Strange Words, Familiar Feelings

Sehun is sleeping, clutching the bear panda Tao left him. Tao always claims that he gave the bear panda to Sehun, even though Sehun was the one who bought it. “F… R.. Robber..” he mumbles in his sleep.

- - - - -

“Yah Tao! Why you! Mom! Look at Tao! He is stealing my bear panda I just bought!” A five-year-old Sehun shouted out loud while he reached for the bear panda Tao stole.

“Huh? But you just gave it to me! It’s mine now right?! And it looks like me! We fit perfectly!!” Tao said locking the bear panda with both of his arms.

“First thing!!!...” Sehun pointed out with a lisp and Tao just wanted to laugh his ass out. “I will never give something to you because you are a meanie! You always tease me and you always hurt me! Second thing, I never said that I gave that to you, stop lying!!” Sehun said, tears welling up in his eyes.

“I’m not! But thanks! I like it! It loo—Ouch!!! Uwwaa!!!” Tao started crying with Sehun’s left hand pulling the bear panda from the tight grip of Tao and his right hand hitting Tao with his toy hammer which when you hit on something hard, it’ll give you a squeaky sound.

“Yah! Give it to me!! You robber!!” Sehun said in-between sobs.

“It’s mine now! You murderer!” Tao pulled the bear panda so hard that Sehun stumbled and fell, causing his face to kiss to ground.

Sehun cried louder due to the sore beside his lips and left cheek. Sehun’s mother ran towards them, and gasped as he saw the two boys crying and his son kissing the ground. She took Sehun from the ground and commanded the two boys to follow her.


“What happened?” Sehun’s mother asked while curing the wound on his son’s face.

“He stole my bear panda!” Sehun harshly pointed Tao who flinched and bowed his head, but still holds the bear panda tightly.

Sehun’s mother smiled, “Do you want that bear panda Tao Tao?” She asked ignoring Sehun throwing tantrums behind them saying, “No Mom!! Don’t give that to him!!”

Tao smiled brightly and nodded excitedly, and this is the first time Sehun saw that smile Tao gave his mother.

I wanted him to smile like that too…. TO ME Sehun stared at him, feeling weird.

His mother lifted his face to face her and gave him a kiss. Sehun was surprised, “Yah Mom! Why did you do that? I-it’s---“

“I just kissed away the pain.” She smiled at his son endearingly. Sehun just pouted at the sweetness.


= = = / = = =


Sehun gets up from his bed, and brushes his teeth, and proceeds to the kitchen to cook something for his mom. Or rather to cook something for the client of her mom.

Sehun then looks for some ingredients of… Ugh, before I look for ingredients or whatsoever, what food am I going to cook?

He looks around and stops when he sees something on the top of cabinet of plates and other utensils. He sees some cookies. Cookies… “You shitty robber..”

- - -

“Hey let’s go! Mom has baked me cookies…” Sehun said as he excitedly ran to go home. And Tao gave him the smile tha-- “… but I won’t give you! haha! -- Umph!”

Tao laughed when Sehun tripped and fell on his knees. “Yahahahaha!! You’re so clumsy murderer! So weak!” Tao said as he sat beside Sehun whose tears were filling up his eyes, again. He pinched Sehun’s nose. “I wonder when the time will come wherein you won’t get hurt or wounded huh, Sehunnie Look at me! I’m so strong!” Tao said as he pointed the muscle in his tiny arm (but there is none)

Sehun sobbed, blame it to his emotions, he always cries so easily, he always gets wounds easily, and it hurt him as he admitted that he is really weak, but not with Tao with his side.

“Yah stop crying Sehun, the murderer with lisp!” Tao teased.

Sehun just cried harder as he heard the teases Tao was giving him. He tried to stand to prove to Tao that he is not that weak but it hurt too much for him that he fell on his knees, again.

Poor Sehunnie. Tao thought. “Don’t move!” The second-grader Tao took his bottle of water out from his backpack and watered the wound with it. Sehun flinched because of the pain as Tao cleaned the wound, “Don’t move. It’ll hurt more if you move!”

Because of what he heard, he just closed his eyes and bore the pain of his wound. Tao smiled and said, “You can open your eyes now! I’m done cleaning your wound!” As soon as Sehun opened his eyes, Tao drowned his wound with alcohol and Sehun died.
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No
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Sehun just fainted.
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Sehun opened his eyes and found his mother treating his wound, again. With Tao beside him. “Why is he here?!!” Sehun sat up and winced because of his sudden action, his knees still hurt.

“He brought you home.” Sehun’s mother said, calming his son by placing her hand on the wound.

“Yeah, and you’re so heavy and you won’t wake up. I tried what I can do to wake you up but you’re not waking up, you sleepyhead!!!” Tao shouted innocently.

“I didn’t sleep! You bathed my wound with that alcohol of yours!” Sehun shouted back, cursing his mother’s neighbor’s child who’s getting on his nerves.

