Kyungsoo stays there emotionlessly staring at the sink. And how droplets of water from the faucet and silence cover his world now. He buries his head on his knees, recalling how Jongin pinned him on the wall, how Jongin harshly but at the same time gently took his hand just to observe it, how Jongin’s fingertips brushed on his skin when he touched his neck, and how fucking Jongin made his heart beat so fast with the things he said earlier.

Kyungsoo doesn’t know now. He doesn’t want Jongin to know his weakness, that he’s afraid of people. He never wants Jongin to know. He doesn’t know how Jongin sees everything through him. All he wants to do is to see and make Jongin smile and then leave this world, but fuck, what is this in Jongin that Kyungsoo cannot figure out? Why is it hard to make Jongin smile?

Or is Jongin not suited for this world? That Kyungsoo is just wasting his time in this town anymore. That Kyungsoo is lessening his chance to be with his family because of running after Jongin? Kyungsoo thinks in silence.

And afterwards, he slaps his head for thinking that way. People who don’t smile so much is better than the ones who always smile. Because you know that once they smile, it is genuine and true, and Jongin is one of them. Unlike the others, many of their smiles are entirely fake, just like Kyungsoo.

But Kyungsoo has his reason why he always smiles; he wants to be protected by that smile. But Kyungsoo admits that it is hard, especially in times like this. Kyungsoo is serving the people around him and he has to smile each and every one of them. It fucking kills Kyungsoo.

Sometimes, it’s hard to smile when you’re not really happy. And Kyungsoo admires himself for being one of the fakers, because he is never really happy. He’s incomplete. And the ring JeHee gave him is missing so he doesn’t know now how to smile truthfully.

He scans around the room, curious if Jongin is still there. Jongin is not around, and Kyungsoo expects it. He is on the counter when Suho nudges him on his side, “What happened Kyungsoo?” Suho asks, looking at him.

Kyungsoo shakes his head and smiles afterwards because he knows that Suho won’t mind it anymore, “Nothing. I-I was just thinking where Jongin went. But I guess, he’s at home now.” he nods at Suho to assure that he’s fine. But he is not. He’s just lucky that Suho nods and doesn’t ask anymore question. I guess he thinks he understands, but he never will.

But Kyungsoo doesn’t know, Suho just shuts his mouth up because he knows that Kyungsoo won’t tell him about his problem. Suho just wishes not because he doesn’t trust them. Suho stares at Kyungsoo serving their customers with that smile. “I think he’s possessed by a spirit.” Chen suddenly tells him. Suho is startled at the sudden popping out of Chen from nowhere like a ghost, and he looks at Chen. Because Chen is ridiculous, who will think that Kyungsoo is possessed by a spirit? Can’t Chen see that Kyungsoo is just sad? Why Chen can see simple things? Suho rolls his eyes and walks away leaving Chen looking at him with confused eyes, Is he mad? Chen pouts but leaves it to ask others if Kyungsoo is possessed. Way to go Chen…

~~~

Jongin doesn’t know why he’s bothered. He doesn’t know why he still asked Kyungsoo about it, and now, he fucking regrets it. He has thrown all of his pillows and moved side to side to side to side to find a comfortable way to sleep. But he fucking cannot sleep. He tried to just close his eyes but all he can see are the hickeys he found on Kyungsoo’s neck.

Fuck it. Jongin moves to his right and removes the thought that Kyungsoo is owned by someone now. Just fuck it. Jongin moves to his left but he ends up recalling how Kyungsoo’s short arms hugged his waist when he is trying to say sorry and that he missed Jongin.

Fuck it. Jongin sits up and slouches his back. He fucking wants to sleep now. He’s so damn tired. He rubs his head just to think of Kyungsoo’s features and how fragile Kyungsoo is to have a wound and bruise on his wrist. Maybe he got it because they fucked in the corner. And Jongin now remembers the guy’s face and he wants to slam him into the wall and... just fucking kill him. and afterwards Kyungsoo!!

But as Jongin stands up to get water, he remembers how Kyungsoo trembled and was scared before he went to the cafe and restaurant. And how Kyungsoo mumbled the words, “No no no!! I’m not his... and I won’t be...” as Kyungsoo buried his head on his knees.

And Jongin finds himself asking and observing. He doesn’t have to worry for observing because everything gets in slow motion whenever he sees Kyungsoo. Thus, he feels relieved, but he is not too, thinking that somebody owns Kyungsoo.

