Tell me Good-Bye
You are only hurting youself
[recap]
My lips finally came in contact with hers. I
cup her cheeks in my hand. I went in for another kiss. This time it was more passionate.
I was really shock of what Mark just did. Did he really just kissed me on the lips. My hand slowly creeps up to my lips. There was a knock at the door.
"It is my prize from you, for being your boyfriend."
"Uh..." I was lost in his dark brown orbs
"I'll get the door." Mark left
Jackson came rushing, squeezing me a hug when he walked in. He drag me into marks room and closed the door. He started asking me lots of questions. Asking if I ate my medicine or if i
feel some what weak. But I couldn't keep up with him. My mind was only thinking about the kiss Mark and I just had. Jackson waved his hand in front of me to get my attention.
"Min-ah! I asked you a question!" Jackson pouted
"Oh, Mianhe..."
We both head back down. now there are a lot more people some of them are our High school classmate. V came in with Hyungs, Daehyung and Baekhyung. Suga who has a lot swag,
came in with with four ladies (Min, Suzy, Fei, and Jia). Of course came with Sohee. Later on everyone came. I gathered Mark, Youngjae, Jackson, Jungkoook, J-hope, Bomi, Sohee and suga in a room. Mark and I told them that we're in a fake relationship. I know this will affect
Bomi the most. After telling about, We both announced it to everyone who attended the party. I made eye contact with Jin, I could see hurtfulness in his eyes. Everyone congratulate us and
continue on with the party. Bomi went outside to take a walk. i nudged Mark to go after her. i decided to stay outside and enjoy the midnight breeze for a while. Around the corner i saw Jin
walking. i pretend to not see him. He sits down next to me. i stood up and walked away. Jin followed my every movement. I was trying to get away from him but my own feet decided not
to corporate with me. I thought I was going to fall but Jin got a hold of my arm.
"You are still as clumsy as the first time we met...." he said
"you could let go now." I clear my throat
I walk away from Jin. Then He held onto my arm making me stop at my tracks. I don't look
back at him. I am at the very tip of a emotional break down. We both stay silent for a few
seconds. Jin finally pulled me into a back hug. i don't want to hug back because I'll craze for more. he rest his forehead on my back. i start to feel wetness on my shirt. then i hear sniffles...I
Love you so much, Jebal, Don't cry. His grip became tighter as our distance grew closer. i
shiver a little as the wind pick up. I want to stay longer but if I Do my plan won't work, this will only make thing worse. I unattached Jin's arm off my waist. I continue to walk back inside. All
of a sudden I feel a pair of lip on mine. Jin embrace me as he began kissing me. I close my
eyes and kissed back. I wanted to feel his touch. Our kiss became more deep and passionate. I came back to my senses, I can't do this, I'll only lead him on and I don't want that. Restrain
yourself Lee Min-ah. I push Jin away from me, our eyes met. Every time I look at his eyes I could only see hurt and sadness. Why are you doing this to me?
"Mianhe, I-I have a boyfriend now. Jebal, leave alone....I don't love you anymore." My eyes became teary
"Can't you continue to stay by my side? Even if it is just for one day."
"Anni, you should find someone who likes you for you because that person is not me."
I escape from Jin's presence and made it inside. I was on the edge of crying now. I need some to comfort me. I see Sohee but she was with J-hope, so I didn't want to break their time
together. I quietly slip into Mark's room. I crouch behind the bed and silently sulk to myself. I cover my face in my palms and started tearing up. the I felt someone wrapped their arms
around me. i didn't even bother to look up to see it is. I quickly hug back and buried my face in
his chest. Now i couldn't tell who it is was because my vision became blurry from all the crying. the loud music from the living room muffled my cries. no one can hear me unless they actually
stand by the door. I didn't want the music to stop or all the attention would go to me. I hated
myself for making other surfer because of me, I wanted everyone to be happy like the first time we met and became friends. I start to cry even more thinking about halmeoni, Han, and my parents. It's all because of me....because of me they all died. I start to get really dizzy and my
head start to ache. The person lightly pat my back to calm me down. It did help a little. Although, i don't know who the person maybe. I feel really safe. Through out the party I stayed
in Marks room. I decided to wait until everyone leaves. I'm glad we don't have school or else everyone would see me with red puffy eyes. The person left the room to get me a glass
of water. I'm now leaning against the wall on my knees. i don't know why but I have been feeling depressed lately. The surgery date is not too far away. I check the time on my phone, it
was getting late but there are still some people left. Now I could see a little bit better. the door opened and closed. I quickly cover my face with my arm. i hope it's not Jin. i don't want him to see me like this.
"Here, drink this, maybe you'll feel better." He said
Although I didn't look up I could tell who it was by his voice. i look up and he flashes me a warm tender smile. I couldn't help but smile back. i took the water and chugged it down. I
was embarrassed of myself because of the state I'm in right now. I keep my head low, staring at the floor.
"Gamsahabnida...can you not tell anyone about this incident?" I ask
"Sure, Just find me whenever you need help or someone to talk to...I'm here for you. i don't know what is going on between the two of you but just know that I'll be on yourside no matter what. You are like a sister to me." He ruffles my hair
My lips finally came in contact with hers. I
cup her cheeks in my hand. I went in for another kiss. This time it was more passionate.
