Why ? Why does he love me still he left me and broke up with me over the phone.

Jackson : I still love you and I'm sorry, I hurt you over the phone, this is the reason why I came to Seoul to apologize for my actions.

Me : You made your point , I don't love you Jackson, can't you see that I have moved on.

Jackson: Move on, to an kpop idol that just going to be short, he doesn't give a damn about you Haeryung. He isn't even a normal person like you or me.

Me: Normal ?!! Are you implying that he doesn't have a heart because he is an idol ?

Jackson : Yes I am, You should be with someone normal like me, a normal high school student, you aren't someone in his circle. Just a normal girl he is going to take advantage of, and I'm just warning you he is doing that to you.

Me: you know what Jackson maybe you're right about that, but let me clarify one thing for you , You don't know him so back off.

Jackson: Sure but I'm not going away without a fight for you.

Me ; You know nothing about love and nothing about him, you won't be able to compete against him.

Jackson : I know you better then he does so , I have a chance.

Grabs Haeryung and kisses her lips, ( like making out with her )
Haeryung is shock but pushes him away

Haeryung : You're gross, disrespectful, and coincided.
Jackson : Oh , Haeryung you act like you don't like my kisses.
Haeryung : You know what Jackson ? I always hated your kisses, and you bye !!!

I ran into the house crying. My mother came and saw me crying and I felt like my heart drops.

Mom : Haeryung hun, are you alright ?
Me: Mom I'm not fine at all, why did you let him come here why did you let me see him?
Mom: I thought you guys were ok and good friends , sweetie is that not the case?
Me: No mom he hurts me and made me cry, it's painful.

I cheered up after awhile. But I'm still thinking of that kiss. How could I not see that happening, I could have ignored him and went my own way but I stood there arguing with him.

I went to bed with clear thoughts ....

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Jackson: Oh Haeryung I miss you so much .
Haeryung : .....
JB; Haeryung I love you

Theses voices appear in my head as I was sleeping It was so hard too sleep. I kiss them both . Is it possible I love them both. No !!!

I got ready put on some make up to make sure my face didn't look like I died.
I went down stairs and said goodbye to my mother and father.
I open the door and when I look outside I saw JB and Jackson standing at the door way waiting for me.

Jackson : Are you ready to go to school with me Haeryung
JB: i thought you were walking with me Haeryung

Me : I am walking with you JB and only you.

JB: Ok then shall we go beautiful.
Me: Yes we can Bye jackson .

Jackson was walking behind us the whole time

Jb: Is he the Jackson that broke your heart ?
Me : yeah he came here last night , but I decided to go out with you last night .
JB: oh ok, Well I'll walk home today without him right?
Me : Of course JB always

I kiss JB on his cheeks and I can hear Jackson being jealous, argh why does he have to be here he annoys me.
We got to school and Jackson went away thank god, I'll have so time alone with JB.

JB : haeryung can i talk to you
Me: of course .
Jb: I think with jackson back, are we ok? Nothing is going to change between us.
Me: Jb trust me nothing is going to change between us ok ?
JB : Ok well i'm going to go find Jr , we have to talk about filming , see you at lunch.

Me: yes of course.

I walked myself to class and guess who is in my class Jackson !!!!!!

Jackson: Haeryung !!!! I miss you come sit next to me.
Me: Umm no

I went to go sit next to mark.

Mark: Who is he Haeryung. Is he your ex ?
Me: Yeah he is my ex.
Mark : Oh gosh drama again? tell me about it.
Me: He came to my house last night and kiss me.
Mark: what !!! does JB know this?
Me: no and i want to tell him but i just can't
Mark : Do you still love jackson?
Me: Heck No
Mark: do you love JB ?
Me: We just stated dating how can i love him ...?
Mark: Haeryung !!!!! who do you love ?
Me: I love ....? I don't know.
Mark: Get your feelings straight ok?
Me: Ok ....

How can I say I don't know who I love.

I started talking to myself"why did I have that dream"

Mark: what dream ?!!!
Me: you heard me?!
Mark : of course you sit next to me.

Me: Ok don't get me wrong ok but I had a dream where I was kissing JB
Mark: That's a dream then
Me; wait but there's another part.... I kiss jackson too in my dream ....

Mark: What ?!!!!!!!
Me: shhh mark!!!
Mark: who is it that you love....
Me: that's the problem. I don't love JB but I really like him and he makes me happy , but I use to love jackson a lot, he was my first love .
Mark: Haeryung if I was you , there's a reason why exs are exs.
me: I guess you are right.

Class is over and i walk out the room and jackon is blocking me.

Jackson : Come with to have lunch?
Me: I already have plans
Jackson: come on ?
Me: Noo

But my no did nothing he just gab my hand and dragged me with him.

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Jb : Hey Jr when are you going in for filming ?
Jr: they schedule me to do it on the weekend , my guess is yours is after school?
JB: yeah I was wondering if we could switch?
Jr: yeah sure
Jb: thanks man

JB went to his classroom and IU Smile at him and they went through the lesson pretty fast. It was lunch time

IU : Are you going to get Haeryung .
JB : Yeah I am going to get here to have lunch with me I'll be back .

I went to her class room and she wasn't there.
Where could haeryung gone this time

Jiyeon : You looking for your poor girlfriend ?
JB: Oh shut up , have you seen her?
Jiyeon : yeah i did see her, so guy took her.
JB: Who?
Jiyeon: I think he goes by the name Jackson ?
JB: what !!!! why didn't you stop him? she could be in danger! Tell me what direction did he take her ?
Jiyeon they went that way ( points towards the exit of the school )

I ran out the door and i didn't see her anywhere. i'm calling for her name, I called her cell phone but nothing. she usually answers.

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Where the hell are you taking me?
Jackson : just shut up and keep walking .
Me: Let go of my hand your'e hurting me ....why are we heading out of the school !!!!
Jackson: We are going somewhere.

I see a black car waiting at the entrance of the school gates ??

Me: why I'm i going in there.
Jackson ; stop asking questions.

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Haeryung was scared so she shook her hand so she could get loose from his grip he had on her. She ran back towards the gate. Her phone was ringing and she knew who it was but before she could answer she saw nothing anymore.
Jackson was upset ran after her and cover her mouth so that she would faint and she did. Jackson put Haeryung in the car and car drove off with haeryung while jackson stayed behind.

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Jb found Jackson and grabbed jackson's collar .
JB : Where is haeryung? She was last seen with you !!!! What did you do to her!!!!
Jackson : I don't know what you're talking about?
JB: When I find her and she told me you did something to her your dead !!!1

JB full of angry let go and started looking for her again, but she was no where found, at the end of the day Haeryung wasn't even at home. Did she run off somewhere?

JB : I'm sorry Haeryung dad and mom ... I didn't find her anywhere .... I tired calling her but she isn't answering. If you know anything please let me know so i can find her.

Haeryung mother and father knew nothing they show JB a letter that was in the mail telling them that haeryung is in someones care and will not be returning.

JB readed the letter and started crying. He didn't know what to do anymore. He could have protected her but he didn't he cried he walked the whole entire night looking for her

will he be able to find her soon ? he ask himself

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