~~~

Kyungsoo is walking to the school gates when he finds the guy waiting for him there. He instantly trembles as the guy walks towards him. Kyungsoo fastens his pace to escape but he eventually catches up with him. The guy caresses Kyungsoo’s ass and whispers to him, “I think you should go to the gym. Don’t read this until you know what’s going on.” And he gives Kyungsoo a piece of perfectly folded paper and caresses Kyungsoo’s face before running to the gym.

The guy waves to Kyungsoo and says, “I’ll be waiting for you there!” he shouts and Kyungsoo bites his lips and gets nervous of what the commotion is about. He wants to read the piece of paper the guy gave him but he shouldn’t. He looks around as he holds the piece of paper just to find Jongin looking at him from afar.

Kyungsoo’s heart beats faster even though Jongin doesn’t even greet him with a nod. Jongin goes to the gym too because he’s curious of what will Kyungsoo and the fucking guy do there. He heard what the guy shouted to Kyungsoo and he really wants to know the truth because it fucking bothers him.

Kyungsoo eventually goes to the gym and sees many people swarming around a group of basketball players. He hasn’t easily made way to be one with the crowd because the players are fucking tall and their elbows hit Kyungsoo everywhere in the face. Why does he have to be born short?

But he smiles too because with his small figure, he can sneak through people and he continues to do it until he reaches the coach who is shouting angrily with his megaphone on.

“Who broke the basketball trophy?! It’s a championship trophy which was only given to us last year and who broke it? Yesterday?” the coach and the players are so raged because they put their best to win the championship last year. And this was the award which was given to them but the students won’t appreciate it and just break it? Who are they fucking kidding?

Kyungsoo knows how it feels because he himself experienced that when he won the championship mark for singing contest in the program of the school. But one of his enemies just fucking broke it in front of him. He wanted to punch the guy but he didn’t have a right to make trouble to the Byuns. So he just cried on the corner and thought of himself as a weak child.

The guy laughed at him and called him a coward because he cannot even protect himself from the ones who bully him. He bites his lips as he remembers that scene. Then the guy who bullied him then whispers to him, “You may now open it.”

Yes. The guy who bullied him in that contest is the one who’s fucking fumbling his ass in the crowd. He breathes hard as he opens the paper the guy gave him, he reads, “Who broke the basketball trophy yesterday? Who used it to hit me on my head? He is the one who kicked my groin yesterday, the one whom I gave my hickeys. And because he has lots of hickeys, he’s mine now. He’s fucking mine now. And... he is the one who owns the ridiculous star-shaped ring which is just underneath the stands of the table of the trophies. Lucky that no one has got it yet. Now, want to fucking play? Meet me here in the gym after school. Don’t let anyone see you? Or I’ll sue you.”

Kyungsoo trembles as he reads the note. He looks at the guy after him with his eyes filled with water. The guy looks at him and shakes his head and pouts, “Oh no no. Don’t be a coward Soo. Let’s settle it with... our bodies.” The guy whispers him the last two words and Kyungsoo just wants to throw the guy into the bridge.

Kyungsoo feels helpless because he cannot tell anyone about this because he knows that everyone will know that he is fucking harassed and molested by the guy and they will just give him pitiful and disgusting looks and Kyungsoo doesn’t want that to happen. Even if it would show their real feelings towards Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo wants to cry right now because how fucking doesn’t deserve what he’s into now. He doesn’t deserve to be shown by fake smiles because all he does is fucking honest and he’s not hurt anybody. He doesn’t deserve to be in pain like this.

He walks slowly out of the crowd just to be met by fucking guys who want to get rid of him too. He’s so tired for this damn thing right now. He wants to cry where no one can hear him. even Jongin.

