Star University

JiYong told me in the morning that he took MyungSoo home that night because I was busy running errands. I’d use today to spend looking after my pretty sister. I asked my maid BaekHee to buy me the biggest bunch of flowers – pink and white roses and tulips and loads of candles I gave her my credit card and she did not disappoint me. They were beautiful and I decided to light a few of the candles for my sister. I stayed in there most of the day, like I had done when mom was nearing the end of her life. JiYong, EunJi and SuJi came in all throughout the day offering me food, but I didn’t take any or at least I don’t remember eating anything. I stayed seated in her small pink armchair not moving or taking my eyes off her. I could feel myself wanting to move but I couldn’t I kept hoping and praying for her eyes to flicker open and smile, and I was doing anything I could to help. I read to her, I sang to her, I even drew some pictures and found my mother’s necklace and put it on her. I gently brushed her hair and before I knew it I had spent a whole day there and I was exhausted. I went to sleep in that little pink armchair that night.

I woke several times during the night, sometimes the sky outside was really dark black but as the night bowed into morning stars slowly disappeared and the yellowness of the sun started shining through the clouds. I kept waking up for no reason so I continued to try to get back to sleep. There were only two things on my mind, and they were MinHo and MinJi, I loved them both so much and I was feeling that MinHo risked his dream for no reason. The next day was the same, the candles were nearly all burnt out from the day before so I lit another couple of candles and re watered the roses and tulips. I brushed her hair and sang to her. I couldn’t remember the last thing I ate, but JiYong insisted that I at least drink something so he brought me up a glass of water. I smiled at my brother and my sisters as they entered and left, not saying much. I can’t remember what else happened that day, all I did was sing and read.
Although a lot of it was just hoping and praying. All the time. The walls of that room became so familiar that I had counted every speck of grey in the marble ceiling, twice.

The night was the same too, waking up several times. Going to sleep and waking up again. On the third day SuJi, HaYi and IU coxed me out of the room and my maid BaekHee fed me and watered me. I felt slightly refreshed so I decided to go back up to see my little sister, just in case she woke up. I needed her to wake up, and I wanted to be there when she did. I can’t remember speaking to my friends and siblings, but I had learned the whole of the Grimm Brothers Fairytales off by heart and I didn’t need the book anymore. The third day passed as the other two had, I did, however sleep a little better, even though I still woke up, but not as much as I had before. Fourth and fifth day, BaekHee bought my food up to me with plenty of water and I continued to read. I recalled my sister enjoying Hans Christian Andersen fairy tales so I found my book of them out and began to read them. Fairy tales always awed her like they awed me and I didn’t mind reading so much.

On the fifth day I had read both Grimm Brothers and Hans Christian Andersen stories all the way through as well as brushing her hair and cleaning her face gently. I sang as much as I could to her. I played her music when I couldn’t sing. Before I knew it I had not left the room an five days. I realised because I didn’t eat much or drink a lot I didn’t need to go to the toilet often, which resulted in not moving a lot or very little. So when JiYong came in with SeungHyun, Daesung, Seungri, YoungBae, SuJi, HaYi, IU, BaekHyun, Tao, Eli, Kris and a few others, one included MinHo I couldn’t move much at all. They gathered around me.

“JiEun, come to your senses, you barely eat, you don’t sleep or speak, you haven’t had a shower for ages, I’m worried about you. Everyone is.” My brother spoke and there was honesty in his words and I felt as if I was disappointing him.

“I’m sorry, but I have to be here when she wakes up, it’s going to be soon I can tell.” I reply.

“Unnie, you don’t have to do this, go and get a proper nights rest and wash eat and drink, we will all look after MinJi, you don’t need to take all the responsibility.” EunJi says, she was only seven but she spoke true I really did need to do what she had told me but I couldn’t. “JiEun, I can’t lose both of my sisters.” EunJi finished before hugging me and walking out she was followed by BaekHyun and SuJi. IU and HaYi told me to look after myself as well and that they couldn’t watch me harm myself because of it and I was left with just Big Bang.

“JiEun, can you move properly?” My brother asks calmly and proves what a leader should be like.

“I’m not sure. I haven’t tried in a while.” I reply it was true I didn’t know how to I was shaking as I tried to stand up. Before I could successfully do it YoungBae sat me down.

