiss at beach. We had gone together for our 1 year anni.
Ive been here for about 30mins but its already 6:30 pm and Im getting worried.
I get up from the bed and pace around the room, deciding who I should call when something on
her desk catches my eye.
I walk over and sitting on her desk is a journal laying wide open.
I sit down and begin looking at it.

6/16/10
Im still not allowed to leave my room, nor is anyone allowed in. Minho-oppa cant even come in, I
only see Appa and Umma now a days. Ive just been discharged… again from the hospital…
Everyday my life gets harder to bear, I miss my family and friends…
I miss Sehun, Tao, Chanyeol,Kai and TAemin.
I still Cant believe today marks 2 years of my life that my “condition” has taken from me. Its
been 2 years since ive seen anyone but Appa and Umma, I wonder how they all doing.

She knew all of them even then too? Her condition? what does she mean?
I flip towards the back of the journal and land here

08/28/13
Luhan-oppa surprised me today, our 7 month anni and he prepared a whole day just for me and
him. He made a picnic for us, It was breathtaking all the decoration, i could tell he had put a lot
of thought and effort into it. It really touched my heart, but I controlled myself not to cry.
after we went to a carnival amusement park, I love how he remembered little things that I have
told him, but he brings it to life letting me have a chance to do it. Going through a scary house
was not my favorite but I did have luhan there \(^~^)/ but my favorite was the ferris wheel,
because even though Luhan is scared of heights he still went on for me, just to make me smile.
When he does things like this I cant help but fall deeper in love with my best friend thats my
boyfriend.
sadly though being up so high on the ferris wheel triggered “my condition” causing me to get
sick but Luhan stayed and took care of me back to health.

I cant help but smile as i read that entry, but im still getting mixed feelings as she uses the term
“my condition”
I flip nearly to the front

06/16/08
I am not normal like everybody else around me. Everyones different but mine difference is
taking away my life.

OMO?! Im shocked by her first line

Today I woke up in the hospital, Im light-headed, My chest hurts so bad i want to scream, I have a breathing mask on.
Beside me are Appa, Umma, Minho-oppa, taemin and sehun.
The last thing I can remember is playing with taemin and sehun before feeling like my lungs
bursts and blacking out.
A docotor comes into explain whats wrong with me.
He told me I had pneumonia. But in my case it was sever because it also cause me to
pneumothorax.
Which means I have a collasped lung thats my chest is in pain but its hard to beathe, but lungs
have fluids in them, which comes and goes i cant remove it permentely… and if im not careful
my lungs can all the way up with fluids causing my lungs to collapses completely not allowing
my to breath.
the doctors told my parents its best if I am issolated from the world, till signs show that im
getting better. Im sitting in my room, my first day to my Issolation anf my last day to see minho-
oppa, sehun and taemin.
sehun and taemin promised me before i left that they wont tell anyone else. Itll be a secret.

Omo! Sehun knew!! Ill ask (y/n) later but I want to hear from Sehun first…
angered I fish my phone out of my pocket and text sehun.


To: Sehun
Meet me in 10 at our dorm. You have a lot of explaining due to that you knew of (y/n),
but never once mentioned it to me!!


Frustrated, I get up and leave to meet Sehun, or more like see if he'll show.
I enter our dorm, Im the only one home, I find a note, all the boys were out doing something,
except kai & suho wasn't mentioned, i wonder where they are.
I enter the kitchen for a glass of water, when I hear the door open and
“Luhan-hyung? Hyung where are you?”
I walk out and turn the corner face to face with Sehun.
“How did you find out hyung?”
No, I do the asking and you do the answering, How come you never once brought it up when I
asked you about her sehun? or in any other of our millions of conversations about her huh?
You even told me to me face she was ok! Im boiling in anger and raising my voice now.
Hyung……. there was a long pause before he continued…. If I could have told you at the start I
would have, but I promised i wouldnt. but these is something else I need to tell you.

