Taming The Dragon

||T.O.P||
Kiotni and I have been ‘Fake Dating’ for almost a month now. I’ve took her to movies, dinner, music theaters, and everything of the like. I happy I’ve been able to make her happy, even though Ji is still being distant. But, although I agreed to our plan with Kiotni there’s something I really needed to tell her. It couldn’t be avoided, conflict may arise but I was ready for it.
Winter was here, and the streets were covered with a thin layer of snow. I looked out my window and stared at the dull grey sky that was covered with a thick layering of clouds. I pressed my fingers onto the cold glass. I sighed to myself, and stepped away. I looked out into the hall and saw that Ji had locked himself into his room. I debated on whether I should go talk to him but I shook my head. Instead I grabbed my coat and went out the door.
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I walked up to the familiar drive way and knocked on the door. Few minutes later her beautiful face came to the door. She greeted and smiled at my company, I smiled back. I told her to dress warm and come to my car.
We walked down the trial of the park of where we first met, she kept asking what were we going to do today and why I had my hand behind my back but I kept quiet and smiled telling her to wait a little much longer.
I led her to the bright that was over the slightly frozen lake, I looked at her as I took a few breaths. I could see my breath in the cool air. Kiotni looked too beautiful in her gold eskimo coat, I looked at her pink lips that had a slight shine to it from her gloss.
“Was there something you wanted to tell me?” she said softly.
More than you could ever know, “Yes,” I said, it became silent again. The only thing that made noise was the smooth wind chills. I gave another sigh and spoke, “Kiotni….I’m honored to be the lucky man to spend my time with you all this month,”
She gave a small smile but didn’t say anything.
I swallowed, and shifted my feet, “And…I just want to tell you, I really care about you and the choices you make. I really do,” her eyes slightly widened in anticipation. ”But…it’s just that, after being around you and really getting to know you, I want you to know that…” I pulled my hand from behind my back and held out a bouquet of flowers in front of her. She gave a soft gasp, “I don’t want to fake my feelings anymore,”
||G-Dragon||
I ponded my fist to the wall with tears running down my face and gritted my teeth. It wasn’t fair….. Hyun has been with Kiotni almost all month. And all I can do it sit back and watch it happen for the sake of my mother. I pounded my other fist to the wall and gave a cry in agony. I saw Hyun take the flowers when he left the house, and I didn’t even have to follow him to see what he was about to do. I already knew he was going to confess his love to Kiotni. I slid down from the wall to my knees; more fat tears fell down my face then to the floor.
I turned to sit on the floor with my back against the wall; I tightened my eyes shut as I violently tugged onto my hair. It wasn’t fair….I needed to do something, even if it risked my life. But then I thought of my mother, I’d be devastated if I see her get hurt.
I took a deep sigh trying to calm down; I pulled a shoe box from under my bed and lifted the lid up. I gave a dead stare at the firearm I had hidden; I picked it up and observed it in my hand. I ran my hand over the engraving I had on the barrel that read ‘Je t'aime’(I love you in French) in cursive.
I brushed a finger across the trigger. I promised myself to use this for only one cause, and that cause is now’
||Kiotni||
My eyes widened, when I saw the large flower bouquet Hyun had in front of me. I stammered for words and despite the cold air my face became warm, I took the flowers and looked down at them. Then I looked back a Hyun I was lost for words.
Hyun broke the silence, “If you don’t return the feelings its ok,” he said, “I just wanted to show you how I felt,”
My mouth became dry, snow started to come down landing softly on my cheeks, “I…” I stopped and sucked my teeth in, instead of saying any more words I ran into Hyun with a tight hug. I started to sob and cold tears ran down my face, all the memories I had with him since we first met flashed through my mind and all the affection he has gave to me. He embraced me by placing his arms around me then placing a hand to my hair caressing me.
I started to tremble, and it wasn’t from the cold, “I love you,” I choked out.
Hyun pulled back and lifted my chin up to face him, snowflakes were scattered around his hair. He had a soft and gentle stare as if he could see right through me.
“You’re just confused,” he said softly, “And it’s ok. I know you still think about Jiyong,”
I looked down, he was right. I can’t just say I love someone when I know my heart is in the middle of an emotional shipwreck. I whipped the tears off my face, “I do, but… he doesn’t love me, at all.”
Hyun became quiet then leaned in to kiss me on my lips, his lips were surprisingly soft. He even snuck a tongue in. I pulled back with a smile to my face.
“I’m sorry…” Hyun said looking away.
“Don’t be, I really appreciate this, everything you have done and I appreciate you,”
He gave a small smile and held my hand, “Let’s get out this cold,”

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