Baekhyun curses when he cannot find Kyungsoo in his room. He just left Kyungsoo there for he's cooking porridge for Kyungsoo because Kyungsoo came in the house drenched of the rain and Baekhyun can see, of the tears.

He keeps on checking every part of Kyungsoo's room until the door cracks open revealing a towelled Kyungsoo. Baekhyun almost shouts at Kyungsoo, "Where the hell did you go?!!!" Baekhyun looks like he's going to attack Kyungsoo causing Kyungsoo to step back. Baekhyun drags Kyungsoo in his room and sits Kyungsoo on the bed.

"I was only in you room, I thought you're in there." Kyungsoo sniffs and his eyes hurt and puffed because of continuously crying. His body is slouched and lets Baekhyun look at him with pity in his eyes.

"He left me under the pouring rain with the umbrella so I was left with nothing." Kyungsoo says with no emotions in his voice and face and Baekhyun just wants to curse Jongin for hurting his bestfriend this much. Kyungsoo doesn't deserve to be hurt like this. "Because there is Sehun. And Jongin will always choose Sehun over me because he loves Sehun." Kyungsoo says, accepting the rejection himself even though Jongin hasn't rejected him yet, but Kyungsoo knows that Jongin will, sooner.

Baekhyun is confused at how Sehun knew where they're going, "W-w-h-how did Sehun---" Kyungsoo can sense what Baekhyun is going to say so he cuts Baekhyun, "I don't know. We just saw Sehun almost hit by a car and Jongin take him to a place I don't know." And by now, Kyungsoo knows that Jongin is taking care of Sehun right now and he can't help to get jealous.

"He can just reject me, right?" Kyungsoo rubs his eyes to wipe the forming tears in his eyes. He sniffs and looks at the ceiling to stop his tears from falling. His heart clenches because he feels that Jongin is just playing with him.

But Baekhyun thinks otherwise, Baekhyun rubs circles on Kyungsoo's hand and tells Kyungsoo what he knows, "He cannot reject maybe because he's still thinking or not sure of what he's feeling and because Sehun happened that we didn't expect. " Baekhyun tries to understand Jongin.

Kyungsoo looks at Baekhyun and lets a tear fall from his eye, he pouts and Baekhyun wipes that tear away because he knows that Kyungsoo will do everything to know what Jongin's answer is, "I'm here for you Kyungsoo. Hwaiting! I know you can do it. You're a bitch, remember?" Kyungsoo lets out a laugh because he doesn't know if that's a compliment or an insult. He smiles and Baekhyun pinches his cheeks.

"Time to let out the beast in you Do Kyungsoo. You're a cute-looking cat but Kyungsoo, you know that you are a bitchy wolf, don't let that Sehun ruin the determination in yourself. Jongin won't ask you a date in front of Sehun if he still cares for Sehun, right?" Baekhyun tells Kyungsoo what he knows and thinks all of the time. Kyungsoo looks at Baekhyun and somehow, he feels that maybe Baekhyun is right at some point.


Kyungsoo then thought if he'll tell Baekhyun that he finally see Luhan. Luhan earlier told Kyungsoo that he has to go because he has something to do the next day. And Luhan was so sorry that he cannot drive Kyungsoo home because he's not that familiar to the place anymore since he's away for many years. Kyungsoo understood so he let Luhan went his way.

They gave each other hug and Luhan told Kyungsoo that he can do it. That he can still live his life because Kyungsoo is strong. Kyungsoo smiled at Luhan and waved goodbye when they were parting ways.

Kyungsoo felt alone for that little time that he and Luhan were parting ways but suddenly, he saw something he didn't expect to see. Kyungsoo blinked because he recognized it... it was the umbrella that Jongin took. Kyungsoo felt his heart beat fast as he scanned the surroundings for any signs of Jongin. It really resembled the umbrella if it was not the umbrella that Baekhyun's mother gave him earlier. Yet Kyungsoo doesn't know it but he smiles anyway.