Tao flinched and made a face. “Oh, I thought if I did that, I’d disinfect that wound --“

“But you don’t have to put a liter of alcohol to it! Don’t you know how much it hurts that I fainted!” both of the boys’ eyes were welling up in tears. And his mother can’t help but to facepalm.

“Tao, come here.” She said as he led Tao to the kitchen.


“I’m sorry for the attitude Sehunnie is giving you… but I am happy that you disinfected the wound of my Sehunnie. Thank you Tao Tao. Give me high five!” Tao smiled and gave what Sehun’s mother asked.

“Uhm.. I think you should get back there, I think he’s throwing tantrums there.” Tao said which made Sehun’s mother to tell him that he can eat the cookies he baked for the both Sehun and Tao.


His mother returned and Sehun’s glaring at her. “Don’t give me that look, darling.”

“Where is he?” Sehun asked.

“He just tried to help you and you’re rude to him. You didn’t even give thanks to him. Why are you rude to him while he’s being nice to you?” She calmly scolded Sehun.

“No! He’s not nice to me! He always teases me when I’m being clumsy.” Sehun pouted and said angrily.

“But he’s still there for you right? Did he leave you?” His mother deadpanned him. And Sehun was speechless.. he understood what his mother is trying to tell him.

“Did he leave you?” Sehun shook his head guiltily. “See?” She pulled his son into a hug. “And I know you liked being with him right?” Sehun nodded and snuggled closer to his mother.

He saw Tao behind the door and Sehun was stunned. Tao gave him the smile he was longing for. So he just stared at Tao’s smile. His mother seemed to notice Tao and invited Tao to join them.

“Hmmm… I think you two should make up. Don’t fight again.” Sehun’s mother went to the kitchen to cook dinner.

“Okay Mr. Murderer, I’m sorry, please forgive me.” Tao declared as he bowed his head for an apology.

Sehun bowed his head, too, still sitting on the bed. “Oh, I’m sorry, too, for being rude to you. And thank you.” Sehun smiled. And Tao did the same.

“Tao! I think your mother’s calling you. Let me take you home.” Sehun’s mother shouted from the kitchen.

“Ah! Before I forgot, my mother told me that your wound will get better if you do this. And your mother did this too.” Tao grinned

And kissed him…
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Or rather
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Tao kissed his knees…
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Or rather
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Tao kissed the wounds on his knees

“I hope it will get better.” Tao said as he patted the wound of the speechless, staring Sehun… “Yah! You’re creepy! Close your mouth Sehunnie! Bye!” Tao waved goodbye.

“Let’s go Tao. You want to go darling?” His mother asked him, but he’s still surprised at what happened. “Hm? No?? Okay.. Stay here. I’ll be right back.”


“Have you two made up?” Sehun’s mother asked.

“Yes, and I think we’re bestfriends now.” Tao declared proudly. “Oh wait, where are the cookies?”

She pointed at the table, “Uhm, can I leave a note. Because I’m leaving. I want to leave him these cookies. I don’t want him to get mad at me again, if you know what I mean.” Tao said which made Sehun’s mother to chuckle and to ruffle Tao’s hair. “You’re so cute Tao.”

“I know. You don’t have to tell me, my mother always tells me that. But she once told me that that bear panda is cuter than me so I’ll just give it to Sehunnie sooner or later.” Tao said as he wrote the note for Sehun.

Maybe Tao is right. Tao kissed away the pain.

Sehun was still stunned and stared at his knees, which were just kissed by Tao, until he saw his knee with crumbs of cookie which caused him to run towards the kitchen, ignoring the pain his wound gave him. But he failed to see it so he shouted to his neighbourhood, “TaoTao! You robber!! You stole my cookies! Yah! Tao, you robber!!”

“No! I left you some with a note! Read it if you can!” Tao shouted from their window. He then looked for the note Tao’s talking about.

He then turned towards the window and shouted, “Yah! As if I can read Chinese symbols!”

Tao popped his head up of the window and smiled.

That smile of a robber, yeah! Tao Tao! Sehun thought as he read the note Tao left him.


Hey Murderer! Be careful yah! So weak ~___~… I hope you get well, your wound I mean. Don’t be mad! I left you some cookies from the ones I ate, THANKS TO ME!!
I don’t know what those mean haha! But I learned it from Mom!
And I’ll have something to give you. J

“But there are English words there and I bet you understand that!”

“But how about these Chinese symbols you wrote?”

“Oh, I don’t know what those meant! I just wrote that because those symbols are the only ones I knew on Chinese alphabet. My mother taught me that.” And he smiled.

“Is this bad?”

“No! Because Mom always write that to me! So I bet it doesn’t. Mom loves me so much.” Tao chuckled and waved goodbye.

= = =

“What’s that darling?” Sehun’s mother approached him as she eyed what his son was writing. “Ugh..”

“Oh! This one! I’m writing in Chinese. I’m trying it so I could write this to Tao, too.”

“Tao?”