Your pov

Minho-oppa and I ride back home without talking after im discharged. who could blame us,
we’ve both been basically told I have to ways to die…. but im not even thinking about my own
personal problem, all I can think about is Luhan.
I dont want to see him yet, but I know ill have to tell him soon, but just not yet… Ill have a couple
of days to avoid him and think since im not allowed to go to school untill 3 days time…
when we enter the house butler lee approached us both, young master and mistress, I am
grateful to see you home, and that mistress you *seem* well, but luhan was here earlier today,
but he left in a rush.
ahh, do you know what he wanted? oppa asked
ne, he seemed a bit worried when he came, he was looking for the both of you. but when he left
he seemed hurt and angry.
My heart stops to know that he was here looking for me, but he wouldnt find me because i was
at the hospital without his knowledge. He was angry and hurt, why so?
then I remember sehun he leaving so abbrotatively
*gasp* oppa, you dont think luhan knows do you, I ask with eyes filling with tears to look straight
into my brothers eyes who is tired, swollen, glassy, red and unsure how to respond to me.
If I am the source of his anger and hurt, if im hurting him because of how i am, maybe its best if
I leave luhan and process with the surgery, before i hurt him even more.
Dont do it (y/n).
oppa?
dont do it, leaving him will only destroy him.
but oppa, if im hurting him now, its best if i leave now, risk it and proceed with the surgery, but
without him there, I wont have to hurt him, if i dont make it out.
why dont you talk to him first.
when can I do that oppa i pouted
tonight, right now
OMO!
the boys are near here I can text them to pick you up so you can talk to him.
I sigh, arresso oppa.

kais pov

Im on my way out of the hospital I get a text from sehun

sehun
Kai, Sohee is back...!
shit, what is she doing back here…!
I get a second text

sehun
she coming to the dorm...hurry, and meet me there, luhan is home alone.!
I race home but I hope im not too late.

*Sohee is a past person Luhan crossed paths with. Due to her childishness and how she saw
other people rather than just Luhan, causing luhan to leave her, but she believes Luhan was the
only one for her and everyone else was just her toy when luhan wasn't around. Her profession
was a model so it made her travel a lot. She and Luhan met at a photoshoot she had, while she
was taking a break in a near-by coffee shop.* a picture of her character is below


sehun pov

Hyung……. If I could have told you at the start I would have, but I promised i wouldnt. but i need
to tell you something else.
before I can continue on, our door burst open
Oppas! Im back!!
i turn to look at luhan terrified, who in return has lost all color in his face and is looking at me
with a “WTF” expression
Sohee? her name escapes luhans mouth coldly and then kai runs up out of breath and when he
sees Sohee already there he has eyes as big as D.O.’s

Suhos pov

after the hospital I run into the boys who were hanging out tonight when I hear my phone buzz

minho
suho, do you think you can come get (y/n) or have someone come get her, shes finally going to
talk to Luhan.

To: Minho
sure thing, me and the boys will be right over.
in 10 mins we arrive and pick up (y/n) to drive her to our place to talk to luhan.
Im curious to see where this will lead

Authors pov

A 15 min car ride and you and the boys make it to their dorm. 4 cars are parked there, everyone
recognizes Luhan, sehun and kais but the 4th one is a mystery to them.
everyone walks up, with you trailing in the back with chanyeol, tao and lay unaware of what was
going to happen next.

Kris's pov

I open the door to our dorm to see kai, sehun, luhan and Sohee standing there looking at each
other.
WAIT! what is Sohee doing here?!
what are you doing here! baekhyun spits out disqusitingly
wah, baekhyun-oppa why so harsh? not even a proper hello Sohee pouted which disguised me.
No seriously what are you doing here, suho raises his voice coldly
yeah, we all want to know so answer the question some of the guys rally together.
I turn to chen, make sure (y/n) doesnt see this, maybe she can talk to luhan later, we need to
settle the pest we have here first.
Yah! Im not a pest, and if you guys need to know so badly, Im here for Luhan and walks over
and locks lips with Luhan, Luhan body stiffens and freezes
Luhan-oppa!?
a small frail voice breaks the silence and astonishment in the room,
Luhan quickly pushes kim away only to stare straight into (y/n) watery eyes.
(y/n)! he starts to walk over till, chanyeol grabs his shirt, and yells
Hyung how could you do that!
chanyeol is now shaking him he raises a fist but lay and DO is already holding him back.
(y/n)! he tries to take a step closer but tao has his arms wrapped around (y/n) leading her out
with suho.
Sohee grabs luhan wrist, but he shakes her off “look what you did, my girlfriend is crying and she
just left in crying my brothers arm instead of mine.”
Tsk, so oppa! Sohee rolls her eyes
Luhan looks back and his eyes are blood shot red and anger,baekyun and chanyeol then take
kim and throw her out making her leave.
luhan helds to the door but I stop him, Hyung let (y/n) rest tonight and you can talk to her
tomorrow. Dont make matters worse while both of you are filled with emotions right now.
Luhan looks defeated but then retracts to his room.

