~I Can't Love Him~

~Mark's POV~
I felt so heart broken to see Bora crying so much. She could have even cried a damn ocean. By the time the ambulance finally came, it seemed like her appa was...was...was already gone.

'Please Bora, can't you stop your tears now? It hurts my heart to see you like this. Wait, why does it hurt me? Why does it feel like my heart is being stabbed right now, just seeing Bora cry?'

We both sat in front of the emergency room. Waiting for like ever. Bora was still crying her eyes out. So all I did was just hold her in my embrace. The more her tears got louder, the more I held onto her tighter.

"Bora, gwaenchana. Your...your appa will be alright." I patted her back softly.

After like 5 hours, the doctor finally came out. Bora bolted up and ran to the doctor as if she was a cheetah running after it's prey.

"Is...is he alright?" She looked at him with red, puffy eyes. Little tears were now streaming down her face still.

'She has so much tears, like seriously.'

The doctor hanged his head ashamed of himself.

"Mianhamnida, but your father is now in a better place." The doctor gently put his hand on Bora's shoulder. Bora was just frozen right there in the spot. She couldn't believe what the doctor just said.

~Your POV~
As soon as you saw the door fly open, you bolted up and ran to him as fast as you can.

"Is...is he alright?" You asked in a dead worried tone. the doctor even looked lifeless. Like he has given up everything. He hanged his head, like he was ashamed of himself (or something like that).

"Mianhamnida, but your father is now in a better place." The doctor put his hand (gently) on your shoulder. Your eyes were wide and you couldn't say any words. More tears started streaming down your face.

'Andwae. Andwae. Andwae!!! Appa, he...he can't leave me. I...I have no one left.'

"Jehbahl, jehbahl. Help him. I know that he is still alive. He has to be. He can't leave me all by myself. Jehbahl! Help him. I'll do everything, anything." You were shaking the doctor crazily just so that he can go back into the room and try to help your appa.

"I can't! He's...he's already gone. He lost way too much blood and now his soul has left. Mianhamnida Ms. Yoon, but he's gone. You have to accept it." The doctor gave you a weak smile and left without any other words. You felt your legs get weaker, so then you fell onto the floor.

"Bora!" You heard Mark yell out. You barely could even turn to look at him.

He quickly kneel down next to you. He cupped your face with his big, warm hands. You looked at him with tears. You still couldn't say anything. You just still couldn't believe that he left.

"A...ap...appa." Mark quickly pulled you into his embrace. His arms hugged you tightly, letting you know that he was here to comfort you all the way.

"Gwaenchana, I'll be here. Cry it all out. I'll comfort you." Mark gently patted your back. You just hug him back and continue crying. "Sh, I know. It's going to be alright. At least we know that your appa left with a happy life. Having you in his life. He probably was the happiest father on earth."

'But...but why did he have to leave? Why!? There is no one left now. I have no one left.'

You answered Mark back in your head. You couldn't even say a word because you couldn't even breathe. You were crying way too much.

"Probably he'll be happier when he's in heaven. He's with your omma now right? He will be watching you from above. He will protect you and comfort you from above. Even though you don't have him around, he will always be in your heart. He will always be remembered and never forgotten." You started calming down a bit, from hearing those comforting words. You couldn't believe that Mark actually made you calm down. Hearing those words, just touched your heart.

You slowly stop hugging Mark and look up at him. To see a weak (however warm) smile. You felt his soft thumb on your cheeks. He was wiping away your tears.

"No more tears. Do you know that your appa would hate to leave now if your still crying. He wants to leave with a beautiful smile of yours." Mark looked at you for a answer.

You slowly nod your head with a small smile. He then smile bigger and pull you back into his embrace.

'Mark, please don't leave me by myself.'

You both were walking back to your house. Well Mark insist on giving you a piggy back ride. He never whined, but when he does. He just wants to break the silence.

On the whole way back, you never even spoke a word. All you do is listen to whatever Mark says.

When you reached your house, Mark left to his house since you said that you wanted to be alone.

You took one step into the house and got chills right away. The cold wind blew threw your hair. You let out a sigh and took another step inside. You slowly looked around at the emptiness.

