Fateful Encounter

Luhan didn’t specify when our date would be, so I never asked him. A week passed, and my parents left again to go to Egypt for 2 weeks. On Wednesday, though, as I walked towards the tree out of habit, I saw Luhan sitting underneath its dense foliage.
“Hey, TJ. Thought I would visit.”
“Ok?”
I sit across from him, and start to eat my food. We sit in comfortable silence, until he speaks up.
“So, since the holidays are this weekend… do you want to have the, um, out out?” I laugh at his silliness. He honestly can’t call it a date?
“You mean the date?” He blushes and looks down at his hands when I say the ‘taboo’ d-word.
“If that’s what you want to call it..” He mutters.
“Well, what else could it possible be?”
“Uhh…” This side of Luhan was strangely endearing. Who knew the annoying ass could actually be a nervous teen?
“I don’t mind when you want to go out. I’m free the first half of the holidays. My parents will be back in the second half and you aren’t allowed to talk to them, cause you’ll give them a bad impression of me.”
“What?! No I won’t!” I could see him visibly relax when I didn’t reject him, and he seemed to be reverting back to his annoying persona.
It was weird sitting here with him, though -like an invasion of my memories. This was mine and Kai’s little hide-away. Silly to think that it would forever remain like that, although, I know that even if Luhan becomes something more to me, I will never show him the little hill that overlooks the city. That’s a place I refuse to taint with other memories. It’s a nice thought that Luhan may become something more to me. It makes me feel warm inside.

“Can I have your number?” I’m pretty surprised when Luhan asks me, but it’s true I don’t have his number yet.
“Yeah, sure. Give me your phone.” He hands it to me, and I punch my number in. “Here you go.”
“Is this real? You aren’t giving me a fake?” He smiles at me.
“Call me and see.”
“Nah, it’s ok. I trust you. We’ll see if you’re lying or not when I try to text you.” The lunch bell rings, and Luhan gets up. “I’ll let you get back to class. I’ll see ya!” He jumps over the fence, and I watch his retreating figure like I had done countless times with Kai. Thinking of Kai still makes me feel sad, to think of all the good times we had had, but now I won’t ever be able to have them with him again. With a heavy sigh, I turn around and walk to class.



The holidays started two days ago, and already I’ve finished my work. I need a life. I used to have one, but then I screwed it up. There is absolutely nothing to do, but then my phone vibrates and I realize I haven’t had anyone text me in a very long time.

I’m hoping this is the right number.

It’s Luhan. I add his number to my contacts list, and text him back.

It might be

Please don’t do this to me >.>

Hahaha yes, it is the right number. Do you want something?

I seem to recall you owe me a date ;)

I don’t owe you a thing.

Oh ok then. Well, you promised me a date.

And a date you shall receive

I can’t stop smiling like a fool at the fact that we’re talking about a date, and I find myself actually really looking forward to it.

Great. So can I come get you now?

Now? As in right this minute? A bit short-of-notice don’t you think?

Well, yeah, it is. But I’m already outside your door.

I read his text, and stand up to look outside my window. Sure enough, that idiot is down there sitting next to my mailbox. How did I miss him?

Omg -.-

Hehehehe sorry ^-^”

I get changed into clothes more socially acceptable, and then leave the house. Luhan hears the door close behind me and he turns around, grinning cheekily. He gets up and brushes off the dirt on his ass and then waits for me at the bottom of the driveway.

“Come this way, a taxi awaits.”
“You waste so much money on taxis. Why not get a license?”
“Because it’s too troublesome. Hehehe.” He hails a taxi and we both get in. The ride is slightly less awkward than the first, but there is still an element of awkwardness that can’t be avoided when you’re in a taxi. We get out, and I burst out laughing.

“An ice-rink? Really?” I give him a look. He shrugs.
“They’re fun!” He replies.

We walk in and buy our entrance tickets, then we put on our skates. Luhan glides onto the ice, and he looks so majestic doing so you would never have thought he was an ass. I had only gone three or four times prior to this, but I was taught quite well and my skills aren’t terrible. I manage to keep my balance as I slide onto the ice, and even though I can move well, I move slowly. On the other hand, Luhan looks so comfortable gliding around: he’s amazing. We spent at least two hours at the ice rink, and I lost count of how many times I fell over. It was funnier when Luhan fell over, though, because he was actually so cocky about being a good skater. It was fun skating around with him, and it wasn’t awkward at all. On the taxi ride home, it was pretty comfortable silence we rode in. Luhan walks me to the door of my house, and we stand awkwardly. I don’t want to invite him inside, but it’s rude if I don’t. Maybe he’ll get the hint if we just stand here…

“So, today was good.”
“Yeah, I had fun. Thank you.” Luhan scratches the back of his neck, and he looks at me.
“Um.” He takes a step forward, and I try to take one back, but the door stops me. My heart is losing it, pounding so fast you would think a lion was chasing me. He leans closer, and looks me in the eye. Alarm bells are blaring in my head. An image of Kai leaning closer flashes into my head, and I can’t do it. I duck my head and hug Luhan. I feel terrible, but I can’t bring myself to do it. Luhan wraps his arms around me, and when I release him, I can’t look at his face. I thank him for the date and close the door behind me. I lean on the door and sink to the floor with my head in my hands.

Ohhhh what will I do? My cheeks feel like they’re on fire. I don’t understand why Kai’s face flashed into my mind and why it felt like I would be cheating on him if I had kissed Luhan. I’m over Kai. We are done.

Or are you?

We are. Don’t be ridiculous. I grip my phone, and get up and go to my room. I unlock it, and find myself staring at Kai’s messages. What if I’m NOT over him? I want to reciprocate Luhan’s affection- I know I do. But what if my feelings for Kai haven’t left even though I don’t feel depressed anymore about breaking up with him? What if I still like him? What if I …love him?

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