your pov

chen-oppa approches me and says that there is something wrong that they need to take care of
so tonight is not the best night to talk to luhan but I cant just come back I really have to tell him
tonight. then I hear a girls voice from inside their dorm, disbelief I run in.
I push my way in to see a girl walk over and lock lips with Luhan, Luhan body stiffens and
freezes.
My whole world had just came crashing down in that second.
He didnt even push her away.
My heart shattered, She stole luhan away from me by kissing him, she kissed his lips, when he
told me i would be the only one to kiss him.
Luhan-oppa!?
my voice is small and frail, it breaks the silence and astonishment in the room, and im afraid to
cry in front of all of them
Luhan quickly pushes her away and stares straight into my eyes which begin to water.
(y/n)! he starts to walk over till, chanyeol grabs his shirt, adn yells
Hyung how could you do that!
I cant hold it in any longer and i begin to sob, tao wraps his arms around me and i cling to my
best friend for support, I hear suho-oppa say hell take me home and all i can do it nod as tao
helps me out the door.
I remain crying all home, but I fall asleep in taos arms as he walks me to the door.
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Im awaken by minho-oppa, he looks tired like he hasn't slept in weeks,
ne oppa what is it?
Luhan is outside at our front door, do you want to talk to him.
hearing Luhans name, brings back a flood of memories of last night and i begin to cry again
because my heart aches at the image of him kissing the other girl.
(y/n) gwaenchanh-a?
anni, oppa please tell luhan to leave i dont want to talk to him today.
arresso ill be back
I lay back down miserable with tears that seem to have a never-ending flow till I fall back asleep.
When i wake up again, Its alright 3 in the afternoon, I get up and prepare myself, as I look in the
mirror, I look like a zombie, no life or color in my face and eyes are red adn puffy and fix myself
to look presentable and walk down stairs.
Minho-oppa was at the dining room table on his laptop
oppa, you didnt go to school today?
anni, I stayed home with you just incase
ahh, ummm oppa?
ne, what is it (y/n).
I want to do the surgery oppa
minho looks at me and lowers his laptop screen to look better at me,
(y/n) are you sure, and you didnt make your decision on last night did you?
I bite my lip to stop myself from crying, anni oppa i lied, I thought about it and made up my mind
I want the surgery.
minho-oppa doesn't meet my gaze…
oppa? gwaenchanh-a?
he looks up and chuckles, his eyes are watery and their getting red, everytime he wants to cry
this happens.
and I remember if i do the surgery i only have a 10% chance of survival which means i could
leave my parents and minho-oppa.

EXO(without luhan) pov

We all get a text from Minho(hyung) saying that (y/n) has made up her mind to do the surgery,
but not to mention a thing to Luhan.
complication is the fight to whether or not tell luhan… we probably should so they can talk it out,
not to mention set it straight with Sohee who has been blowing up luhans phone ever since.

baekhyun, chanyeol, and chen pov

we all look at each other in agreement so we nod our heads.
we turn and fish out our phones and we each send word to luhan, he deserves to know and
those love birds need to talk.

