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~~ONE MONTH LATER~~
I have been feeling so cold recently! I've always hated the winters.The coldness of the weather goes inside my bones and never leaves it,unless the spring comes.
And the mid-term exams.They've already started.Well,none of them is as hard as the exams we took in the high school,but I've growns lazy with studing.I haven't been spending a whole day studing since I graduated from school and now it is so hard to spend a hour studing.I know,you've all exprinced this after the summer vacations.
Exams in winter! well,this is not the wrost part.I'm badly missing mom and dad.After they'd given The South Star to Luhan to be in charge of it,They left Korea.They think after 50 years living in tension and stress and work,they need the rest of their life to be spent with leisure.They are now sure of me and The south star.
Had I knwon that they'll leave me alone,I would have never got married.They are not even missing me.What parents I've been grown up by!
Hell,I bet if they knew Luhan is not taking care of me,they would tell us to get divorced.He goes to the company early in the morning and comes back late in the night.He doesn't come back home some nights and stays in his office although he calls me every time and tells me not to stay home alone,to go to his parents' or Sam's.I've not seen him for a week now.In his idea South Star is dominant.
But I don't complain.The reason I married him was South Star and he's doing well with it.Wheter I miss seeing him or not,He must be taking care of the company.
I went to the desk which I've been always studing at, in the school library.Again Jong in was sitting there. I changed my direction and walked out of the library.
Jong in hadn't still let go of me.All I can do is trying to avoid him at school but he is everywhere.I can't understand what he wants from a married girl.This is just too rude and I can't do anything.
Seeing Jong in changed my study mood.I went to the cafe neer by Sam's school,Where she works at.
And about Sam.She's changed.She seems to be hiding something again,while at the same time she's not trying to hide it!
She sat in front of me."What do you fancy ma'am?"
"Hot coffee."I said while I looked at her from head to toe.She had changed her hair and dressing style.She wore high heels and jeans,unlike when she'd used to wear skirts and sneakers.
"Seriously Sam,Why have you changed?"I asked curiously.
"I have changed?"She blushed."Really?"
My jaw dropped."You blushed.Just tell me what's happened to you?"
"Nothing."She said randomly."how are you and Luhan doing?"
"haven't seen him yet."I sighed.
"You're missing him?"She grinned."I told you,you've fallen in love with him already"
I glared at her.Her ideas were just too rude."that's not it.I'm just feeling alone!I have no body left!!!"I reassured.
"You are sick?Yo're voice has changed."She asked out of no where and put her hand my forehead."You have fever."
"I have a cold.I have a terrible headache.just a coffee will make me fine."I smiled.i have been feeling sick recently.
"I'll just bring it right now."She stood up and went to the counter.
I followed her with my gaze.She was just too strange.Shall I be detective again?The last time I turned to my deective side,the result was not so lovely,you know.
But well,She's acting so mysteriously.I can't stand this.
I stood up and looked at Sam who was busy perparing my coffee.That was time.
***
Sam didn't even notice I was hiding beside the counter,where the customers were paying.She went to the the table and when she didn't find me there,she called me,but I ignored her call and waited there,to know what her next reaction will be.
She came back at the counter and drank the coffee herself,nagging what a strange girl I am.I tried to hold my laughter.That would be so funny if she found me there.
The fifth coulmn I am,I waited for a few minutes waiting for something to happen,which will tell me what's going on.And just then a call gave her big secret away.
Her phone rang.She picked the call up.
"Hi,hihihi,I'm fine.At the cafe how about you?Everything okay there?what's Luhan doing?-"
My eyes widened when i heard Luhan's name.Who was she talking to?Why is she asking about Luhan?
"-hihi,She is missing him too."
Who?I'm missing him and he is missing me back? Are they talking about me though?
"-She was just here and when I told her she is missing Luhan,She disapeared."
That was surely about me and Luhan.
Sam laughed loudly."That is so true Sehun!!"
