Reasons to live

I'm really lucky. Maybe, maybe I'm not all alone on this world. I have found some friends – GOT7. I maybe have family, my mother may be really near me. I might have an elder brother, Jr. And I've got Mark. I don't know who he's to me yet. I just feel really safe and comfortable being with him. He makes me wanna smile without a reason. My heart flutters.
After he went home, I'm alone again, but it doesn't feel bad at all. I know, I can call him anytime. He has seen my worst side. Actually he has seen a side of me I haven't seen before. I have never cried like this before, especially after dad's death. I haven't cried once because of him, I felt like I don't have the right to. He also know how mean I've been to dad, but he didn't run away. I wash the dishes and go to bed after taking a relaxing bath.
The next day I wake up knowing I've dreamed something wonderful, but not knowing what. I do my morning routine. I go to the living room and see the photo. I take it out of the frame and put it in my purse.On the way to schoolI meet Jackson. He just looks at me with a meaningful smile.
“Annyeong, Jackson.”
“Annyeong.” He continue smiling.
“What's going on? Why are you smiling?” I ask confused
“You tell me... I saw Mark hyung leave your house quite late yesterday. So, you and hyung?”
“A- ani, it's not like that. We're just really good friends and I've got a bad day. That's all.”
“Aha...” He lifts one eyebrow.
“What? Don't look at me like that! There's nothing!!”
It continued like that the whole way. He's asking me all kind of questions and I'm getting more and more red. Finally we arrived at school. I just go to my classroom straightaway trying not to get killed by the glances people give me. It's getting worse. With every day I spend with GOT7 people are treating me worse. I hope it goes away.
Entering my classroom GOT7 is waving at me. Again in the center of attention. I sit next to Bambam and unpack my things.
“Noona, where have you been yesterday afternoon. Mark hyung was worried as fuck.” Yees, actually...Where is he? And Jr. is missing as well. Is he telling him?
“Yeah, he was really anxious.” JB agrees.
“Mian, I was in the hospital with Jr., his mother's got a situation.”
“Ahh... Ye. He told me, but he didn't say that you'll be with him.” JB sighs.“I hope they find a donor suitable for ajeuma soon.”
The lesson begins and Yugyeom and Youngjae are going to present what they've done lately. I take out my mobile and send Mark a text message.

Hey Mark, I thought you'd go to Jr. with me today. Are you ill? AR.

Ahreum! Sorry, I didn't have time to text you. My sister is ill and I have to fill in for her in the restaurant today. I think Jr. is staying with his mom, so you won't see him at school today. Let's go to the hospital after school... Mark

I breath a sigh of relief. I thought that he's ill. Now that I know that he's fine I can concentrate on Yugyeom and Youngjae's presentation. He doesn't come to school, so I decide to look for Mark after school. I don't know what he said to GOT7, but there was always someone of them by my side. It actually feels really good, I don't feel so alone anymore. I never noticed before that in every class, I attend, is a member of GOT7. I suddenly feel like I found a new family.
I arrive at the Tuan familiy's restaurant. Ajuma spotted me and brings me a glass of water.
“Mark told me that you were with Jr. yesterday.”
“Duibuqi (sorry), I totally forgot that I had to work.”
“It's okay, just tell me if you're busy next time. Ahreum-ah, what are you doing here today? You don't have to work today.”
“Ehhh... I'm here for Mark. We wanted to visit Jr.'s mom in the hospital together.”
“Oh... I'll go get him.”
I take out my purse and look at the photo. I sigh and look up as Mark comes out.
“Are you ready?” He asks with a smirk.
“Ye, let's go.”
We take the bus to the hospital and go to ajuma's room. Or should I say mum?Jr. is sitting in the couch watching 'The Heirs' on TV while ajuma is sleeping. He turns around as we come in.
“Annyeong, oppa. How's ajuma?” I whisper trying not to wake her up.
“The same as yesterday. I think it won't last longer.” He says with a melancholic tone.
“I think Ahreum has to tell you something.” Mark finally says with a sidelong glance at me.
“Ye, but I think we should go out for it.” I suggest.
“Geulae, let's go outside.”
We go up on the rooftop. Mark leans casually at the wall beside the door. I take a deep breath and finally ask.
“Oppa, what do you know about your father?”
He looks at me a really confused.
“Ehhh... not much, just that mum left him as I were really young. She doesn't talk about him a lot, but from time to time she takes out a photo of and looks at it really long.”
I take out my photo and show him. He blinks and look at me.
“This is the photo she looks at. Where did you get it?”
“It's mine. This baby is me and the man is my father.”
Now he's really shocked. “What are you talking about??”

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