Baekhyun ruffles Kyungsoo's hair and pats Kyungsoo's cheeks to wake him up. He stands up and tells Kyungsoo, "Rest for a little while. I'll just check the porridge I'm cooking." Baekhyun says and as he opens the door, Kyungsoo tells Baekhyun, "I saw Luhan."

And it makes Baekhyun smiles at himself, "He's really there when you're alone. That makes him best." Baekhyun tells Kyungsoo and Kyungsoo agrees. Then Baekhyun asks Kyungsoo because he didn't see Luhan earlier, "Where is Luhan? I didn't see him."

Kyungsoo answers Baekhyun's question, "Ah, he has something to do tomorrow; I guess that it's a big one so I let him go on his way earlier. I'm sorry Baekhyun." Kyungsoo apologizes to Baekhyun because he knows that Baekhyun misses Luhan so much, too.

"How is he?" Baekhyun asks Kyungsoo. "I guess he's fine. Well, he said he'll visit anytime. He can still remember the café and restaurant." Kyungsoo smiles as he remembers how they came into that café and restaurant and how it became their world.

Baekhyun nods and goes out of Kyungsoo's room. He starts stirring the porridge thoroughly as he thinks of Luhan and Kyungsoo. Looking at Kyungsoo's smile earlier, Baekhyun knows that Kyungsoo doesn't know it yet. Will Kyungsoo consider Luhan's feelings for him if he knows the truth? Now, Baekhyun thinks. Secrets should be revealed sooner or everything will be ruined. Baekhyun shakes his head because he doesn't know why he knows all of the secrets of these friends of his... Kyungsoo's secret. Luhan's secret. The Kims. And the Soos. And he doesn't know where to side because all of them have their reasons. Fuck it. Baekhyun is trapped.


Kyungsoo knows that he's feeling alright now despite his fever and the pain he experienced yesterday. Kyungsoo knows that he can go to the café and restaurant and work in there since he has to get allowance because in one week, he'll be leaving this town. And he thinks now that Sehun is here, he doesn't have to tell Jongin that he'll leave.

But Kyungsoo doesn't know because he's not feeling alright now. He doesn't know why he's talking to this bitch. All Kyungsoo knows now is he has to kill the guy in front of him who's confronting him. "Please give Jongin to me."

Chogiwa danbeone neukkyeo
Neol hanibe chijeucheoreom jibeoneuheulteda
Hyanggimatgo saekkal eumihago
Wainboda uahage jabameogeulteda

| I get a feeling all at once, in one bite
I will put you in my mouth like cheese
I'll smell your scent, enjoy your colour
And eat you more elegantly than drinking wine |

Sehun says which stops Kyungsoo's world for the first time. Kyungsoo even feels that his heart stops beating when he hears those fucking words. Sehun holds Kyungsoo's hand and pleads, "Kyungsoo please. I love him and I know he still loves me."

Kyungsoo shakes his head and pulls his hand away from Sehun's grip. He wrinkles his eyes at Sehun because he cannot believe that Sehun is telling him these things, "And how the hell that you are so sure of that?" Kyungsoo blinks at what Sehun says.

"Can you see how he smiles at me?" Sehun asks Kyungsoo like he's warning him. Kyungsoo is struck. "He smiles at you?" Kyungsoo doesn't want to believe to whatever Sehun says but when Sehun tells everything, he doesn't know now.

"Yes! Yes! He even welcomed me to his world, to this café and restaurant Kyungsoo. And I bet he didn't do that to you." Sehun boasts and Kyungsoo wants to throw Sehun out of the window. Kyungsoo raises an eyebrow to Sehun... should Kyungsoo let out the beast in him now? Because he wants to kill Sehun now.

"So please Kyungsoo. He is just confused at his feelings." Sehun tries to be calm as possible. He has to do this. He has to take Jongin back. Sehun tells Kyungsoo directly because he cannot waste his time for this nonsense anymore with Kyungsoo, "He is so confused at the one whom he truly loves because you're in the way Kyungsoo."