I was about to choke my own saliva.Sam was talking to Sehun-Luhan's best friend.Why?What was their relationship that they seem this close?
"This afternoon?Hmmm,I don't think I'm busy then.Okay,see you then."She grinned."I love you too."
What the hell?
So she was dating Sehun and she hadn't told me anything about it?
I stood up and cleared my throat to give her attention.She looked at me shocked.
"Moon ri,You scared me!"She put her hand on her chest.
"Were you talking to somebody that you are scared?"I raised my eyebrow and leaned to the counter.
"Since when are you here?"She asked still shocked.
"Since when Sehun callled you."I said simply.
"You heard it all?"her eyes widend.
"Enough to know what is going on."I walked closer to her."Since when have you been dating him?"I asked seriously,trying to look scary.
"A-after your wedding party"She stuttered.
"Why didn't you tell me about it?"I asked in the same tone.
"I thought you won't like it."She said with begging eyes."I swear I was going to tell you that."She reassured."I'm sorry Moon Ri."Her eyes were starting to tear up.
I couldn't hold my laughter any more."hahahaha,Congratulation."I laughed."This is your first boyfriend!!"
She was silent for afew seconds."You're not mad at me?"
"Why Should I ?"
"I didn't tell you that while I've promised not to hide anything from you anymore."
"Come on,You never keep your promises!"I said still laughing at her scared face."by the way!"I stopped laughing suddenly.
"What?"she asked.
"Sehun said Luhan is missing me too?"I asked curiously.her expression changed.
"Get away.If you are dreaming of getting information from Luhan by me and sehun's realtionsip,dream on.that won't ever happen."
"So he is missing me."I grinned ignoring her statement.I was too busy thinking about Luhan to hear her other saying."Thank you"I kissed her cheek and ran out of the cafe while I was hearing sam yeling my name.
I wasn't feeling alone anymore.That was so enough for me to know that Luhan wants to see me too.

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I've planned some plans.
Let's say I've admitted that I like Luhan.
To be honest with myself,I think I like him.Why would I miss him if I didn't like him?My heart beats fast when evr I hear him opening the door and coming back,when I see his face,when I see his smile,and this is getting more and more everyday.
The point is to know if Luhan loves me or not!I can not do anything if he doesn't have an feelings to me but everything will change if I know he loves me back.
He is just so somehow.Just when I'm sure that he hates me,he does something that tells me that he loves me.
Well,to know the truth I have planned some plans!
If all the plans tell me that he loves me,then we can reason that he really loves me.
But even if one fails,that means I'm just imagining that he loves me.
I will admitt it if he doesn't like me.I will just stop my feeling about him and forget everything.As easy as that.
It is almost time for plan A.
~PLAN A~
Act as if you have feelings to Luhan (Well,it s not acting) And make him believe that you love him.If he loves you,He'll surely do something when he founds out you are loving him back but if he ignored it,It means he is avoiding your feelings!!
That is a simple plan,but it is the best way to know the truth.I looked at my cellphone waiting for his call.He usually calls me this time to say that he won't come home tonight.The first thing was to make him stay home.
Finally he called.I took a deep breath.
"Hello."I said.
"Is it you Moon ri?"he asked,with his same handsome voice on the phone.
"Who else can it be?"I asked bored.
"Your voice has changed.Is anything wrong?"He asked worried.that was usual,he always cared about me.
"No.I just have a cold."I closed my eyes and waited for his next answer.Well i had been feeling so sick and I didn't have to pretend anything.I was just using my sickness.
"What?You are sick?Why haven't you told me that?"he asked loudly.I made more space between the phone and my ear.
"You're annoying my ear."I moaned."I always get sick this time in the year.By the way,your father told me to tell you to call him."I tried to change the subject,to see his reaction.
"Have you seen a doctor?"he asked.I smiled.
"Not yet."
"You must see a doctor when you are sick."
