Heart and Seoul

I couldn't sleep at all that night when I left the hospital, I even thought about just skipping class Monday morning. I looked at the clock; it was about 3Am I sighed and took out an old binder I had stored in a box. Then it came to me. Scrapbook. That's what I needed to do! Make a scrapbook of all of our memories. I found one blank peice of paper I could use for the cover. I didn't have any other papers or added decorations but I figured I could go to the art room to find more things I could use. I turned the main light off and left my lamp desk on so I wouldn't disturb Crystal while she slept. I took out a couple pencils, Pens, and whatever coloring utensils I can find to draw the cover for the scrapbook. It took a few minutes I draw out the letters, I even took the time to draw chibi versions of Jungsoo and I. I finished around 5:36 and decided to get some much needed rest with the binder close to my heart.
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I woke up late afternoon and decided to print off the pictures from my camera and get more supplies from the art room. When I went to the classroom the door was surprisingly unlock which was pretty convienient for me, I walked to the back room and took a couple of various designed papers and stencils to trace with. I got startled at the sound of the door closing. I turned and saw Mrs. Chen the art professor giving me a confused look.
"what are you doing here miss Tates?" she asked.
"oh, I just came to get a few supplies for a project I want to do," I told her.
"may I ask what's the project?" she asked, "I haven't assigned anything all week,"
"it's a scrapbook. I wanted to make it for Jungsoo and I. But mainly for Jungsoo,"
She nodded her head in an understanding manner, "ah, Jungsoo," she said softly, "wonderful kid he is..."
"yeah, I want him to have something when he comes back from the hospital,"
Mrs. Chen clicked her teeth, "ah, I take it you two are close yes?"
"yes,"
She took a seat at a table and offered me to sit, "I think I should explain something to you," she started to say, "Jungsoo, isn't really an official student here however his mother who was a member of the campus staff before she passed allowed him to take regular classes that he liked like any other student. All of the staff knows about his condition and it's risk."
"so everyone knows about it?"
"all of the people that work here yes,"
"has anyone tried to do anything for him?"
She shrugged, "there's not much we can really do. It's all in the doctors care, I care a lot about Jungsoo I really do. And I really like that you two became close, it's nice to see him smile again though." she said with a small smile, "as long as I've been here this is the brightest I've ever seen him,"
"well I'm glad to be the person to make him happy,"
She placed a hand over mines, "maybe you might change his fate," she said softly, then she stood up, "well, I'll let you use the classroom for whatever it is you may need. Just close the door when you're done,"
I smiled, "thank you so much Mrs. Chen,"
When she left I began on the project by cutting and gluing a lot of things, it was so much easier with a lot of space and supplies to use. Mrs. Chen even stopped back in and gave me some tea and sugar cookies. It took me about 4 hours to complete all 16 pages front and back. I took a deep breath at my finished work.
"this is really nice," she said.
"thank you," I said, "I can't wait for him to see it,"
She patted my back, "he'll love it,"
After I cleaned up my workspace Siwon came in breathing hard as if he's been running all day, "Camille... Y-You should come to the hospital. Quick!" he painted.
I quickly grabbed the scrapbook and ran to his car with him. "what's going on?" I asked.
"I'm not sure, I called to check on him and he said he wasn't feeling good and he was getting scared,"
I gripped on the book and bit my bottom becoming nervous and scared of what's going to happen.
When we got to the hospital we quickly went to Jungsoo's room. It felt as if the atmosphere suddenly became gloomy and depressing And the room felt so cold. Jungsoo was attached to more machines than before. It was dead silent and the only thing you could hear was the beeping of his heart moniter. I sat next to him and placed my hand on his. It was freezing cold. Almost deathly cold, it was scary. I gulped and rubbed his skin, "Jungsoo," I said softly, "it's me,"
He slowly turned to face me with an tired look on his face. He looked terrible, with the dark bags under his eyes as if he hasn't slept in months. He gave a weak smile and tried to say something but only coughed.
"don't strain yourself," I told him.
He took a deep breath and squeezed my hand, "I missed you," he said in an almost inaudible tone.
"I missed you to," I said, I took out the scrapbook from my purse and placed it in front of him for him to see. He gave a weak smile when he saw it.
"you did it,"
"yeah," I said as I opened the pages for him to see, "I even got the pictures developed of all out adventures,"
He pointed at one photo, "that's from the art museum," he smiled.
"yup, every picture that we ever took is in this book,"
"I love it," he said
"I'm glad, I couldn't wait for you to see it," I said, "and maybe when you get better we can do so much more, like the amusement park, and maybe the zoo, and and... Traveling to Disney world and London," I tried to say in a hopeful tone but sounded more like begging tone. Before I knew I got myself worked up in tears. I tried to wipe them away but only more came, "I don't want to lose you!" I wailed.
Siwon placed a comforting hand on my shoulder as Jungsoo squeezed my hand, "you'll never lose me," he said.
Beep. Went the heart monitor.
"but you have so much To live for," I sniffled.
Beep.
"I know Camille, but things happen. And people get unlucky. Guess my mother and I were just unlucky people."
Beep.
I shook my head, "no. You two were never unlucky, you two are great and amazing people and have a lot to offer to this world," my voice started to shake from all the crying. "I want to do so much for you,"
Beep.
"you already did Camille," he said, "you accepted to be my ideal wife, had a beautiful wedding and family, and best of all, memories."
Beep.
More tears welled up as I thought of all the things we did together. "our memories will never die," I told him, "ever,"
Beep.
"you have a large and beautiful heart,that's what I love about you," he said weakly, "it's almost angelic,"
Beep.
I sniffed and wiped my teary eyes with my hand, "I love you Jungsoo, so much..."
Beep.
"I love you to Camille," he said, "the first saturday of when I helped you. I knew you were different from the rest. Not because you were just a foreign student from America, but I knew that you had a pure and loving soul that could bring the best in anyone...even in me.... I never thought I'd feel happiness again, let alone love....and I thank you for that, I love you,"
Beep.
He closed his eyes and His hand started to feel limp in mines. I placed both hands over his and gasped, "J-Jungsoo,"
he slowly opened them back up and looked at me, "I'm glad to be put out of the misery by holding the hand of the person I love...and now I can finally see mother again," he whispered, "thank you...."
A single tear of mine fell onto his hand.
Beeeeeeeeeep.
His head lightly fell back into the pillow and his hand fell lifelessly as the moniter went flatline. "JUNGSOO!!! N-NOO!" I yelled, As I slightly shook him, "y-you can't die! You can't!!!"
Doctors and nurses rushed into the room pushing me out of the way, I cried out for him to wake up again.
"Somone get her outta here!" shouted a nurse.
"no! He needs me!!" I bawled, Siwon had to take me by the arm and dragme out of the room. "he's not dead.... He not dead!"
The last thing I could remember was the large wooden door being slammed into my face.

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