“Yes, I saw this on his note. I’m practicing it.”

“Isn’t the meaning bad?”

“No, because he said his mother always writes this for him. So, I guess not.” Sehun answered without even looking at his mother, busy practicing how to write those symbols.


= = = / = = =


“Mom, I just finished baking the cookies, what would I do now? Would I put these on a container??” Sehun politely shouts from the kitchen while his Mom is watching television.
“Ah no!” She suddenly gets up and runs towards the kitchen. “I’ll be the one to put that on a container tomorrow.” She says and eats a cookie. “Do you want? Have you tasted it?”

“I baked those cookies Mom, of course I did.” Sehun says.

“Mmmm. Hey, be sure you’ll be here all day today. Don’t leave the house.” Her mother warns him.

“Why?” Sehun asked curiously.

“I need you to be here.”

“What’s the drama all about?? Are you sick??” Sehun walks towards his mom, wanting to snuggle in her … but she’s too short so he just hugs her.

“Sick,, no I’m not..”

Sick, “I hate robber.”

- - - - -


Sehun was knocking on his neighbourhood and Tao’s mother opened it for him.

“Hey Sehunnie, come in!!”

“Where is Tao?”

“Uh.. He’s in his room.” She said, a little bit worried.

“Can I come?” Sehun asked as he got up from his seat to go to Tao’s room.

“Sehunnie, wait!” Tao’s mother said that stopped Sehun from opening the door of Tao’s room. “He said that I shouldn’t let you in.”

Sehun gave her a questioning look, “Why?? I-i-is he mad at me??”

“No, he just doesn’t want you to enter his room because he’s sick.”

“Oh? He’s sick? Too bad, we can’t play.” The six-year-old Sehun pouted. “But can I visit him?”

“But he told me not to let you enter the room.”

“Why not?”

“Because he’s afraid that you might catch a cold because you’re with him. And you two won’t be able to play for a long time. That would be soooo boring, he said.” She explained.

Sehun pouted because he wanted to visit Tao, especially now that he’s sick. He thought deeply.


“Tao Tao!!” Sehun entered Tao’s room which made Tao jumped in shock.

“Yah! Why are you here?! Moom!!!” Tao was about to scold his Mom for letting Sehun in his room but Sehun closed the door and shut Tao up.

“I won’t catch your cold, don’t worry. I have this with me.” Sehun showed the mask Tao’s mother gave him for him to be able to visit Tao and wore it. “See? I won’t catch your cold now.” Sehun smiled behind the mask.

Tao just looked at him. “Tss. Yah, do whatever you want.” And closed his eyes.

“Hey, don’t sleep!!” Sehun shouted at Tao’s ears.

Tao got annoyed, “I’m tired! And don’t scream in my ears, I am not deaf!!”

“Oh, I’m sorry. I thought you fell asleep right away.”

Tao just rolled his eyes.

“Oh! Who’s weak now?! Haha! Look at you Yah!!” Sehun teased as he jumps, he wanted Tao to see that he’s very very healthy, unlike him. Tao rolled his eyes, again.

Sehun walked toward Tao and whispered. “How did you get a cold?”

“As if I would know!” Tao said rudely. And Sehun pouted at the stubbornness. “J-just get out! I don’t have time to play with you.”

“Oh? Yes you have, because you’re just lying there. I think we could play while you lie there, I’ll get… oh! Where’s my bear panda?”

“I think you should just go home and play by yourself.”

“Don’t you want to play with me?”

“If that will force you to go home then yes. And you’re so irritating, my he-- Ouch!” Tao wasn’t able to finish what he’s saying because Sehun rushed out of his room and threw Tao a story book that Sehun planned to tell and read to him.

He just sighed. He somehow regretted what he said because surely, Sehun was angry with him now. But if it’s the way Sehun will go home, then be it. He didn’t want to Sehun catch his cold.

Tao’s mother was cooking when she saw Sehun slammed the door of the room of his son.

“What happened, Sehun? Did you two have a fight, again?” she said heading towards Sehun who was now sitting on their couch.

“He doesn’t want to play with me, anymore so I’m getting out of here.” Sehun crossed his arms and gave Tao’s mother a kiss before he left. But he returned again handling the mask to Tao’s mother. “Use this. He doesn’t want you to catch his cold, right? Just be careful to his stubbornness.”

Tao’s mother chuckled. “Wo ai ni Sehun.”

“Wo ai ni, too. And to Tao, too. Even if I don’t know what it means. But be careful! Don’t catch the robber’s cold!!” Sehun said as he waved goodbye to her.

= = = / = = =

Remembering this,, Sehun realizes that he is really, really stupid. Then a ring coming from his phone is heard.

“Yah, what do you want Baek?” Sehun greets his friend.

“Can you come with us?” Baekhyun asks

“Where?” Sehun rolls his eyes.

“In a café and elsewhere. Can you hang out with us?” Baekhyun pleads.

“With whom?” Sehun asks plainly.

“Uhm, Chanyeol.”