"I hate doctors,I'd rather die than seeing a doctor."I groaned.
"Get dressed.I'll be there in half an hour."he said.What if he will take me to a hospital?Hell no!I'm afraid of hospitals.i musn't have used my sickness.It was a mistake.
"I won't go to hospital.I'm fine you know.You don't need to come.by the way why did you call?"
"Moon Ri?Are you a child?You're afraid of hospitals?"he asked.My eyes widened.Did I give myself away?
"Of course no!I'm not too sick to go to a hospital.You look so busy.We can talk tomorrow.I'll hang up!"I said and hung up.It was near.He would have taken me to the hospital if I hadn't stopped my foolish plan.
I decided to adjurn the plan to some days later,when I wasn't in danger of being taken to the hospital anymore.I buried myself under the two blankets.but I still felt cold.I hugged myself and closed my eyes to sleep but I couldn't.The headache didn't let me sleep.
I heard the click of the door suddenly.My eyes widened in fear.Luhan was here?he wanted to take me to the hospital?
"You're awake Moon ri?"Luhan sat on the edge of the bed beside me.I uncover my face and looked at him.I was seeing him after a week.I wanted to jump ang hug him,but hell all I could do was to stare at him.
"What are you doing here?"I asked finally.
"What do you mean?I can't be in my own house?"He asked.
I glared at him."What do you want?
"Nothing."he said simply and put his hand on my forhead."You're burning."He said.
"I'm not.I'm not sick.I'm really really really fine."I said and take his hand off my forehead gentely.
"Calm down.I won't take you to the hospital,Okay?"He asked kindly.
"You won't really?"I asked in doubt."You can't call the family doctor either."I added.
"Okay."he chuckled.
"Why did you come back?You had things to do,didn't you?"I asked.
"I was done.I'd been working a week."
"Really?"I sat on the bed.Luhan was staring at me."hm"
I looked at him and we made a long eye contact.He was the one who broke it first."Why are you staring at me?"
"I missed you."I said honestly.his expression didn't change."Can I hug you?"I asked.
he smiled."Of course."he said and pulled me in his embrance.I buried my face in his neck to feel his familiar scent.We stayed that way for a while.
"You want to make me sick,don't you?"He asked.
I smiled and pulled away."I'm done."I smirked.
"Seriously,you wanted to make me sick?"his eyes widen.
I grinned."I want to sleep."I said and went under the blanket.I bet he was still wondering I said I missed him honestly or not.He went to the bathroom and i closed my eyes,now ready to sleep.
***
I opened my eyes.It was dark.I was feeling a sharp pain in my throat and my muscles were stiff.
I sat up hardly and looked at Luhan who was sleeping peacefullyI walked out of the room quitely,making sure not to wake him up.
I went to the kitchen and made some coffee to calm my throat.That always worked on me.I sat at the table waiting for the coffee to be ready.Everywhere was dark except in the kitchen and that was scary.
I drank a sip of the hot coffee.It was so painful.I laid my head down on the table to wait for the coffee to cool down.
"What are you doing?"I heard luhan's morning voice.I looked up at him.he was standing in front of the refrigerator rubbing his eyes.He looked like a child who had woken up early to go to school.
"Did I wake you up?"I asked.
"No,I woke up myself."He said and sat behind the table.
"Do you want coffee?"I asked again.
"No,It peps me up.Why didn't you sleep?"
"I was sleeping but I woke up with no reason.i said and sat straight,staring at him.
"Fine."He said and stared at me.We kept staring at each other."drink it before it cools down."he said.I looked at the coffee.
"Luhan?"
"Hm?"
"Why are you kind to me?"I asked suddenly.
"Why?You don't like it?"He said.
"I just want to know the reason."I insisted.
He went silent for afew seconds."I don't know.I just want to."He finally said and stood up."I'm going to sleep."He went to the bedroom.I followed him with my gaze.
Seriously,why is he kind?

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