Stars

I always seem to be busy on the weekends. One week it’s a date with Leo, the next it a relative party, next would be another date with Leo, then a day out with some friends. One weekend, Luhan asked to go out again, to settle our score.

I reached the cinema with Luhan. “I heard this movie is really, really, really, really scary!” he laughs. “Yep, and I’ll be getting that lunch for a month.” I teased.

We exited the movie theater breathless. Luhan was right, it was really, really, really, really scary. Luhan and I were so close to tears, yep, it was that scary. In the end, Luhan was the one who lost. I would tease him endlessly about it the whole bus ride home. “OK I get it.” He pouted. “I owe you homemade lunch for a month.”

The first lunch he gave me was an unbelievably delicious Korean lunchbox. “It was Yixing who made it.” Luhan admitted with a cheeky smile. “Tell him I love his cooking!” I said happily while shoving more food in my mouth.
“So are you dating Leo?” Luhan asked out of nowhere.
I almost chocked on my food. “No.” I said.
“Oh…” he said slowly.
“But I like him.” The words fell out of my mouth. I had absolutely no control of them.
Luhan looked at me with shocked and sad eyes. He looked hurt and pained. But his lips formed into a small smile.
“Well I’m happy for you. You and Leo would make a nice couple.” He said.
“Really? You think so?” I said a bit too excitedly. “Thanks Luhan. You’re an awesome friend.” I wrapped my arms around him and held him in a friendly hug. Luhan groaned and pushed me away. He stood up in front of me. “Melinda! I really really like you. I know that you probably like Leo but I just have to speak my feelings. My feelings for you have churned inside me ever since you started dating Sehun and I thought I was being selfless for not saying anything but really I was just being selfish to myself. I need to say something. I can’t hide my feelings for you anymore! I don’t like being stuck in the friendzone. I like being your friend, I really do, but I can’t stand it when you say it so easily. Please accept my feelings!” His eyes widened with shock and his hand covered his mouth. He looked away and ran off. What just happened? Had…had Luhan just confessed his feelings towards me? I felt heat rise to my cheeks. Not because I was embarrassed, or flattered, I was angry. How could he say those things when we’re such close friends? How could he say he liked he when he knows that I like Leo? Oh, he just made me so angry.

What was I going to do? Everything made me feel dizzy. Sehun, Hyuk, Leo and now Luhan? How was I going to cope with everything? Sehun still likes me, I think I still like Hyuk, I definitely like Leo but not sure if he likes me back, and now Luhan likes me? Why? Am I really that worthy for all this? What was so good about me?

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