And Kyungsoo is struck. He doesn't expect that Sehun has the guts to tell him these things in his world. Kyungsoo lifts his chin up and gulps some saliva so he won't be able to spit it on Sehun's thick face.

Thus, Sehun continues because he wants Kyungsoo to understand, "Kyungsoo, back off right now or you'll just be hurt. I know his true feelings but you're not sure of what he's feeling towards you. You can never do the things we've done before because you are not me Kyungsoo." And Kyungsoo laughs at what Sehun is saying.

He sighs heavily and gathers himself up. He looks at his friends on the counter who are watching them and at Sehun who is ready for a fight. Kyungsoo asks Sehun, "For fuck's sake, what on earth are you trying to say Sehun." Kyungsoo clenches his jaw because Sehun shouts at him.

"All I'm trying to say is that you can never replace the memories I had with him. For almost five years Kyungsoo, and with you with only less than a month! You are not me Kyungsoo! So don't try to be o--" Sehun is cut off by the hard punch coming from Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo hits the table and stands up, he shouts at Sehun and doesn't care who is listening to this fight, "Who are you Sehun?!! Fuck you! I'm not trying to be like you who doesn't even try to smile when someone is greeting him. I'm not trying to be like you who is too desperate on getting Jongin from me!" Kyungsoo hisses at Sehun as he receives the same punch from
Sehun.

"You're taking Jongin away from me!" Sehun says as Kyungsoo blocks the hits he gets from Sehun. Kyungsoo punches Sehun on the stomach causing the latter one to wince in pain.

"I'm not taking Jongin away from you because he is not yours!" Kyungsoo says wiping the blood on his wound on his mouth. He winces in pain and licks the wound beside his mouth, metallic taste meets his tongue and he looks at Sehun who is attacking him now.

"You're in the way Kyungsoo! And I know it because he kisses me yesterday night! We were together all night yesterday Kyungsoo. While you were under the rain left by Jongin on your very first date!" Sehun says and Kyungsoo's eyes widen in shock. Did something happen between Sehun and Jongin? Kyungsoo feels hot and cold all throughout his body. He's not sure of what happened between them but it hurts. He attacks Sehun with a punch that Sehun falls to the ground.

Sehun just groans as Kyungsoo's punches strikes him. Kyungsoo straddles Sehun to give punches and hits. Xiumin runs to where Kyungsoo is as Jongin opens the door and parts Sehun away from Kyungsoo, "What the hell Kyungsoo?!" Sehun clings onto Jongin like he's hurt badly. Kyungsoo widens his eyes at Jongin and Sehun.

And his heart clenches and his tears start to fall. Kyungsoo covers his eyes with his arms and cries. Jongin suddenly feels that he wants to go to Kyungsoo's side because of what he did to Kyungsoo yesterday. Kyungsoo hugs Xiumin, "You don't have the right to say these things to me because you are not me Sehun! I can't do everything you've done with Jongin. But you can't do everything I've done with Jongin either!" Kyungsoo digs his finger to tell that to Sehun.
Jongin shoves Kyungsoo's finger away because they should not be fighting. And is he the reason of this fight? Jongin thinks. He looks at Kyungsoo and Kyungsoo shouts at him, "You! Why don't you just reject me?!!"

Hearing that, Jongin looks lost, he doesn't know why Kyungsoo is angry at him, for the first time... "Just reject me instead of letting and pushing my hopes up! Because it hurts Jongin." Kyungsoo chokes to what he's saying and Jongin doesn't know how but he can feel the pain Kyungsoo is telling him right now, Kyungsoo is hurt. He hurts Kyungsoo when he should be the one protecting and making him happy.