“No.” Sehun says because he knows that Chanyeol and Baekhyun will just make him jealous because they will be sweet at each other.

“Uh! Why not?!” Baekhyun almost shouts.

“Is it a date?” Sehun raises his eyebrow even though Baekhyun cannot see it.

“N-n-no!! I haven’t confessed yet.” Baekhyun stutters.

“No.” Sehun then answers.

“Why?? Sehunnie you’re so stingy.” Baekhyun huffs.

“No. I’m not. Just give thanks to me, I’ll give you time alone together.”

“Well, Luhan and Xiumin hyung are with us. yah yah,, now,, you can come now.. Sehunnie!!”

“Okay right.” Sehun surrenders. Besides, he wants to hang out with his friends too. He just wants Baekhyun to confess to Chanyeol.

“Okay Mom, I’ll be hanging out with Baekhyun and the others.” Sehun says as he goes to his room to change clothes.

Then his mother stops him, “What?! I just told you stay here all day!!” His mother shouts.

“Aish, you’re overreacting, don’t shout. This won’t take long.” Sehun pouts.

“But you just agreed!!” she insists.

“No, I didn’t agree to it. You were just explaining when Baekhyun called me.” Sehun says and his mom pouts.


= = = / = = =


Sehun is in a café with his friends, Baekhyun with his crush Chanyeol, and Luhan with his boyfriend Xiumin… and he is disgusted because the sweetheart won’t stop mumbling ‘I Love You’s’ to each other. While Baekhyun and Chanyeol are smiling at their friends’ sweetness.

“Hey Luhan hyung, can you two transfer to another table so you wouldn’t distract me with you saying those words endlessly! I’m so sick of it, don’t you know that? Everytime you’re together, you always say those words to each other, won’t you just record it and just play it with your earphones so it’s only the two of you could hear those corny words!” Sehun heartlessly blurts out because the thought of… oh, nevermind.

“I’ll do that. Thanks!” Luhan says teasingly.

“Yeah, right.” Sehun just rolls his eyes.

“Why are you being like that?” Xiumin asks, pouting at Sehun.

“Like what?” Sehun says irritatingly.

“Bitter in love? Did you fall out of love?” Chanyeol asks and it hits Sehun. Sehun glares at him and Baekhyun hits Chanyeol on his arm. “Why? I’m just asking?”

“Is it bad if you express your feelings with words?” Luhan tries to change the conversation slightly.

“Yes, if you always say that like ALL THE TIME. You know, actions are better than words!!” Sehun says bitterly.

“Then just write ‘I love you’ in a piece of paper.” Chanyeol says innocently.

Luhan laughed. “Yah! Yah! I’ll just do what Sehun did last 4 years! Hahahaha!!”

I think I’m going to be a real murderer. Sehun thinks while staring at his friends, or rather, victims.

Then a phone rings from Sehun’s pocket. And guess what, it’s a miracle that Kyungsoo is calling him. Another person whose love life is perfect but before he goes all the way to his drama, he answers it first.

“Yes, hyung??”

- - - - -


“Tao! Tao! Look! Look!” a highschooler Sehun ran towards Tao and handed the piece of paper he was handling.

But Tao just gave him a questioning look. “What’s that Murderer?” Tao tilted his head to look at the paper Sehun was holding.

“Ugh. Don’t you remember?” Sehun pouted then Tao examined the paper curiously and burst out laughing.

“Is this in Chinese? Yuck yuck! Your handwriting sucks!” Tao said.

“Or maybe your writing sucked when we’re in second grade. I just imitated what you’ve written there. So what does this mean?” Sehun explained and asked.

Then Tao looked at Sehun, and blushed immediately. “I… I don’t know.” Tao laughed.

“Yah robber. Don’t mess with me!” Sehun hit Tao’s arm.

Tao rubbed the skin Sehun just hit, “I’m not messing with you. I really don’t know what those mean.”

“Eh what does your mother always says before?” Sehun asked.

“I really can’t remember. Sorry.” Tao said then Sehun pouted. “Just ask Luhan or Kris, they’re also Chinese, right?”

“Nevermind! You’re so stingy!” Sehun insulted Tao.

“No I’m not.” Tao defended.

“Yes you are.” Sehun rolled his eyes.

“What if I really don’t know what those mean? I swear! I just wrote that note!!” Tao explained.

“So you didn’t mean it?” Sehun asked.

Tao shook his head, “No, I mean it… the English words I guess.”

“You’re really stupid! I thought you know what these mean!” Sehun threw that to Tao.

“Well, you just thought that.” Tao said coldly, he wanted to shut Sehun up. “And I’m sorry.”

“Yah! You’re always sorry! You stole my bear panda and you’re sorry… ugh, did you apologize? No you didn’t, right? But when you stole the cookies my moth-- wait, are you sorry that time? No right? Yes?? No, you’re not right! Ugh! Whatever ROBBER!!” Sehun was confused, or rather, crazy.