Something was missing, someone was missing. Whenever you came home, there would always be that happy atmosphere. But now it was gone. You just stood there looking around, remembering about your appa singing happily. Laughing, playing, and yelling out your nickname.

Just thinking about those moments of your appa, tears started appearing again. You slowly walked closer to the living room. After a glance, you remembered the movie nights that the two of you would always have.

You walked over to the kitchen, to remember your appa smiling happily after eating your food. Every step in the house, was every single tear dropped.

As you slowly walked closer to your parent's room. You remembered your appa linking arms with you as you walked down the stairs. Laughing and telling you to make sure you do good in school.

You grabbed the door knob with a shaky hand. You creaked open the door and saw how everything was the same. Never once, your appa broke anything in his room. Only downstairs. You took your slow steps into his room and could still smell your appa's scent.

He was always a clean guy, never ever did he stink. Usually you didn't know that when he was sad or when he broke something when you weren't here. He would immediately clean his mess. Or just clean because of depression.

You slowly dragged your fingers across his desk. Feeling the soft wood. You slowly took steps to the bed. You slowly sank yourself onto the bed and felt how comfortable how it felt. You let out a small smile reminding yourself how both you guys playing with his toys on the bed.

"Appa." A tear dropped onto his bed. "Wae? Did you really have to leave? Leave me all alone in this house. With no one to help comfort me. Wae appa? Wae?" You slowly lay yourself on the bed and let out more tears.

***Next Day***

You slowly woke up from the sun shining down onto your face. Your eyes were swollen and red. You slowly got dressed and quickly put on make up to help cover your face.

You took slow steps down the stairs and looked around for a bit.

"Appa, I'm going now. Annyeong!" You yelled out into midair. Remembering how your appa would always wave and say his goodbye before you left. You smiled to yourself and wiped away your last tears before walking outside.

Today, you walked by yourself. Because Xiumin was probably tired from practicing all night. Since they are going to leave pretty soon for their showcase in China.

You walked to school with ear buds in ignoring the death glares that girls were giving and the squeals that guys were doing. You kept on walking until a girl tripped you. Making you hug the floor.

You quickly stood up and looked to see only Gyuri staring at you like she was going to kill you any second now. You took off your ear buds and looked at her. Tension started building up.

"What do you want?" You were starting to be impatient. Because all she was doing was just staring at you.

"I want you to go on your knees and apologies." She smirked.

"Ha, that's funny." You laughed sarcastically. She then scoffs and pushes you to the wall. Making your back hit the hard cold wall.

"You little bitch. You have no idea what I'm capable of." Gyuri growled.

"Why don't you try. I wanted to die long time ago. Because of your fucking bullying, it's fucking making my life even worst." You growled back.

"Ya, it's a good thing. For a poor ugly looking girl like you is actually talking to me." She scoffed. You just roll your eyes and ignore her.

"Bballiwa! Get on your fucking knees!" One of Gyuri's followers yelled. You just scoff and ignore them.

"Ya!" Another girl yells in your face. You just push them and walk away. To get something hard thrown at your head. You fell onto the floor and heard footsteps running towards you. Your vision was blurry for a bit until you heard someone screaming your name.

"Bora!!! Yoon Bora!!!" You heard Xiumin's voice. You slowly open your eyes and see Xiumin and exo staring at you worried.

"Gwaenchana noona?" Sehun asked you as he helped you up with Xiumin.

"Ya, does your head hurt a lot?" Chanyeol asked in a worried tone.

"We should take her to the nurses office." Kris said while looking at Xiumin.

"Let's go?" Xiumin looked at you. You just shake your head.

"Ani, gwaenchana. I...I don't want to go." Tears started rolling down your face. Just thinking about the nurses office is like the hospital. Where your appa officially left you.

"What's wrong? Why...Why are you crying?" D.O looked at you more worried with his big round eyes.

"Xiu...Xiumin-ah." You hanged your head.

"Mwuh? Did something happen at home or to your appa?" Xiumin lifted up your head. Right after Xiumin mentioned your appa. You broke out. You cried out loud.

Xiumin on the other hand freaked out and pulled you into his embrace.

"Noona, what...what happened?" Kai asked while patting your back lightly. You then pull away from Xiumin's embrace. You shake your head and wipe away your tears.