"It hurts that I don't know what you're feeling..." Kyungsoo looks at Jongin straight in the eyes to tell Jongin, "I am not a psycho or what, I don't know what you're feeling now that this bitch is here." Kyungsoo points to Sehun and Sehun still glares at Kyungsoo but he's holding Jongin tightly for Jongin not to let go.

Kyungsoo looks at the hands that are holding Jongin in place and glares at Sehun. "You. You act like you know everything huh? He didn't welcome me in this world because I am the one who welcomed him in this world! This is my world Sehun if you don't know. I don't mean this but I want to say this to you, you are not welcome in MY world which Jongin introduced to you." Kyungsoo throws that at Sehun and Sehun freezes in place. Jongin is in Kyungsoo's world. He keeps quiet and his heart starts to clench. He still remembers what happened last night.

Kyungsoo continues and stops his tears from falling, he says coldly, "I don't know what you're feeling that's why I'm so confused. If you love me, or if you love Sehun. I don't know if I should feel relieved when you're being sweet, I don't know if I should be jealous when I see you with Sehun because I don't have the right to feel that way. But you are so unfair, you're sure that I'm yours but I am not sure if you're mine."

Kyungsoo wipes his face and dares not to look Jongin the eyes before saying, "Just reject me Jongin so I would know where to stay." Kyungsoo runs away and he starts to cry harder that Jongin hears it. Jongin's heart stings that it goes down to his stomach.


Jongin wants to run after Kyungsoo but Lay and Xiumin stop him. Jongin looks at them with confused eyes and they shake their head, "Kyungsoo is right. Just answer him with yes or no but not right now Jongin. He doesn't want to be hurt many times in just a day." Xiumin says then he looks at Sehun, Jongin looks at Sehun too who is still holding him. "And tell what you feel towards Sehun so you won't hurt him too." Lay lets go of Jongin's arm and apologizes to everybody. Everyone looks at them with judging eyes because they've hurt Kyungsoo. They are just newcomers in this town and in this world yet they have the guts to make Kyungsoo cry. And that makes Jongin guiltier.


Jongin looks at Sehun and his eyes tell him that they have to talk, anywhere but here. Sehun just follows Jongin as Jongin walks five blocks away from the café and restaurant. Sehun then walks to Jongin and holds his shoulder.

But Jongin shoves Sehun's hand away, "What did you say to Kyungsoo?" Jongin looks at Sehun with raged eyes and Sehun gulps at it. Jongin thinks that Sehun understands but he is wrong. Sehun doesn't understand and he doesn't know why because this is the first time that Sehun is being like this. Sehun doesn't say something because he can feel Jongin's anger at him. Jongin repeats his question, "What the hell did you say to Kyungsoo?!" Jongin almost shouts.

And that makes Sehun steps backward in fear. Sehun's lips start to tremble as he accepts defeat for now, "I told him that you kissed me last night! I told him that he cannot replace the memories we've made with each other!" Sehun starts crying in front of Jongin. He doesn't intend to hurt Kyungsoo but he loves Jongin so much. And it is either he or Kyungsoo will be hurt. And he decides that Kyungsoo deserves to be hurt because everyone loves him as he can see in the place. Jongin is the only he has right now and he won't let this chance pass to take Jongin back.

Jongin can't believe what Sehun is saying. He is about to hit Sehun but he cannot, he just shakes his head at disappointment. Then Sehun shouts at him, "You want to punch me too? I won't stop you. After all the pain you gave me yesterday and everytime you're with Kyungsoo, I may not feel that pain anymore!" Sehun hisses at Jongin. Jongin looks at Sehun with guilt. He doesn't really intend to hurt Sehun in that way. It's just because he saw Kyungsoo with another man that night.


Jongin and Sehun were kissing in the kitchen until Jongin pinned him on the wall. Sehun didn't let go of Jongin's lips because he missed those plump lips which used to kiss him every single hour of the day before. But by the way Jongin kissed him the other day with that dare, he didn't feel that intensity and warmth of Jongin's feelings for him.