“Wait Sehun, I have som--“

Sehun covered his ears with his hands and shook his head. “Lalalala.. I won’t listen.. you’re so stingy.”

“No, Sehun, just hear me…” Tao went serious.

But Sehun stuck his tongue out, “No no no… La la la la.”

Tao sighed, “Wait Se--“

“Lalalala!!”

“Ugh! Whatever! I’ll leave you!!” Tao shouted enough for Sehun to hear what he said.

Sehun was surprised, and worried if he heard the right thing. “What did you say??” Sehun asked worriedly and he felt weird, his heart stung.

“Nothing. You won’t listen so I won’t tell.” Tao rolled his eyes.

“Hoh? What did you want to say?” Sehun insisted

“No! You won’t listen, I won’t waste my precious saliva just to tell a not so important thing.” Tao glared.

“Not important. Okay. I won’t force you. Don’t worry.” Sehun said with a relief in his face. But still, he wants to know what Tao is going to say..

Necessary or not… Sehun wants to know.. everything about Tao.

“I won’t tell if I’ve found out the meaning of these symbols.” Sehun stuck his tongue out.

“I could ask Kris you know.” Tao stuck his tongue out.

“Well, I can ask Luhan hyung.” Sehun stuck his tongue out, too and again.

“Hyung??” Tao was not sure if he heard the right thing but still he glared at Sehun.

Sehun nodded innocently, “Yes.”

“Why hyung?” Tao asked.

“Why not? He’s older than me. Much older than me. You should call him hyung, too.” Sehun convinced Tao innocently.

“I don’t want.” Tao rolled his eyes.

“What’s your problem?” Sehun was asked Tao worriedly, he thought that Tao was maybe a bipolar.

“Nothing!” Tao closed his eyes.

“Are you mad at him?” Sehun looked at Tao, confused, why is he closing his eyes??

“No.” Tao answered.

“Are you mad at me?” Sehun asked worriedly.

Tao opened his eyes and shook his head, “I am not mad at anyone.”

“But why don’t you call him hyung? He’ll be happy, especially you are my--”

“Then why don’t you call me hyung?” Tao cut off and asked Sehun, with his fierce-looking eyes.

“What?! Tao hyung?! Pffftt!!” Sehun choked and laughed his ass out at what he heard.

Tao just rolled his eyes and turned around to leave this Sehun. But Sehun stopped him saying, “Ewww! Tao hyung? It doesn’t fit you, don’t you know that?”

“And it doesn’t fit Luhan either but I’m still older than you.”

“But it’s only for days. Luhan hyung is years older than me!!” Sehun explained.

“Still! I’m older than you!!” Tao shouted which made Sehun drew back.

“Then why are you angry??!!” Sehun shouted back at him.

“Whatever! You, Murderer!!” Tao then stole the piece of paper Sehun was holding.

“Give it to me!” Sehun reached for the paper.

“No! This is mine now!” Tao shoved Sehun.

“Who told you? Robber!!” Sehun said while he struggled reaching for the paper.

“You gave it to me.” Tao stuck his tongue out.

“No, I didn’t! give it to you yah! Robber!” Sehun pinched Tao so hard that Tao ran and looked at Sehun intensely.

“Unless you call me hyung.” Tao pouted.

“What?” Sehun then stopped, and so was Tao. And Sehun immediately grabbed the paper but Tao’s grip was tight that the paper ripped. Sehun’s eyes were staring at the pieces of paper falling on the ground. And then at Tao, who stole and ripped the paper apart.

Sehun pouted. Ugh, here we go again, he always steals something from me and breaks it afterwards. “Mr Robber!!” He glared at Tao, who’s about to walk away. He grabbed Tao’s arm and asked, “Where are you going, robber huh--- what the hell Tao?!!”

Sehun was shocked… Tao was crying. Sehun blinked.

Is he guilty? Does his head hurt? Did someone steal something from him? Did he kill someone??

“Tao, why are you crying??” Sehun’s panicking, he didn’t know what to do because Tao was not speaking. “Tao, what happened?” he shook Tao’s body.

“I’m sorry.” Tao sobbed and scratched his eyes and Sehun found it cute BUT it’s not the time to dream of the cute gestures this robber does,, Sehunnie!!

“Don’t feel guilty!! I-I’m not angry, you know.. I could write it all over again, do you want me to write a hundred times to prove i--“

“I know that, murderer.” Tao said, Sehun found his relief that Tao spoke again.

“Then why?” Sehun panicked when Tao didn’t respond, again. So he caressed Tao’s face and placed a kiss on his forehead. Even his cheeks are burning. “Does your head hurt?”

Tao shook his head, face looking down.

“So, what happened??” Sehun calmly asked, again. He tilted his head and saw Tao’s blushing face.

“Nothing…. Just… just, don’t leave me.” Tao hugged Sehun.

“I won’t, I promise.” He said and snuggled closer to Tao.

= = =

“Luhan, hyung!” Sehun childishly called to Luhan.