He knows that they’re giving him fake smiles but he’s sorry that he cannot even give them a glance. Then one of them pouts and mocks, “Oh! Kyungsoo is not smiling at me! It hurts! I gave him a smile but ouch! He didn’t even spare me a glance!” the guy looks at his companions and they all started laughing. And Jongin sees this, he is about to go to Kyungsoo but he doesn’t know why he halts. Is it because someone owns him now, and he shouldn’t be caring for Kyungsoo anymore, because he’s the one to protect Kyungsoo now? Jongin doesn’t know.

Kyungsoo mumbles to himself, “I’m too tired to play with you guys.” He tells but the guy doesn’t clearly understands it so he fucking acts again, “Oh no! Is Kyungsoo cursing me now?! I’m scared!!” he looks like he’s a crazy person but he doesn’t care because he knows that others are laughing at Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo clenches his hand and stops walking, “I’ll give you a smile or glance if your smile is fucking real!!” Kyungsoo shouts at the guys and the guys then walk towards him. Kyungsoo glares at Lay, “And why? Do you think we’re fak—“

“Yes!!” Kyungsoo shouts and faces the guys who are taken aback because of the tear-strained face the shorter one has. Kyungsoo doesn’t mind if everyone sees it, he wants everyone to know what he feels. “I fucking know that you are faking your stupid smiles! And I’m tired of it!” Kyungsoo turns to everyone and points his finger at them. They are all silent because this is the first time Kyungsoo shows this side of him.

Kyungsoo then runs away from the crowd and the crowd watches him as he goes to the bathroom in the gym. And when Kyungsoo disappears, they instantly avert their look at the guys who just make Kyungsoo cry.

Jongin shakes his head because they haven’t understood every word Kyungsoo said. So he walks in front of the guys and they look at Jongin. Jongin crosses his hand across his chest and tells the crowd, “The reason why he cried because he knows that you hate him. Why do you have to smile at him when he can hear your insults towards him everyday? Do you know how that fucking feels? You.” Jongin then points to a girl who’s really beautiful.

“You know that you’re beautiful right? And I must say that you really are.” Jongin compliments her and the girl shyly smiles at him. But that ends when Jongin points at her legs, “But your legs say it all. You are shaving right? Feel at how rough it is. Behind this smooth and clean looking legs are rough and the way it looks before when you were not shaving sucks. Am I right?” he asks the girl and the girl eventually bows his head and is shy to the crowd.

Jongin pats the girl’s head and mumbles a thank you for being honest to her which makes the girl smile. “Please imagine that Kyungsoo is this girl’s legs. All smiley outside but purely pained inside.” And Jongin leaves the crowd with a smile because he knows that the crowd will realize and they won’t bother Kyungsoo with those fake smiles from now on. Now, all he has to do is to go to Kyungsoo in the bathroom.

Jongin enters the bathroom and feels the surroundings. Kyungsoo is not there. He looks around and checks each cubicle but Kyungsoo is not around. Jongin then goes out of the bathroom and is about to search for him when the guy who made Kyungsoo cry approaches him and gives him something and an apology. “Don’t apologize to me. Apologize to Kyungsoo, thank you.” Jongin quickly says and searches for Kyungsoo everywhere.

Kyungsoo doesn’t get out of the bathroom in their floor because he just made a scene earlier; they witnessed him cry. And now, Kyungsoo curses himself for letting them know his weakness and he knows that they are the winners if they do it continuously.

Jongin searches for Kyungsoo all day even though he doesn’t know where to look for him. He almost reaches every building their school has but no Kyungsoo is there. He even checks the library even though Kyungsoo cannot stay quiet even for 5 minutes. He almost checks every bathroom of each floor of each building but he doesn’t know where the hell Kyungsoo goes.

The bell rings and Jongin curses himself because he cannot find Kyungsoo anywhere. Is Kyungsoo that fucking small that Jongin cannot see him? Jongin then crumples the paper on his hand and throws it away and runs to where he knows Kyungsoo will go.

When Kyungsoo knows that there is no one roaming around the school anymore, he gets out of the bathroom and goes down the stairs and proceeds to the gym.