“Hey, I’ve got an idea,” YoungBae began and the rest of Big Bang listened “SeungHyun hyung go and run her a warm, nearly hot bath, JiYong hyung get her one of my old t-shirts and Seungri and Daesung can you go and get the maid and ask her what special bath things we have and get her a change of clothes for after. I’ll carry her into the bathroom and help her get dressed and put her in the bath with my t-shirt on, I’ll wash her hair, I did it for my mom I know how to do it all without seeing anything, the nurse helped me occasionally and I practice.”

“Okay, I don’t think she would let anyone else do this for her anyway.” JiYong stated.

“Oppa,” I called out to JiYong as he was the only one left in the room before he got YoungBae’s clothes for me. “Thanks, can you ask YoungBae to take me down stairs after, and assist Seungri and Daesung with my clothes, they don’t have your fashion sense.”

“Okay,” he laughed and walked out as YoungBae walked back in.

“JiEun, will you let me do this for you?” he asks calmly as he kneels beside me.

“Yes, of course I will, thank you, I’m sorry I am causing you so much trouble again- I always cause you trouble.” I tell him and mumbles the last part but he just smiles at me.

“It is not any trouble,” he says sweetly “I would gladly do anything for you and your family.
Just make it a bit easier for me,” he holds out his arms and scoops me up I am able to put my arms around his neck to balance out my weight. “You are so light, you need to eat more.” SeungHyun opened the door to the ensuite in my bedroom and I thanked him as did YoungBae.

“Okay, this is the tricky bit, I am going to have to have you cooperate with me a bit on this. I haven’t done it for a long time.”

“What do you have to do first?” I ask him calmly, I just wanted to be okay again I didn’t care what happened.

“I have to take your top half of clothing off and put this on, it would be easier if your t-shirt was off before I put this over you, but I can do it the other way although it is a bit trickier.” He said.

“Dong YoungBae, I trust you, do whatever is easier for you.”

“Are you sure?” He asks I nod, I really cannot move my legs are stiff and my arms are like jelly so I can’t work out how much I have to move but I trusted YoungBae as much as I trusted my sisters, my mother, JiYong. I trusted YoungBae almost more than anyone. He proceeded to take my t-shirt off, it was easy enough to do, it was quite baggy and light, I felt weird this happening to me and I was still capable of emotions so it didn’t stop me from turning red as he saw me half naked for the first time. After he took my t-shirt off he put his over me I couldn’t help but notice how it smelt of him and all of a sudden he put his hands underneath the t-shirt and was able to unclip my bra and take it off without looking or touching anything. I was amazed and I kept turning red. “Are you okay, JiEun, just let me know if you are uncomfortable?” He said as he notices my checks blush a pale shade of pink, sort of the same colour of my bedroom only a little brighter.

“No, I’m fine, just do whatever you have to do, please.” I beg he begins to take off my socks and my sweatpants off. I feel slightly uncomfortable as he sees the bruises at the top of my knees that still had not heeled from practicing so much. He puts a pair of his old gym shorts on me and proceeded to take off my underwear again without looking or touching. He picks me up and puts me in the nice warm bubble bath. YoungBae sits by the side of the bath next to me for a while, we sit in silence before he stands up and disappears into my bedroom and when he enters, his new album is playing on my record player and it’s a nice and slow album, I’ve listened to it a few times before and I really enjoyed it. I smile at the bubbles that had formed a small cluster around my knees. “YoungBae oppa, can you wash my hair for me?” I ask him “I can’t move my arms just yet, what is happening to me, I feel like I am a baby.”

“Of course I can. Don’t worry you just haven’t moved for a long time that your body isn’t used to it you just need to start off slowly.” Just then the bathroom door was knocked three times and JiYong’s voice was heard.

“Can I come in?” I nod in response so YoungBae translates for me and he walks in. “Here are your clothes for after, me and BaekHee have prepared you some food, both of you, and so after you have got dressed, will you carry her down hyung?” He says as he picks the old clothes up off the floor.

“Of course hyung, anything else?” YoungBae asks as he stands up and finds some sort of plastic cup.

“Urm no, just how are you going to get this on her?” JiYong asks.

“Oh don’t worry JiYong oppa,” I begin, “It is not the first time he has seen me naked before.” I joke and the look on my brother’s face is priceless and YoungBae is shocked and taps my head.

“Ah, hyung don’t listen to JiEun, she isn’t feeling good. She doesn’t know what she is saying.” He says trying to cover up.