“Yes Sehunnie?” Luhan said lovingly, and cutely.,

Sehun handed the paper with Chinese symbols he wrote and learned from the robber. Then Luhan’s eyes turned into teary ones. “I’m sorry Sehunnie, but I love Xiumin,, I jus--“

“What’s the meaning of these symbols? These are in Chinese right? And you’re Chinese, yah?” Sehun asked, hoping Luhan knew the meaning of these symbols.

“Y-You don’t know what those mean?” Luhan choked and asked, wiping the tears which welled up in his eyes earlier.

Sehun pouted and shook his head.

“T-Then, who wrote this?” Luhan’s lips was slowly turning to curve upwards.

“I wrote it.” Sehun smiled at Luhan too.

“Who taught you?” Luhan asked Sehun curiously.

Sehun thought why Luhan was so interested with the one who wrote it eh he just wanted to know what those Chinese symbols meant. “Uhm.. Tao?”

Then a smile landed on the pretty face of Luhan.. “I LOVE YOU!!!” Luhan jumped out of joy and hugged Sehun. “I love you!”

Just as Luhan said I Love You, Sehun thought he saw Tao but he didn’t mind it because he was maybe dreaming of Tao again and because Luhan was squeezing him that he can’t breathe.

Sehun stuttered, “W--Wait. Wait, Luhan hyung… Y-you knew the one I like is Tao th---“

“That means I Love You!! Bastard!!!” Luhan hit Sehun’s head. Then Sehun’s eyes popped out from its socket when the things that he just discovered sunk into him and he blushed as memories flashed back in his mind…

“What’s that darling? Ugh....”
“Oh! This one! I’m writing in Chinese. I’m trying it so I could write this to Tao, too.”

I’m trying it so I could write this to Tao, too
So I could write this to Tao, too

“Fuck..” was the only thing he said…


= = = / = = =


“Sehunnieeee!!!!” a crying Kyungsoo approaches him as he steps inside his cousin’s house.

“Yah! Why are you crying??” Sehun says as he shoves Kyungsoo from clutching his neck, “Yah! You’re killing me when I’m supposed to be the one killing you! What’s your problem?” Sehun almost shouts.

“Sehunniee!! He’s a liar!!!” Kyungsoo shouts, wiping the tears out of his face.

“Oh…” is the only thing he said as he realized who Kyungsoo is talking about. “So, did you two break up?”

“Not yet but I realized that ALL PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN..” Kyungsoo screams, and it kills Sehun’s ears.

“No… it’s not made to be broken…” Sehun insists.

But Kyungsoo opposes, “Yes!! ALL PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN! Because he promised me th---“

“Well, to Kai, it seems he broke his promise. But not all… Look at me…” Sehun lifts his cousins chin to face him… and smiles, but there’s pain behind that.. “I didn’t break my promise….”

- - - - -

Sehun noticed that Tao was being cold to him. He didn’t know why so it othered him. After that ‘hyung’ incident, Tao started to act strangely. But we still hugged… and isn’t it…Sehun looked at his side and saw Tao walking away.

“Tao wait yah!” he grabbed Tao’s arm but Tao just shoved it off which surprised Sehun. “What’s your problem yah Robber!!” Sehun was now angry because of Tao, Tao’s really pissing me off!!

“Why do you care, murderer?!” Tao said in a high voice.

“You’ve been acting weird these days. What happened??” Sehun asked with care.

“As if you care… you hated me do you??” Tao blurted and he was raged.

“Huh?” Sehun backed off as Tao looked at him with death glaring eyes.

Am I the murderer? But he looks like he’s the one. Sehun told himself

“You hate me do you?” Tao asked again.

“Why would I?” Sehun asked in confusion.

“Because I always tease you. and I’m being weird lately, right??” Tao pointed out.

“Uhm,, yeah…” Sehun answered honestly.

Tao’s face suddenly went down, “So you really hate me that’s why you--“

“No.. I don’t hate you because you never leave me.” Sehun said calmly, trusting what his mother said before.

“Then I think you should hate me.” Tao said coldly.

The atmosphere went serious, and it sent shivers to his spine. And Sehun bets, this is not good.

“Why would I do that?” Sehun asked, erasing the thought in his mind.

“What if I leave you? I think you would hate me… You should really hate me.. You should hate me right now, Sehunnie, you murderer! Curse me Sehun!! ” Tao said in paranoia.

Sehun was worried because of what Tao was saying. He held Tao on both of his shoulders and shook him, “What?---”

“Hate me please… please hate me Sehun..” Tao started crying.

“Wh---- Tao!! What are you saying?? Why would I do that??” Sehun was confused, his feelings were heavy and he felt like crying, and this sucks, calm yourself, Sehunnie!

“Sehun… I’m sorry. But don’t forgive me and---“

“No.. Why would I do that? And why are you sorry?? I can’t underst---“

“I’m leaving.” Tao said which made Sehun’s heart broke and tears started to well up in Sehun’s eyes.