I was really shock of what Mark just did. Did he really just kissed me on the lips. My hand slowly creeps up to my lips. There was a knock at the door.
"It is my prize from you, for being your boyfriend."
"Uh..." I was lost in his dark brown orbs
"I'll get the door." Mark left
Jackson came rushing, squeezing me a hug when he walked in. He drag me into marks room and closed the door. He started asking me lots of questions. Asking if I ate my medicine or if i
feel some what weak. But I couldn't keep up with him. My mind was only thinking about the kiss Mark and I just had. Jackson waved his hand in front of me to get my attention.
"Min-ah! I asked you a question!" Jackson pouted
"Oh, Mianhe..."
We both head back down. now there are a lot more people some of them are our High school classmate. V came in with Hyungs, Daehyung and Baekhyung. Suga who has a lot swag,
came in with with four ladies (Min, Suzy, Fei, and Jia). Of course came with Sohee. Later on everyone came. I gathered Mark, Youngjae, Jackson, Jungkoook, J-hope, Bomi, Sohee and suga in a room. Mark and I told them that we're in a fake relationship. I know this will affect
Bomi the most. After telling about, We both announced it to everyone who attended the party. I made eye contact with Jin, I could see hurtfulness in his eyes. Everyone congratulate us and
continue on with the party. Bomi went outside to take a walk. i nudged Mark to go after her. i decided to stay outside and enjoy the midnight breeze for a while. Around the corner i saw Jin
walking. i pretend to not see him. He sits down next to me. i stood up and walked away. Jin followed my every movement. I was trying to get away from him but my own feet decided not
to corporate with me. I thought I was going to fall but Jin got a hold of my arm.
"You are still as clumsy as the first time we met...." he said
"you could let go now." I clear my throat
I walk away from Jin. Then He held onto my arm making me stop at my tracks. I don't look
back at him. I am at the very tip of a emotional break down. We both stay silent for a few
seconds. Jin finally pulled me into a back hug. i don't want to hug back because I'll craze for more. he rest his forehead on my back. i start to feel wetness on my shirt. then i hear sniffles...I
Love you so much, Jebal, Don't cry. His grip became tighter as our distance grew closer. i
shiver a little as the wind pick up. I want to stay longer but if I Do my plan won't work, this will only make thing worse. I unattached Jin's arm off my waist. I continue to walk back inside. All
of a sudden I feel a pair of lip on mine. Jin embrace me as he began kissing me. I close my
eyes and kissed back. I wanted to feel his touch. Our kiss became more deep and passionate. I came back to my senses, I can't do this, I'll only lead him on and I don't want that. Restrain
yourself Lee Min-ah. I push Jin away from me, our eyes met. Every time I look at his eyes I could only see hurt and sadness. Why are you doing this to me?
"Mianhe, I-I have a boyfriend now. Jebal, leave alone....I don't love you anymore." My eyes became teary
"Can't you continue to stay by my side? Even if it is just for one day."
"Anni, you should find someone who likes you for you because that person is not me."
I escape from Jin's presence and made it inside. I was on the edge of crying now. I need some to comfort me. I see Sohee but she was with J-hope, so I didn't want to break their time
together. I quietly slip into Mark's room. I crouch behind the bed and silently sulk to myself. I cover my face in my palms and started tearing up. the I felt someone wrapped their arms
around me. i didn't even bother to look up to see it is. I quickly hug back and buried my face in
his chest. Now i couldn't tell who it is was because my vision became blurry from all the crying. the loud music from the living room muffled my cries. no one can hear me unless they actually
stand by the door. I didn't want the music to stop or all the attention would go to me. I hated
myself for making other surfer because of me, I wanted everyone to be happy like the first time we met and became friends. I start to cry even more thinking about halmeoni, Han, and my parents. It's all because of me....because of me they all died. I start to get really dizzy and my
head start to ache. The person lightly pat my back to calm me down. It did help a little. Although, i don't know who the person maybe. I feel really safe. Through out the party I stayed
in Marks room. I decided to wait until everyone leaves. I'm glad we don't have school or else everyone would see me with red puffy eyes. The person left the room to get me a glass
of water. I'm now leaning against the wall on my knees. i don't know why but I have been feeling depressed lately. The surgery date is not too far away. I check the time on my phone, it
was getting late but there are still some people left. Now I could see a little bit better. the door opened and closed. I quickly cover my face with my arm. i hope it's not Jin. i don't want him to see me like this.
"Here, drink this, maybe you'll feel better." He said
Although I didn't look up I could tell who it was by his voice. i look up and he flashes me a warm tender smile. I couldn't help but smile back. i took the water and chugged it down. I
was embarrassed of myself because of the state I'm in right now. I keep my head low, staring at the floor.
"Gamsahabnida...can you not tell anyone about this incident?" I ask
"Sure, Just find me whenever you need help or someone to talk to...I'm here for you. i don't know what is going on between the two of you but just know that I'll be on yourside no matter what. You are like a sister to me." He ruffles my hair
Notes
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