“You wait until I have finished getting this family better.” I see him wink at me and then I realise he knows that I am joking, we have a brother/sister telepathy it is really cool. My brother leaves so YoungBae shampoos and conditions my hair, it is like he knows more about this then I do. After he finishes he picks me up out of the bath even though I am soaking wet, he grabs me a towel and puts it over me and carries me out into my bedroom where he puts me in my small white leather armchair. He tells me to hold the towel around me while he takes the wet t-shirt off and places it on the floor on another towel. I keep hold of it as he takes the shorts off me and places them with the shirt and wraps them up in the towel just like he did to me. Now without the towel, I really am naked. He grabs me the pair of clean sweatpants and puts them on underneath the towel, again without looking or touching me. He does the same with the t-shirt. I feel slightly normal again, so I stand up and hold on to his shoulders, he picks up the towels and places them at the washing pile and leads me to the dressing table where he turns on the hairdryer and begins to dry my hair. Soon I was all dry and feeling refreshed and half normal again. I told YoungBae I could stand again but he didn’t let me just yet so he carried me downstairs and placed me in the dining room at the table and sat next to me. I tried to use chopsticks to eat with but I couldn’t grasp them properly, he handed me a fork, but it was still awkward and I felt like I was playing up a bit too much but I really wasn’t I legitimately couldn’t move my fingers or legs as well as I used to be able too.

In the end YoungBae fed me. We ate in turns slowly and in silence it was really nice and I felt so comfortable with him and it was not awkward, after we ate he carried me up stairs and put me in my bed and tucked me in and stayed with me until I feel asleep.

When I woke in the morning, I was fine almost perfectly fine. I could walk, my hands could move and held everything properly so I got dressed properly and I was feeling better. I got ready and knocked on YoungBae’s door and he opened it and I was just so happy that I hugged him. “Thank you, thank you so much.” He didn’t say anything in return. I left him and went to see how EunJi was. She was happy to see me and we both went to see MinJi, SuJi was already in there watching her. I didn’t realise how bad I was before and I wasn’t going to get that way again. I said thanks to SuJi and left EunJi with her. I knocked on JiYongs door and he hugged me and told me to go and get breakfast ready as he was coming down in a minute, before he left back into the room. I told him I wanted to talk a bit later on.

Which is what we did, after breakfast. BaekHyun joined and looked after EunJi and MinJi, SuJi went home to her adoptive parents and YoungBae and the rest of Big Bang went down to the dorms to see how everything was going. There was only me and JiYong left in the house, apart from the maids and my dad, but they were all busy. BaekHyun stayed in MinJi’s room with her and EunJi, Chen and ChanYeol arrived a bit later on. So I took this chance to talk to my brother.

“JiYong, I need to talk to you about MinHo.” I say hoping he would just understand everything and I wouldn’t have to explain that I was falling in love with him, but he didn’t.

“Oh yeah, he was so brave wasn’t he? I can’t believe he would do that for us, he must really like you a lot.” Stupid brother why couldn’t he just read my mind like he normally does.

“I like him too,” I say.

“I know I wasn’t keen on him at first but he is really nice and everything now so I accept him now and who wouldn’t like him after he did all this for us?”

“No, no, no, I mean I really like him. I really really like him.” I tell him.

“Oh.” My brother pauses and I feel bad because although YoungBae is there for me 24/7 I just couldn’t help how much I actually liked MinHo. “It’s okay JiEun, you can like whoever you want, as long as they are nice people, Choi MinHo is obviously nice.” That’s one of the reasons I liked talking to my brother and wasn’t scared of telling him things, he always gave me acceptable advice and wasn’t harsh. I hugged him and went to join EunJi and the EXO boys who looked like they were having more fun than EunJi was playing with her toy dolls dressing them up and pretending they were members of Girl’s Generation.

I tell them they could stay and get some food and after we would walk the home at least half way as it was getting late and they didn’t need to stick around and then they said goodbye and me and EunJi walked back,

I sat down in the pink armchair and sighed. I waited a couple of minutes with EunJi and decided to clean the dolls away.

Just then I heard a small voice, one that did not belong to EunJi, or any man or boy. It belonged to a small weak girl who had just had her life saved by a mysterious human. It was MinJi, she had opened her eyes. She was calling for me “JiEun-ah.” She says. “EunJi-ah”

“MinJi. Gwenchanha?” I ask.

“Where am I?” she replies?

Notes

- As a friend pointed out in the comments, there are a lot of inaccuracies with the medical things, and the love triangle is confusing, I have already re-editted the whole story so it makes sense, I just can't be bothered to reupload them back on here, because people wont re-read everything. - I may upload somewhere else in the future??!!!