He trembles as he goes to the gym and he wants to get out of here now but the ring is with the guy, he has to get the ring from him. So he walks to the gym until he sees the guy waiting for him since the bell rang.

He stiffens as the guy walks towards him. He has this evil grin on his face and he touches Kyungsoo’s cheek which makes Kyungsoo shiver in fear. The guy feels it and chuckles. He walks closer to Kyungsoo and Kyungsoo flinches, he holds Kyungsoo’s arm so that Kyungsoo won’t draw back and he kisses Kyungsoo’s earlobe that Kyungsoo wants to cry for help. “Let’s get through this.”

Kyungsoo stubbornly says and goes to the bathroom but the guy holds his arm to stop him. Kyungsoo looks at the guy, the guy says, “Who told you that we’ll be doing it in the bathroom?” hearing that, Kyungsoo’s eyes get bigger.

“W-what do you mean?” Kyungsoo shivers when the guy drags him in the janitors’ room. Kyungsoo looks around the room and his face scrunches in disgust. The guy smirks at him and holds his neck where he placed the hickeys.

Kyungsoo sees that the door is opened so he tries. When the guy is about to give him a kiss on the neck, Kyungsoo pushes him away and runs out the door. Kyungsoo runs quickly so the guy won’t catch him but fuck his short strides, the guy catches up to him.

Kyungsoo thinks he has to cry for help, “Please! Help me!!” Kyungsoo cries as the guy kisses his neck and places hickeys on it. Kyungsoo feels that he’s so dirty when the guy starts to unbutton his uniform to see his milky collarbone in which the guy sucks on.

Kyungsoo asks for help continuously hoping that a janitor, student, or a teacher will hear him. but the guy says happily, “No one’s going to hear your moans baby, only me… because you’re mine now.” and the guy brushes his knee on Kyungsoo’s member but Kyungsoo doesn’t like it and stops himself from moaning.

The guy can figure out that Kyungsoo is trying to stop himself from moaning, so he faces Kyungsoo but Kyungsoo punches him right on the face. “I’m not yours!!” and he tries to escape from the guy.

But the guy catches Kyungsoo’s ankle and tugs Kyungsoo causing Kyungsoo to bump his head on the door. Kyungsoo screams and the guy is suddenly shocked. He loosens his grip on Kyungsoo’s foot to check on him but Kyungsoo runs away from the guy, using his bleeding head to run away from him.

But he gets dizzy that the guy holds his foot and drags him into the janitors’ room again. He hits Kyungsoo’s foot so that Kyungsoo won’t be able to run away from him. Kyungsoo cries in pain because the guy is breaking his foot and it fucking hurts.

“That’s what you get Kyungsoo from running away from me.” and he starts kissing the helpless and tired Kyungsoo on the neck and all over his body. Kyungsoo still cries for help and tries to struggle so that it’d be hard for the guy to touch him.

But the guy gets annoyed and punches Kyungsoo on the stomach which makes Kyungsoo stiffens and winces in pain. “Ahck!” Kyungsoo cries as the guy still punches him everywhere and his foot.

“Stop please.” Kyungsoo can feel that he cannot fight anymore and hopes that the guy will stop when he hears his crying voice.

“You’re a coward Kyungsoo, but I fucking own you. I own you! You’re only mine!!” He kisses Kyungsoo’s face and rubs Kyungsoo’s crotch which only makes Kyungsoo cry. Until someone shouts and bangs the door.

“You!!” Kyungsoo recognizes the voice. It is Jongin. Jongin punches the man so hard that he becomes a little unconscious. Jongin takes Kyungsoo in his arms and whispers, “Don’t worry. I’m here. Tto dareun neugdae deuri bolsera
Neomuna wanbyeokhan na yeojara
Pum sogen budeureobge neoreul ango
Neomaneul wihaeseo naneun nanpoghae jigo…”
| Another wolf is coming
My girl who’s so perfect
Hug you in my arms softly
I get violent just for you |

Jongin walks to the guy and stands him just to give him punches all over his body. “Neo hokshi molla gyeonggo haneunde… jaldeureo.” | I’m warning you… listen up |

“Stop this!” Jongin shouts but the guy tries to crawl towards Kyungsoo, then Jongin continues, “Jigeum wiheomhae… so dangerous.” Then Jongin holds the guy’s feet and slides him down, “I warned you.”