He should've given up since then but he removed that thought in his head because Jongin's kisses that night were so full of emotions that Sehun dared not to even breathe just to taste Jongin's lips all night.

Sehun reached for Jongin's hair to play with it as Jongin kissed him on his collarbone which made him gasp in pleasure. Sehun heaved heavily and Jongin kissed his neck and felt that Jongin gave him a hickey.

Sehun felt elated as Jongin said, "You are mine." while giving Sehun more intense kisses and breathes. "You're only mine Kyungsoo." And Sehun's breathe stopped. His heart felt like squeezed by Jongin's hands. He gritted his teeth and slapped Jongin hardly on his face.

And Jongin was awakened; he blinked his eyes at Sehun and realized what he did. He bowed his head in apology as he took in Sehun's hits and slaps. Sehun pushed him hard that he stepped back and Sehun went out of the kitchen and proceeded to sleep on the bed.
Sehun covered his face with Jongin's pillow to hide his tears from the guy. He understood now...But Jongin fucked him up. Sehun closed his eyes and cursed that Jongin's kisses should stop lingering all through his body. Because it was not for him; it's for Do Kyungsoo.


"Do you know how much it hurts Jongin?!" Sehun hits Jongin on his chest repeatedly, still feeling the pain and kisses of Jongin inside him. He doesn't deserve to be hurt like this. And in that way. "Do you know the feeling that you mumble that fucker's name while making out with me? Do you fucking know how it feels! You're so unfair! You're so heartless! Jongin! You should've let me be hit by that car!" Sehun throws curses at him like he hasn't done anything wrong to Jongin. Jongin doesn't want to say this but Sehun is acting like he's the only one who's hurt.

And Jongin won't let this because Sehun has hurt him so much, so much that Jongin goes crazy when he left, "Don't act like you haven't hurt me Sehun!!" Jongin shouts which startles Sehun. Sehun takes a step back every time Jongin states how much he's hurt him.

"Do you know how much it hurts Sehun? You fucking left me with nothing! That night I told you everything but you disappeared the day after!" Jongin shouts at Sehun and tries his best not to shed a tear, "You left me Sehun, I always asked myself what I did wrong that you have to leave me! I always asked myself if you got afraid with my past! I also blamed myself for having a life like this!! I forbid myself to smile Sehun... because I thought you were afraid of me like I was a monster. You never know Sehun how much sadness and pain you gave me for those years! For those five years and then when I woke up that day, everything was just like a dream."

"Now you're asking me how much it hurts that I mumbled Kyungsoo's name when I was kissing you. Let me ask you, do you know how much it hurts that you left me with nothing but pain!! You're telling me that I'm heartless. Look at yourself first." Jongin hisses and adds, "Let me answer it for you... it hurts so much that I even attempted suicide if that guy was not there in that bridge that time." And Sehun's heart falls down when he hears it. He blinks at Jongin's back running away from him and starts to cry again.

Sehun covers his mouth and cries in pain because Jongin doesn't know that reason why he disappeared suddenly. Sehun has a reason why, but he wants to protect Jongin from the same sadness his family gave him. Sehun cannot tell Jongin because Jongin will only blame his self.

Notes

Okay, I'll cut to this ending. OMO >< there's so much to reveal in this story. Urgh, it's so complicated, and I'm sorry for that. But I'll clarify ALL the things on the next chapterSSSS... hahaha let us wait. I'm still working on it.

Well, I thank you for reading this chapter and I'm sorry if you don't like this one because it's too dramatic. And speaking of drama, there's more in the next chapterSSSS especially when I have to cut my tongue to say no more. I don't want to spoil the story guys, okay, I'm sorry geurae, I'm sorry.

Well, this is a 3k+ word chapter and the chapters seem to get shorter and shorter and sorry f it's not satisfying you. Tell me about your feels for this chapter okay? Okay? Right, thank you!! And sorry, I've been rude to you these past chapters. I always curse you, and I always swear in this story. Sorry! Bye!

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