“What,” Sehun asked, his eyes narrowing on Tao and his eyebrows meeting, “is this?”

“I’m sorry.. We’re going to China.” Tao said bowing his head and wiping his tears out of his face.

“What?” Sehun asked emotionlessly.

“I’ll continue my studies there.” Tao looked at Sehun.

“What?” Sehun repeated.

“What what?” Tao asked Sehun confusedly.

“What?” Sehun asked again.

“What what?” Tao asked, annoyed.

“What?”

“Sehun!!! What what?! I don’t know what you’re talking about? Spit it o--“

“What about the promise you made with me?!!!” Sehun’s tears began to fall.

Tao fell silence and bowed his head to apologize.

“Why??” Sehun asked.

Tao didn’t respond.

“You’re not just a robber, you’re a liar too.”

Tao hesitated to say this but…. “As far as I can remember, you’re the only one who promised me that.” Tao said coldly.

*flashback*
Tao’s world almost died and Sehun’s heart was breaking, as Tao’s mother was lying in bed, in her deathbed.

“Tao Tao.” Sehun poked Tao’s cheeks which were puffed because of shouting his mother’s name, telling her to wake up.

Then Tao looked at Sehun. Sehun smiled brightly hoping that maybe Tao would be lightened up with his smile but Tao just glared at him.

“You’re mean. Are you happy that my mother is in there?? I hate you.. I’ll leave you.” Tao was about to walk away when Sehun pulled him to a hug.

“Yes, you may leave, but I would never ever ever leave you, Tao Tao.” Sehun said and it made Tao cry roughly on Sehun’s chest.

“I promise, I will never leave you. I’m here, don’t worry.” Sehun said and kissed Tao’s eyes. “Do your eyes hurt? I kissed away the pain.. Does it hurt anymore, huh?.” Sehun asked sweetly.

Tao shook his head, smiled, and hugged Sehun.

“Don’t cry anymore, you don’t look like my bear panda anymore.” Sehun pouted and pinched Tao’s cheeks to make it curve upward.

*end of flashback*

“Yes, you may leave, but I would never ever ever leave you, Tao Tao.”
Sehun … it’s me who said that,,, but not Tao…

Sehun’s tears flowed. But he smiled, even though his whole body was shaking.

“Ah yah! Sorry to misunderstand that.” Sehun sniffed, “Yeah.. I’m the one who promised that I’ll never leave you but yeah,, haha. You didn’t promise me that. Sorry to assume.” Sehun put his hands up in defeat, tears were still flowing from his eyes. “Oh here, take this. I’m giving you the right to steal this from me.” Sehun handed the note with the symbols he learned from the robber.

Wo ai ni, it says, “Goodbye Robber.”

= = =

Sehun woke up the next day cursing his eyes.. or rather cursing who caused his eyes to swell like this.. Tao.

Ugh… you’re the murderer, not me… I want to hate you but fuck!! I just can’t!!!

Then someone knocked on his room... and his feelings felt heavy. His heart was throbbing quickly… and he’s wondering why because he could remember that Tao stole his heart away and he thought Tao was getting ready to break it like the other things Tao stole.

And he knew who’s behind the door. He then got up from bed, ready to be broken, again. He cursed his life for being this miserable.

He sighed deeply and opened the door.

“S-s-sehun..” Tao greeted nervously.

“What do you want?” Sehun asked coldly.

“I… I just want to r-r-return this to y-you.” Tao then handed Sehun the panda bear he stole years ago. Sehun’s throat hurt and his chest tightened. He didn’t expect that the panda bear was still alive.

He reached for the panda bear and choked at his words, “T-t-thanks.” Adam’s apple bobbing up and down as those words escaped his lips..

They just stared at each other. Words didn’t want to escape their lips. Silence was all they can hear.

“S--so yeah.. That’s all I wanted to say.. And thank you.. And sorry.” Tao broke the silence, checking his watch.

“Thanks again.” Sehun smiled. Another lie.

Tao stared at him again. And Sehun can’t hold his tears, he wanted this to end, “Y--you can l-l-leave now..” As Sehun turned around, his tears flowed from his swelling eyes.

“C-Can I leave??” Tao asked Sehun. He can see Sehun’s back but not his face, and he’s worried because Sehun was shaking. “S-Sehun?”

Tao was about to went near Sehun but, “NO!!!” Sehun shouted. Tao stopped. “You may leave.. yes you can.. you can go now.” Sehun stated breathlessly.

Tao bowed his head and felt a pang in his chest. “Goodbye. Murderer.”

Sehun’s tears kept on flowing from his eyes. Sehun’s heart kept on bleeding on Tao’s hands.


Thank you for everything. For making me happy. For stealing things from me. For breaking things that I own. For breaking my heart. Thank you robber.
But remember this, I did not break my promise. I did not leave you, you are the one who left.

