In Hiding

~Chungji P.O.V.~
I didn't sleep at all that night or the next because of my nightmares. I also have been trying to avoid talking to the other members as much as possible. But today is the big day, the day I debut. I can't believe i have actually gotten this far into this plan. I thought about texting the number back that is suppost to be my brother but I decided not to when I realized it could be a trick. What if its not really my brother? What if he's on the bad side?
"Are you almost ready to go?" Taemin asked.
"Yeah just a second" I said grabbing the shoes that he had bought me and put them on.
"Are you ok?" He asked.
"Yeah why would I not-" I said looking up and he was right above me.
"You don't look good at all. You also have been avoid me and the others. Ever since the other night when you said you got a text and freaked out you have been acting different. What's going on?"
"Nothing I'm fine." I said and got up to walk out the door but he blocked it.
"What did the text say?" He asked.
"Nothing." And I walked past him.
***
I sat in the makeup/hair chair havng my eye makeup done when key came over with a wig. He put it on my head messy like and laughed.
"You would make a pretty girl hahaha see!" He said.
I looked at myself and for a second really missed my long hair but then fell back down to reality.
"Yah! That's not funny haha!" I said but couldn't help laugh too.
I took the wig off and the manager came over.
"Don't be nervous and it will all go smoothlyy. I know you can become a great member. " he said giving my shoulders a squeeze "good luck"
My phone vibrated in my pocket and I took it out to check it.
Good luck sis I will be watching in the crowed. ;)
My heart sank when I read it and i quickly put my phone up.
"Its time!" Someone screamed wearing a headset.
***
Halfway through the song I felt like passing out but I tried my hardest to put on my best preformance. When the song ended I walked over and stood between Key and Taemin. Taemin put his arm around my shoulders and congratulated me on the preformance but i didn't say anything back.
"We are shinning SHINee" we all said and bowed.
But I didn't come back up, instead I blacked out right on the stage.
~Chungji's dream~
This time it was a good dream. I was about six years old and I was holding my mom and dads hands. I looked up at my dad and realized he's not the same man as in my other dreams. They both swung me back and forth as we walked down the side walk and we laughed. We got ice cream at a stand and walked down the boardwalk as we ate it. I wonder if this is a real memory because I really hope it is.

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