Everything was going good after all of the things that happened.
Who thought that I had such a past?
A heart broken girl who falls down a rock accidently and forgets just what is conected to the boy who's broken her heart.Everybody thinks she wanted to kill herself so after recovery,they hide everything from her.
After two years the boy comes back and makes her remember everything.He wants the girl to come back but she is too hurt to.
Although it was tough to deal and it took me a week to accept it,I admitted that every life has a mystrey.My mystery was just like k-dramas.That was what I've always whished to have.A life with a secret part that will someday reveal.What better than this?
I closed the novel and rolled in my bed.Though I had read this novel 7 times,But It was still the same intresting as the first time. a saturday afternoon,which was not an usual saturday.The wedding was just tomorrow and everything felt so strange.My hear was beating fast.I was stressed and I didn't know why.Everything went so fast.It seemed just yesterday when mom told me I'm going to amrry the serious hard working Luhan,Who doesn't seem so now.
Everything has changed now.Luhan has changed.He is not the same Luhan.The Luhan I knew was a beast.But this Luhan is by no means a beast although I always call him that.He is annoying but inside he's kind and lovely.He can be the husband who evryone wishes to have.I do wish to have him as a husband,but not a forced one.
What is going to happen in the end of this marriage is what I always wonder.What will we eally be to each other?A wife and a husband?Not really.We can't be that because it doesn't make sense.
What I'm sure about is that Luhan and i can never be lovers.Even if I fall in love with him,He'll never love me.
What will happen to two of us?We wanna live together forever like strangers?We'll get divorced?We'll be a real married couple? I don't know.
I know this is strange that I'm thinking about these.A girl in the night before her marriage has lots of things to think about.But I don't even know what kind of wife and husband we'll be?What about our first night and stuff?That is just too confusing!
Maybe I musn't have agreed with this from the first.I didn't know this will be like this.Luhan was diffrent at first and he was not confusing.Now he acts as if he loves me.WHy does he even kiss me?What does it mean to him?If he kisss me,does it mean that he'll go further?I don't know!
People say love is a strong feeling.I have never felt love and I don't know how it feels to have that.
People say A lover is not afraid of losing anything,What if I love somebody else later?
And all I care is south satr,My father's company.What will happen to south star if we get divorced?
I don't know.
There are a lot of things that I need to know but I don't.But this marriage still feels true.
I wonder waht Luhan feels about this?
~Luhan's POV~
This is strange.
I'm feeling somehow.
I'm surprised by how it went fast.3 months are passed from the day that Moon RI was engaged to marry me.
marry!
Yes,we're getting married and just god knows what'll happen in the end.
How will this thing will end?
Yes,I likee her and the thought of not having her anymore sends shiver down my spine.
i don't know it was destiny or luck that she's the one I'm going to marry.I'm grateful that she's the one.She is nice,intellegent and logical although she's young.She is simple and innocent like a child.She is ful of enrgy to live and wherever she's,is happy.The way she lives,the way she likes something,the way she means everything,they are all innocent and true.
How good it would be if we weren't forced to marry.
If I found out what she's like from the first
if I could make her like me
Such a afternoon would be a great one.
I'm lucky that she'll be mine this easily and I know i'll have to pay for this.
No matter how hard it will get to have her mine,I will never let her get out of my possetion.

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~~Moon Ri's POV~~
I went down the stairs bored with the novel in my hands.Mom and dad were sitting in the living room talking.
I have rarely talked about my father because he is always no where to be found.He is home just at nights.From my childhood till now,I have not seen my father a whole day.Although we are never together,but the way he looks at me is enough to tell me he's kind inside.he always asks how it is going with me and my answer always is fine.this is enough for me to know that he is still thinking about me in his big crowded world,where a moment is as worth as gold.
"Moon Ri?"Mom called me.
"Yes?"I said.
"What are you doing?"
"Nothing~reading stuff."I showed her the novel.
"Don't disappear again.I don't want to call you and found you 200 km away from here again."She said.
"Why?"I went forward to them.
"Why what?"
"I was going out with Sam!"I said.
"Don't go.Tommorrow is your wedding and today you're mine."She said.How emberressing! She was talking about the marriage in front of Dad!
Dad stood up."I have a meeting,See you later."He said and went to the door while a maid gave him his briefcase.I inhaled in relief.mom could have told anything in front of him.
I sat on the couch beside mom."What are you reading?"
"Soulmate"
"that is a nice story."She said."So how does it feel to get marry?"
"Mom don't start it again~You've get married once.I must be the one who asks this"
"mine was diffrent,Your Dad and I were lovers,but Luhan and you don't seem so."she said.So she knew that.
"That is not like that."I said.maybe because I didn't want to disappoint her and even myslef.
"You mean You and Luhan have something?"She asked iin relief.
"hm"I said.
"You could have told me that sooner.I was dying!"she said.
"You were dying?why?"I asked confused.
"My daughter was going to marry a stranger!"
"your daughter will be happy with whoever she maarries for sure."I reassured.
"That's right.You can be happy if you want.""Btw,let me tell you things that you'll-"
"Come on Mom"I covered my ears.I knew what she was going to talk about."I don't need to her any of them!I know them all myslef!"
"You do?"She asked.
"I do!!"I reassured.the doorbell rang. I stood up immedietly and went to the door to scape from mom.I opened the door but the one who was beside was even wrose.
It was Luhan.
"Hi."He said and made a way inside the house.I followed him with my gaze.He was acting strangely.
I wen to the living room and saw luhan sitting.I glared at both of them and sat down.
"What made you come here?"I asked.
"Can't I come to my wife's house?"he asked.hell he seemed so happy.His statement made mom even happier than Luhan.
"What made you come to your wife's house?"I went along with him.
"I was missing my wife."He said.My eyes widen.he missed me?Is it an other lie again?
"You seem to be missing your mother-in-law more."I said.
"Maybe because she is lovelier than my wife."He said.i glared at him.he turned his direction to my mom."Umma,Can I borrow herfor talking some minutes?"
"Borrow?she's yours."She said.thank you mom!
"let's go!"he said and went to the stairs.he was going to my room.Duh,What was wrong with him?
He opened my door wide to let me in.he came in afterward and closed the door behind.
"What is this about?"I asked.
He went to my bed and liad down on it while he was looking around.
"You haven't pack your things yet?"he asked.
"You have come to ask this?"
"No."
"So what?"
He sat on the bed."it is about that boy,Jong in."

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