They met at a work party. It was lively, alcohol was involved and feelings that neither of them needed at the time were formed.
Kris was desperate and Joonmyun was just.. There.

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There was nothing in Joonmyun's body that wouldn't comply with the touches of the beautiful, handsome and tall man in front of him. His long, soft finger tips running all over Joonmyun's body was enough to make him want more than he should have gotten. The moans that the younger and shorter male let out riled Kris up and it was that one, small whimper that got Kris' blood gushing with excitement, "K-Kris-" was all Joonmyun could say. Over and over and over he would try to speak, only to be stopped by the wonderful and sensual kisses Kris placed all over Joonmyun's lips, neck, chest and thighs. It was when Kris finally took away Joonmyun's virginity when he realized he felt more for his co-worker, and his mind started to wonder whether Joonmyun felt exactly the same way. He blocked all those types of thoughts out, though. Joonmyun is just a toy.


They moaned, groaned, thrusted, fought for dominance. It was slow and passionate with a little desperateness in between. Kris' slow and passionate thrusts were what made Joonmyun's body shake under the man's masculinity, the sweat coming from the latter's body making it easier for their bodies to slide together.
"That.. That was the most beautiful pain I've ever felt.."
"I'm glad you liked it, Joonmyun.."
"You cheated.."
Kris nodded slowly, replying with a small, "I know.. I know.."


The next morning Kris' guilty conscious grew worse with every glimpse of his boyfriend. He didn't mean to cheat but his boyfriend just.. Didn't satisfy. What a gloomy morning it was. However the guilt never stopped him from going back for more.. And more.. And more.. Having passionate and beautiful sex with Joonmyun by day, and sleeping with a guilty conscious, his back facing his boyfriend by night. It was wrong, he knew. But Joonmyun's touch was all too addicting. His moans where music to his libido and his soft, pale skin was like silk to his darker skin..


Month after month, Joonmyun was there, satisfying Kris everyday as his relationship with his boyfriend continued to fall. Kris had lost all feeling for his own boyfriend by now.. But he didn't love Joonmyun for Joonmyun. Oh, no no. He loved Joonmyun for the sex. He loved Joonmyun for nothing but pure pleasure.


It was September 22nd. The day Kris began playing with his sex toy three years ago. Joonmyun knew that he was nothing but a toy to Kris. He didn't love Kris but it still hurt to know that after three years of sex everyday, Kris still hasn't told his boyfriend.
"When.. When will you tell him, Kris?" he'd ask every day after Kris would finish with him.
"Soon.." Kris would always reply, though he'd eat his words every time the next day came and he was craving Joonmyun's touch.


"I'm going, tomorrow.." Joonmyun said after their long, extremely tiresome session.
"Oh.." was all Kris said until he decided to speak some more, "Where to?"
"Europe.."
Kris nodded slowly, "For how long?"
Joonmyun looked up at Kris. He told himself he didn't love him but deep down, somewhere between all the kisses and fake 'I love you's, Joonmyun had fallen and fallen hard and dangerously, "For.. Forever.."
Kris nodded slowly, "Good luck for the rest of your life, Joonmyun.. Take care.. Will this be our last time?"
"Our very last.."
"Will you keep in contact?"
Joonmyun paused for a while before an answer finally left his lips, "Of course.."
Kris knew that was a lie but he didn't want to think about that, right now, "I should get going.."
"Come see me off tomorrow, yeah?"
Kris stood up and gathered his clothes, getting dressed and nodding, "If that's what you want."
Joonmyun stayed silent and watched Kris leave the apartment. He looked around. His boxes were packed and the movers were coming early morning to help ship his belongings over to Europe. This was it. Joonmyun was finally letting go of Kris, Seoul, his job. He was finally venturing out on his own, and hopefully finding a person who loved him for him. The night was restless for Joonmyun. Kris, on the other hand, slept perfectly with his boyfriend entangled in his arms.


"Bye, Kris.."
"Bye."
"C-Can I get a hug?"
Kris hesitated for a moment before sighing and quickly hugging Joonmyun, "Take care."
"I will.. You too."
"I told him.."
Joonmyun gulped, "How'd be.. How'd he t-take it?"
"He's moved out - He is now living in a motel."
The announcing bell rang and the passengers of the European Airline were called to their flight. Joonmyun gulped, looking up at Kris, "This is it.."
"It is.."
"Bye, Kris.."
"Bye."


Kris stood there for a while, refraining himself from chasing after Joonmyun. Refraining himself from asking him to stay. He didn't know why but he refrained. The only thing he did was call out, "I LOVE YOU KIM JOONMYUN!"


Joonmyun broke into tears as he heard Kris' voice from across the other side. That's all he wanted to hear but it was too late. He was at the front of the line, watching his ticket being checked. He looked over the tall crowd once more to see if he could see Kris, but he couldn't. He gulped, yelling as loud as he could, "I.. I LOVE YOU TOO, WU YIFAN!"


Kris didn't hear. He was already in the parking lot; going through all the great times he had everyday with Joonmyun. The times he wouldn't be able to have anymore, "H-He'll come back.. I know he loves me, too.."


Little did Kris know that Joonmyun was being serious when he said that he'd go forever.
Little did Kris know that he'd start a family there in Europe with someone who loved him how Kris should have.
Goddamnit, Kris. Why? Why'd you do that to him? Why did you let him go when the feelings were obviously there?


"Kris.. I still love you, you know. I started a family but those lingering feelings whenever I'd see old pictures of us at work hurt me.
I'm Kim Joonmyun, and.. I hope heaven treats you well, Kris.."
Everyone clapped as the 72 year old Joonmyun walked back into the crowd of mourners. He watched Kris' body being lowered into the ground, and he knew that it was soon his time to go, too. He was getting old. In his will, he requested to be buried next to Wu Yifan.



And yes, he was laid there - Right next to Kris when his time came to leave this world.

Notes

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