Reasons to live

As Bambam said, he wanted to get to know me. But I also got to know him.
He's a really nice person and always filled with energy. His aegyo is just the cutest thing I've ever seen. And he's a really positive person. Literally the exact opposite of me..
He is the person I got the closest since dad's... Why? I'm such a boring person. Also, I'm a really bad person. Maybe he just hasn't realized it yet. He'll never want to talk to me anymore after the project anyway. I should keep distance unless I'll get really hurt.

*bell rings*

The lesson is over. I get my stuff and just want to leave as Bambam looks over to me and says:
“Noona, you want to eat lunch with us?”
I'm surprised. I collect myself and take a deep breath.
“Mianhae, Bambam, I don't think that that would be a good idea.”
“Why not?”
“Well, you have your friends and I don't think that they would want to have me with them.”
“If this is the only problem...” He turns around and spot one of he's group mates.
“JB hyung, is it okay, if Ah-Reum noona eats lunch with us?”
“No, I'd love to see how the person you're always talking of is.” JB laughs.
“See?” Bambam looks at me expectantly.
I can feel how I get red. Bambam talks about me? And he wants me to eat with them?
Some girls behind us have heard our conversation and are now glaring at me.
“Ehh... I don-”
“Okay, that's a settle...!”
He didn't even let me finish speaking. The girls are now looking at me furiously. I take my bag and leave the room as fast as possible.
In the next class I caught myself how a tiny little smile slips on my lips. I'm really surprised. Cause it feels like I haven't smiled for ages.
Am I looking forward to eating lunch with GOT7?

At lunchtime

We have agreed to eat in the canteen. And even though I was kind of excited to meet the other boys, I'm not really happy with it anymore. I'm more panicking. There are just way too many people in this small space and I feel like everyone's looking at me. I don't want to get in the center of attention, but eating with such a popular boy group just gets you much attention. I sigh as Bambam spotted me in the crowd and waves at me. Nearly the whole canteen was suddenly looking at me. I get my plate and rush as fast as possible to Bambam.
Now, it's time, Ah-Reum. Smile.
I force myself to smile to not give them a bad first impression of me. They're all looking at me, except one with red hair. He just keeps looking on his phone and doesn't look in my direction. The others look at me with half friendly half amused amused faces. Finally Bambam says:
“So, this is Ah-Reum noona. Noona, these are my hyungs. You've already met JB hyung. Then Youngjae hyung, Jackson hyung...” He pointed at the not interested guy. “Mark hyung, Jr. hyung and Yugyeom dongsaeng.”
Everyone addressed nods and as he finished I bow and say:
“Annyeong, Chae Ah-Reum-mnida.”
Most of them get up. Except of one. In one really simultaneous “Annyeong, GOT7-mnida” they bow and I gulp, cause again the whole canteen was looking at me. That's the second time today. I stand straight and look at them taking their seat, not knowing what to do. There Jackson gets up and gives me his chair. I look at him and smile. There was an awkward silence before they all started to ask me questions.
“How old are you?”
“Do you listen to k-pop?”
“Has Bambam been mean to you?”
“Have you finished your project yet?”
“What about your family?”
Too loud. Again. Finally Bambam interrupts them by saying, that I couldn't answer so many questions at the time. Everybody bursts into laughing. Even I'm chuckling. Now that the ice had been broken, I got along with the boys really well.
Well, except for one. Mark. I didn't hear him talking or even paying attention to our conversation once. I looked at him and suddenly I have the feeling, that I've seen him before. But where?

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