My heavy footsteps became lighter as the distance between him and I grew further. The weight on my shoulder has been lifted off. I feel more content with my life now, I feel free, like nothing, like no one is holding me back. Steadily, I stable my balance. Without realizing, my bubble burst. The tears I’ve been holding back comes running down my face. All the emotions I bottle up escapes. My facial expression darkens. Just a second ago I felt at ease but right now, right now I don’t know what to do or what I want. My legs cave in, I hug my knees close and head hung low. I am so tired of this bullshit, his lies, myself for believing in such a man. To think that he was everything to me, why am I such a fool? That question repeats in my head. I feel myself shake, I finally let out a breath.

“I can’t do this anymore…” I whisper

“What?” he ask

“I said, ‘I can’t do this anymore’ and you know why…Jin, every fucking night I cry myself to sleep. You come home drunk. Even last night you came home with another woman in your arms. You pro-“

“You’re just starting another fucking fight! This is pointless. If you want to leave the door is over there.” He revolts

“I’m so tired of your fucking shit, Jin I’m so tired…”

“Then leave this damn place!” he yells

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. I made my way to open it. Quickly, I wipe away my tear stained face. I open the door, there was a girl with long brown locks, not any taller than me. She asked for Jin. It must be one of his other girl. I rolled my eyes and let her in. Jin’s mood lights up immediately. Her hips move from side to side as she went straight into what use to only belong to me, his embrace. He smiles brightly at her, now his smiles only look dead to me; meaningless.

I unconsciously stared at them too long. Jin's glare stabs me repeatedly, he smirk, knowing I hate it. I sighed and turned away. I know what comes next. I'm suppose to leave as they both pleasure themselves. It's early in the morning. I grab my bag and slams the door shut. I could hear both of them giggling behind the other side. Picking myself back up, I press the elevator down to the lobby. Instead of taking the subway I decide to walk myself to work.

I need some time to myself, to think and rethink about everything and anything. Though that time I am only reminded of how tired I am. Finally, I reach a tall building that I call my work-place. Grabbing my badges, I confirm my I.D. quickly, I run towards the closing elevator door. Luckily, I manage to put my hands between the doors preventing it from closing. I step inside the elevator, there is only one person inside. It was my boss, my first love, my classmate back in high school. Keeping my head low I did not want to make any eye-contact, I bow to him.

"What floor?" He ask

"Uh...um, 12 please, sir..." I stutter

"Minah, just call me Mark and be comfortable." Mark said

The rest of the time it was quiet and awkward. Well, I feel awkward. The elevator ding and I tried to get out as fast as possible. Before I could even run out, he spoke to me. I can't ignore my boss right?

"Do you want to have dinner with me?" He ask, "You don’t have to if you don't want to...I just want to catch up on each other's life."

"...Sure, it'll be nice." I respond

I know I am still Jin's girlfriend but I'm scared. I want a change in my life and maybe me, by taking a step, it could lead to a new beginning. Fixing my shirt. I grab myself a cup of coffee and sat down and proceed on with my work. Closing my eyes for a moment and reopened them. I don't know where to begin.

"Yah! Are you okay? I could see your horrible eye bag, and your eyes they're red and puffy. Did Jin make you cry again?" He ask

"Taehyun-ah, could you shut up and get back to work." I said

"Okay, I was only trying to comfort you and be nice, gosh." Taheyun pouts

Lights out, I am the only person left staring at the computer. Trying to stall time, I didn't want to go back, we’ll just fight again. I suddenly hear the door open. Who else could be here at this time? I stood up to get a better look. The person was my boss. Shit! I forgot, we're suppose to get dinner together. I face palm myself. We both chat as we made it down to the lobby. Since it was late already I decline his offer of still having dinner together.

Afraid of opening the door, I knock before even opening the door. All the lights out, there are bottles of alcohol everywhere. I went inside the bedroom. I see his half naked body laying there. I found myself crying again tonight on the couch. Trying to be quite as possible so I don't wake up Jin. I failed miserably, he was standing at the other end of the couch. I immediately stood up and went to the bathroom. Jin held onto my wrist pulling me back.

"Let go of me..." I resist "Was she good?" I ask

"Minah...why are you acting so childish, it's not like you."

"I'm acting like a child? At least I don't go and fuck with other guys when I have a boyfriend already." I glare

I push Jin away. He runs his hand through his hair in frustration. I don't know how it happened but without realizing we both had begin drifting away from one another. Arguing everyday became a habit in our daily life. It seems normal. We argue, girls come over, I leave and comeback, and we would argue again. Not once had he held me close and told me everything will be fine.

I had hit a wall with my own feelings. Where did the promise we made together go? Did they disappear along with the time we spent together? Still hanging at the end of the string, why can’t you let me know that it is over between us? I came back from the bathroom. Jin was drinking again.

“Why are you doing this to me?” It barely came out as a whisper

“You broke me first…”Jin let out a chuckle

“No, you’re drunk, you don’t know what you are talking about right now.”

“Don’t tell me what I know and don’t know, you have no rights to say that. You’re just another girl I’ve been playing with.” He drinks

I tried grabbing the bottle away from him but he became more aggressive. It scares me, he was so sweet, what happened? Jin slams the glass bottle on the coffee table. Shattering, it cuts his hand and begin to bleed. Rushing to the bathroom, I grab the first aid kit. I hate you so much why am I doing this? After cleaning up I grab a duffle bag. I begin filling it with my clothes. I can’t do this anymore, I’m really leaving. I see Jin just lying there, he didn’t even care if I was leaving. We look at each other. Our eyes wet from tears. No one spoke, it was silent and we know what is happening right now. My grip on the door handle tightens.

“I regret meeting you Kim SeokJin…” I cry out

“You took away the stars in my sky, the sun of my day. Minah, you’re not the only person exhausted in this relationship.”

“No, you’re wrong….you sucked the life out of me. I’ve been telling you how tired I’ve been but you didn’t do shit and now I am finally freeing myself. I don’t want to feel tire anymore.”

I ended it there. I open the door and left. I didn’t wait for his response because I know the moment he say something I’ll run back into his arm.

The cold air hits me, I really do feel lighter. I feel like a new person. I’m finally free from Kin SeokJin. I grab my phone and called Mark, after three rings he picks up.

“Hey, do you want to grab a drink together right now?”

Notes

One-Shot! this isn't related to the story but I have been wanting to upload this story. It was ment to be Jimin but decided to use Jin instead. I hope you enjoy ready this one-shot. maybe in the future I'll write more one-shot about Jin.

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With my other stories that I have not been updating, well, it is because I have a huge writer block right now, but i do hope to update soon. I need inspiration to spark ideas, I'm trying.