“Jakku nareul jageug hajima… nado nal molla.” | Don’t keep pushing me… I don’t even know myself. |

He punches the guy’s face and kicks his crotch. “What the fuck are you doing?!” he straddles the man and continues to throw punches at him.

“I’m just getting what’s mine! It’s your fault you fucker! You are taking him away from me!!” the man shouts at Jongin which makes Jongin stop. Jongin’s world becomes dark… that the guy cannot lift him to throw him to the side for Jongin interrupts them.

“Geomjeong geurimja nae anekkae eona
Neol boneun du nune bul kkochi nuntteo”
| Dark shadow wakened in me
Fire has stared in two eyes that woke you up |

“Stay away from Kyungsoo because In the first place, he is not yours!!” and he gives the guy a loud punch that the guy wants to pass out in pain but he must get Kyungsoo no matter what. “I fucking gave him a hic--“ the guy is not able to continue to what he’s saying because Jongin is now taking Kyungsoo away from him.

“Geu nyeo gyeoteseo mo duda mulleona
Ijen jogeum ssig sana woji nikka”
| Stay away from her everyone
I’m starting to get wild now |

Jongin tries to wake Kyungsoo up but Kyungsoo is too tired to open his eyes. “Don’t take him away from me! Kyungsoo’s mine!!” and the guy hit Jongin with a chair. Jongin flinches in pain and lays Kyungsoo gently down the floor and faces the guy.

The guy then has a chance to return the punches he got from Jongin. But Jongin is too strong to take those seriously so he just holds the man’s fists and twists it that the man cringes in pain.

“Gyeolgugen ganghan jaga eodge deoneun min
Jariga eobseu nikka geunyang doraga”
| At the end the strongest gets the beauty
No spaces for you here just go back |

He hits the guy with his palm until the guy cannot open his eyes anymore, and Jongin shouts, “Kyungsoo is not yours! And will never be yours!” Jongin takes Kyungsoo in his arms and gently caresses Kyungsoo’s face, “Because he’s mine. No one can ever take him away from me. There’s no need to give him a mark because he knows it instantly. Kyungsoo’s mine…” Jongin says as he walks out the door with Kyungsoo in his arms.

“Ganeung seong jeroya, geureo nikka geumanbwa
Geu nyeoreul neombon damyeon nareul meonjeo neomeobwa”
| Zero possibility, so stop looking
If you want her, get over me first |

He looks at the fucker and tells him one last time, “I’m telling you… Kyungsoo’s mine.” And he turns to the exit of the building to find the guy earlier. Jongin is a little startled because he is still here but it is also a good thing because he can take care of the fucker, so he bows to him, “Can you take him to the hospital?” he asks the guy.

He nods and goes in the room to pick the unconscious guy. He takes the guy and catches up to Jongin. He looks at Kyungsoo’s helpless state and he’s eaten by guilt, “I’m sorry Kyungsoo.” He apologizes even if he thinks that Kyungsoo is unconscious too.

Kyungsoo smiles a little and helplessly mumbles which makes Jongin blush, “A-apology accepted Lay. And Jongin… I’m really yours.” Jongin rolls his eyes but he doesn’t know why he lets his lips curve into a little smile. Maybe because it’s too dark and he knows that Kyungsoo won’t see it anyway.

Then Kyungsoo sings, “Nareul bomyeo utneunda… Neodo naege kkeulli neunji…” | You smile at me… you are attracted to me too |

“Shut up.” Jongin stubbornly mumbles and Lay laughs which fills the awkward atmosphere.

Notes

Readers! Oh my gosh. Ehehehe. I’m yours readers! And this chapter is for you! I hope you like this chapter! Wahahaha! Well, I don’t want to write the harassment the guy did to Kyungsoo. I’m sorry D.O T^T

Okay, this is a 3k+ word chapter too but it’s longer than the previous one. and I don’t know why I’m telling you how many words this chapter have but just let me. hahaha

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