~Kyuhyun~

“Kyu… I want you to fuck me.” Did Teuki just really say that?

I look up at his face and I can see he’s serious and extremely nervous. We’ve never even discussed me topping before. I really enjoy bottoming for my leader and he’s always seemed happy with what we have. I wonder what has brought this on? I know that I’ve fantasized about it while he’s been gone, but I’d never have brought it up because just getting to be with him is enough for me. I love him.

I look at him again as the silence between us is becoming strained. He’s waiting for me to say something and I’m clueless what to say. I’m just not sure. I trust him and if he wants to we can try but I am scared it’ll change what we have.

He turns and looks at the wall. He’s biting his lip so hard I’m afraid it’s going to bleed, I’d hate for him to get hurt because of my inability to express myself.

I reach up my hand and cup his cheek, rubbing my thumb along that lip getting him to stop biting it. His eyes snap to mine looking for an answer; I give him the only one I have.

“Saranghae, JeongSu-ah.”

He looks confused but a small smile is on his face. “Me too.”

He stares at me awhile longer, as if my face will give him the answers he seeks. “That’s really all you’ve got to say on the subject?” He asks with a touch of disbelief.

“I could ask you why, but that’s the important part. I love you no matter what. If we end up with me topping you or not, I love you and I trust you.” I can feel my smile spreading to my eyes, I really do love this crazy man.

He smiles back at me.

“But I really do want to know what has brought this on? Why? Why now?”

“It’s because I love you too.” He sighs and cuddles down next to me. “There’s so much to this I don’t know how to explain it all to you without it sounding disjointed and confusing.”

I squeeze him in close and kiss his forehead to give him comfort. I feel like our roles are reversed.

“Just start talking and let me worry about making sense of it all. I just want to know your thoughts on this before I make my decision.”

“Okay.” He leans up and pecks my jaw. “I want us to be together in every way. You are my love and I want us to go forward on an equal footing. I feel as if the balance is uneven with me being the only one to top in our relationship.”

I could see where that might be true, not that I completely agree, but he makes a point.
“Keep going. I know there’s more” I encourage him.

“I am the leader of our group,” he states. “I am always the one in charge, to whom you and the others look for guidance and support. I would like to be able to let that go on occasion. I’d like to be able give up that role, at least in bed to you. Let you be in charge and tell me what to do. You’d be my place of refuge.”

Damn. With arguments like this I’m going to give him, and fast. How can I be his partner in life if he can’t share his burden with me or at least be able to give it up for awhile in my presence? Double damn.

“And mostly because I really want to feel your thick cock riding my ass.” I look down and see a huge smile on his face.

“ We’ve done everything else to each other. I know what your fingers and even your tongue feel like inside of me. I’ve also had some seriously embarrassing dreams about that thick meat of yours riding me while I was away.” His face looks embarrassed now. “Of you bending me over the couch arm and ramming it home. Of you pinning me down on the bed, holding my legs up; as you get me ready by rimming my pucker before you stuff your…”

“Naega halkke!” I yell, interrupting him. He looks up at me shock written across his face.

“I’ll do it.” I say again at a more normal volume. I look into my lover’s eyes… How was I ever to resist?

“Don’t look so shocked.” I tell him. “ My boyfriend is telling me he needs this for him to feel balance in our personal relationship. That by doing this I will be able to give him rest and relief from pressures from work, of which I’m a part.” I sigh. “Then you go painting these very vivid pictures of every which way I can get my dick into your ass and telling me how much you really just want to feel me in you.” I look at him exasperated.

“Do I look made of stone to you?” I ask him. He looks down at the tent I’m making of the sheet. “Not there you weird-o.” I sigh again. “I mean, how’s a guy supposed to say no to that? Not to mention I’ve thought about it too. I just wasn’t sure if you and I really wanted or needed to go there. But you say you want me… And hey, it’s sex, count me in!”

~Leeteuk (Jeong-su)~

I look into his eyes to see if he really means it. Kyu is looking up at me with a predatory look in his eyes I’ve never seen before. I’m starting to wonder just what I’ve started. But I think it’s going to be a hundred times better than I ever imagined.

“I just hope you’re ready for this ‘bossy streak’ you’ve been commenting on to show up more often if we do this.” He says once more with his sardonic voice while making air quotes with his fingers.

The little shit… This is going to be so much fun.

I lean in to nibble the earlobe. “Please Kyu, fuck me.” I whisper.

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