You then saw Mark walking your way with the rest of Got7. Exo moved to the side a bit for them to pass. However Mark stopped and looked at you worried.

"I thought I told you that he would hate it to see your tears." Mark smiled while cupping your face. Everyone was shocked and confused. You just nod and move his hands away.

"Noona, want to walk with us?" BamBam linked arms with you.

"Wait, Bora. What is Mark talking about? Who will hate seeing you cry?" Xiumin made you look at him. You just couldn't say it, because if you did. You would break down and cry even more.

"Should I tell him?" Mark looked at you. You suggested him to tell Xiumin instead because you couldn't.

"Tell me what? Bora tell me right now!?" Xiumin raised his voice.

"Bora, what happened?" Chen said in a serious, yet worried tone.

"Well-" Mark got cut off from Kris.

"We never asked you Mark. Just go to your class." Kris said while glaring at him. However you let out a sigh and nod your head towards Mark. To tell him to leave. He just nods and pats your head lightly.

He then leans closer to you a bit.

"No more crying, araseyo? He then is going to start to cry when he sees your tear once more. Remember to always show off that smile to the sky." Mark wink, smiled and patted your head lightly. "Annyeong."

"Bora, what was that about? Are you two dating?" Xiumin asked you in a worried and curious tone.

"Ani, he...he just comforted me when I was down." You weakly smiled. "I got to go to class right now. Annyeong." You smiled wider and walked to your classroom.

"Ya, noona! You didn't even tell us what was wrong!?" Lay yelled out. You didn't even answer Lay back, you just kept on walking.

Every single of your classes you ignored the teacher. Exo and Got7 was always trying to make you happier.

It was finally dance class and you walked to see who you should sit with. Got7 or Exo. Since you always been avoiding Got7 because of Mark, you decided to sit with them.

"Oh, noona you're going to sit with us this time?" Jr. asked all curious and happy.

"Mm, because I always been sitting with Exo. So today is with Got7." You smiled. Even though you smiled, it was a sad smile.

"Feeling better?" JB asked you worriedly.

"Mm. Gwaenchana." You smiled and pushed him playfully.

"So...how are you and hyung's dance going?" Jackson asked while giving a little tease.

"Good, why?" You raised an eyebrow when you notice the little tease.

"Nothing." Jackson teasingly smiled. You just look at him confused and then pay attention to the teacher.

"Ok, everyone!!! You all know that the project or whatever the thing was called. Forgot what it was called. But anyways I hope you guys put a lot of effort in it, which I mean that all you guys put all your damn hearts in this dance. Because it's a really big grade. So please work hard until your sweating like hell. Well, yeah you all know what I mean. Just get to it. I'll stop my talking and start annoying you guys. HWAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Mr. Kang yelled out happily.

"How can he be so happy all the time? Like does nothing sad ever happen in his life?" You mumbled to yourself.

"Do you want to practice today?" Mark asked you while looking through his phone.

"Can I not today?" You asked while sitting next to him.

"Araseyo, since we practice harder then the others. Guess we can just chill today." Mark said without even looking at you. After all your classes ended, you were still the same. Talking to no one, always having on a poker face. Even though in the inside you were still dying. Thinking how you are going to live now.

***End of School***

"Bora!" You looked up where the voice was calling only to catch Bomi waving her hand towards you.

"Oh, Bomi!" You waved back at her. She quickly came and hugged you tightly.

"I've heard. Is something bothering you. Jr. told me that you were all sad the whole day." Bomi pouted.

"Gwaenchana. I'm a lot better now. I guess." You mumbled the last two words.

"What did you mumble?" Bomi raised an eyebrow.

"Nothing, don't worry. Well, I better leave. Annyeong." You waved to her and left. You walked all the way to not notice that someone was following you. You were too occupied on what you were going to do now. If you don't have enough money to pay for the house.

And what if you lost the house, where would you go live? You kept on walking until you heard someone else's steps. You started picking up your pace. However then you heard the footsteps getting closer too.

You just kept on walking faster and faster. Until you finally reached your house. You quickly grabbed a broom that was outside for some reason.

Right when you grabbed the broom, the person grabbed your arm. Your eyes widen quickly.

Notes

Omo! Who is the person? Is it a guy or a girl!!! Please comment below what you guys think who it is!