Luhans pov

My phone buzzes 3 times one after another. I was annoyed thinking its from Sohee but Its from Baekhyun, Chayeol and Chen, and they all
say the same thing.
reading it sends sharp pains to my heart, why didnt she want me to know?
ill find out myself i as leave to find her.
I reach her house and I go in
butler lee appears in the room, Luhan please the mistress isnt feeling well and doesnt want any
company.
butler lee please, I have to talk to her, I made a mistake and I need to make up for it.
Butler lee sighs and looks behind him before looking back at me and saying “I didnt see you
enter” and he leaves.
I walk to the back and i see (y/n) is on a swing with her head pointed to the sky. The wind is
blowing so it makes her look amazing, but my heart is still sadden when i approach her.
as i walk towards her, I step on a twig
*SNAP*
shit!
she turns around and her eyes widen “luhan”
still hearing her call my name melts my heart but she soon becomes cold.
Luhan, what are you doing here she asks in a cold manner, and her eyes show no expression.
Im taken back, but I manage to say “the surgery, how come you were going to do it but not tell
me?”
who told you that? she asked shocked
thats not the point (y/n), why didnt you want to tell me or for me to know.
because i thought it was better that why, i didnt have to say goodbye?
goodbye what do you mean goodbye?
AARGGG! she lets out a frustrated cry, because choosing the surgery means,I only have a
10% chance of living.
this i did not know and a door closes behind us revealing minho and sulli

your pov:

*SNAP*
I turn around and my eyes widen “luhan?!”
Luhan, what are you doing here I asks in a cold manner
luhan responds with “the surgery, how come you were going to do it but not tell me?”
who told you that? I asked shocked
I really didnt want him to know, who could have told him there was 11 other boys -.-
thats not the point (y/n), why didnt you want to tell me or for me to know.
because i thought it was better that why, i didnt have to say goodbye?
goodbye? what do you mean goodbye?
AARGGG! because choosing the surgery means, I only have a 10% chance of living.
Im at the verge of tears, I really want luhan to hug my and tell him itll be ok and that ill see him
after, but i have to remain strong.
a door closes behind us revealing minho and sulli, I turn around facing luhan and the words i
dread all this time flows out of my mouth, but what breaks my heart is luhans expression as he
hears them.
Luhan its over, have a nice life with the girl you kissed because im done with you.
I turn with a twist of my heel and head toward the house.
(y/n)! luhan yells and grabs my wrist turning me back towards him.
(y/n) i never meant to hurt you, if this is what that is all about im truly sorry, but dont go.
I want to brush off the tears that are running down my angels face, but i have to be brave, i have
to do it now or i wont be able too later.
I know im going to pierce his heart, but not just his but mine too.
I shake him off,
“you dont get it do you luhan, we’re done. there is no more us, we. I dont love you (i do, i do
love you please dont believe that i dont). Youll be happier the fast you more on. (please dont
move on wait for me). Face reality Luhan.
and I run out the door before he can see the tears that are already flowing hard.

Luhans pov

she turns arounds and runs off
as im about to take off after her, minho stops me
Luhan-hyung please dont make this any harder for her.
She doesnt want to hurt no one if she doesnt make it out, but you chasing after her is killing her
slowly.
Luhan wait until after her surgery to reconnect with her and embrace when she survives, but
right now let her be. sulli adds in

your Pov

I run away crying, tears blur my vision. I cant see where I'm going. I dont care that the tears
leave hot streaks against my face. I just have to get away from here!
"Luhan, I'm so sorry Im leaving you like this."
"Please dont hate me forever."

authors pov

You're running to fast and crying to hard to see that youre in the middle of the road. You dont
hear the blaring horn or see the blinding headlights. The driver swerves to prevent hitting you
but its already to late.

your pov

I keep running, my legs cant stop and my tears wont either. I cant help it but cry and scream out
loud
"WHY ME, WHY ME OF ALL PEOPLE!"
My thoughts are interrupted by lights and a horn honking. My eyes widen with terror, I tell myself
to move but Im frozen with fear. The car swerves but fails to miss me.
As I lay of the ground unable to move;
I love you Luhan, Please forgive me. and it goes dark.

Notes

Hey guys! \(^~^)/
Thank you sooo much for the 1,030! *90 degree bows*
You guys are awesome! =^.^=
I love thinking new ideas for each chapter and well now they story can start full action now
Thank you for sticking through the long, drawn out explained beginning "background" chapters :D
I hope you like this update and also future update!
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can you guys believe school is ending soon and summer is basically here o.O
im super excited!