= = = / = = =

“Right?? Kyungsoo hyung? I didn’t break my promise to him. And he didn’t break his, because he didn’t promise me anything.” Now, it’s Sehun who’s now crying. He leans his head to Kyungsoo’s shoulder as Kyungsoo soothingly rubs his back to make his cousin comfortable.

“Sorry Sehunniee.” Is the only thing Kyungsoo can say.

“You didn’t do anything bad to me. Why are you sorry?” Sehun holds his self up.

“I… I hope you won’t kill me this week.” Kyungsoo says sheepishly.

= = =

He stole my heart and never returned it to me, not like what he did to this bear panda. Sehun thinks as he pouts to the bear panda.

“Sehunnie darling, dinner’s ready!” his mother calls. He then puts the bear panda in the kitchen.

“Sehunnie, have you heard the good news??!” His mother says excitedly.

“What is it all about?” Sehun asks as he sits down the chair.

“Tao’s coming back!” his mother claps in excitement.

The glass of water slides off his grip as he hears the news. And it breaks.

He stole my heart and broke it. Just like what I did to this glass.. I’m sorry glass.

“Fuck robber.” For being so stupid, he’s so dumb. He gives me something he doesn’t even understand. He’s insane.

“Yah! Are you listening? Who’s this robber you want to fuck Sehunnie. But look, Tao is co--“

Someone barged in.. He wears a black mask, a weird black outfit. He steals things.

He is a robber.

“Hey hey!! You get out!” The robber shakes his head and grabs Sehun’s mother which caused both of them to scream.

“No no no! not my mom, robber! You can steal all the things here! But not my mom!! I-I’ll kill you! I’m a murderer!” Sehun warns the robber.

“M-m-murderer?” The robber asks.

“The robber told me!! A certain robber told me! I am a murderer! Yes!!! And now, I will go all the way to the kitchen and get a knife and kill you!!” He runs towards the kitchen and the robber runs after him.

“Knife knife! Knife!!” Sehun shouts as he grips one of their knives but the robber hits his hand.

“Ouch!!” He glares at the robber and then throws everything he touches. Even the cookies he baked for the client of his mother. And the robber seems to be upset that the cookies are thrown on the ground.

Cookies, “Fuck robber.” The robber cocks an eyebrow at Sehun in confusion.

“Yeah, you’ll never understand because you only steal away material things!!” Sehun chokes as his chest tightens, “But that robber stole my heart. He stole my heart!! Robber stole my heart and ripped it apart just like this!” Sehun then writes the Chinese symbols he’s memorized because of Tao.

“The robber taught me this. He taught me how to love me that’s why my heart.” Sehun rips the paper apart. “It’s ripped apart. And no one can kiss the pain away.”

The robber laughs but Sehun throws the panda to the robber.

“Yah! Because the robber said that he could kiss away the pain. But how?! No one can kiss the pain he left me!! Because my heart is on his hands!”

The robber takes the panda bear and goes towards Sehun. “He’s insane. Robber’s insane! Because he wrote these symbols to me even though he doesn’t know what it means. Fuck robber!” Sehun’s tears are falling down.

“I love you.” Sehun then looks at the robber just as the robber kisses the pain away, and hugs Sehun… “You’re a murderer.”
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Because Sehun just stabs the robber. Rips his chest apart and take his heart out.
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Sehun tries to push the robber but his hug just tightens.

“I heard Luhan-HYUNG shouted I love you and hugged you lovingly. It stabbed me to death you know. You killed my heart, murderer. You are my life, you took away my life. You’re bad.” The robber says as he takes away the weird outfit he wears.

“Tss.. because, I asked him what these stupid Chinese symbols mean!! Because you don’t know what it means! Stupid!” Sehun shouts at Tao.

“I’m sorry.. but I’m telling you, I really really didn’t know what it means before, but I know now.” Tao smiles sheepishly.

“Me too!! I’ve known it first before you knew!” Sehun throws that at Tao.

“But I felt it first before you realized it. And I always feel it whenever we’re together, just like now.” Tao admits.

And Sehun falls silent.. his cheeks turn into red ones that makes the robber, Tao chuckle which is music in Sehun’s ears.

“Really.. fuck you Robber.” Sehun says as he melts away because of the kiss.

“I love you too. Murderer.” Tao says.

“Ah! Before I forgot, I just want you to know… I’ll kill Kyungsoo hyung this weekend, wanna come??” Sehun says and Tao laughs.


Wo ai ni… Strange words
Love… Familiar Feelings

Notes

Guys! This is the first post of my story here in this site and I'm so excited with you reading it. Well, I posted this story in another site so some of you (maybe) have read it but I guess not because it's not that popular there ahahaha.

TaoHun is so cute. huhuhuhu.I love them huhuhu Kyeopta Kyeopta ;A;


So this is the first one for you! I hope you like it! Tell me about your feels okay? I'd glady read them. And welcome me here!! Haahha!

Thank you for reading. Sorry for the errors in this fic, I'll fix them later! Kamsaa!~