An Accident That Changed Your Whole Life

~Author's P.O.V~

~Fast Forward~

Three months has past and you became closer to the members, however a bit still awkward with Himchan. On your free times, you would hang out with them and play games with them. You would even go to their concerts, getting backstage cards from your favorite dongsaeng Junhong (or Zelo).

***

~Your P.O.V~

Today B.A.P was appearing on Inkigayo with other famous idols. And I decided to go see them live instead on the TV. I watched from B.A.P's room because I didn't want to go deaf from their hardcore fans non-stop screaming.

Once the show was done, it was time to pick the winner. B.A.P, along with Ailee and BTOB were chosen as the last three. All three numbers were rising and I clasp my hands together hoping that B.A.P will be winning. Mostly because of my younger brother being in that group but still.

I bit my lips nervously as I saw Ailee's number stop and just the two boy groups still rising.

"Come on B.A.P You got this." I whispered to myself.

The numbers stopped. Everyone's breathing became heavy. My eyes shot wide open.

"And the winners are... B.A.P!!!!!~" The MC shouted out happily.

"Congrats B.A.P!" Another MC spoke.

"Ah~ Gamsahabnida. Gamsahabnida. Gamsahabnida!~" The leader, Yongguk kept repeating happily.

***

"Noona!~" Zelo leaped at me and threw his long arms around my petite frame squeezing me tight.

"Can't b-breathe." I muttered.

"Oh mian." Zelo sheepishly smile at me.

"Congrats!~ I'm so proud of you!!!~" I then threw your arms around my tall dongsaeng, hugging him tightly.

"What about me?~" A voice then said behind me. I let go of Zelo and look behind me to see Jongup making a pouting face.

"You too!~ Congrats on your win!!!~" I hugged Jongup tightly, good thing he was shorter so it was a bit easier for me to hug him. "Why don't we go celebrate!" I then said once I pulled away from Jongup.

"Let's go then!!!~" Daehyun shouted happily swinging an arm around my shoulders. I don't really mind the boys skinship anymore. At first, I did because we were still awkward. However, now their like family.

Everyone quickly went and packed their things and told (well more like yelled since we were so far away) to their manager that their going to celebrate their win at my place. Didn't really think this through, now I'm going to do a lot of cleaning once it's over.

While we all were walking out of the building, someone's hand came in contact with my arm and pulled me away from the group. I stumble on a few steps however caught myself quickly. I stood up straight and looked towards the intruder.

"What do you want?" I said in a annoyed tone.

"Why do you keep ignoring me?" Himchan looked at you with sad eyes. You stared at his eyes for a few seconds before looking away quickly. "I thought you still loved me too? ....Or was I wrong?" Himchan cupped my cheek into his large hand.

We both stood there staring in each other's eyes. He apologized again however yet I didn't respond. I felt like bursting into tears so bad right now. However I bit my lower lip hard, holding back the tears.

"I'm sorry but I have someone else." I softly spoke staring straight at my feet.

"Is he one of the members?" Himchan softly asked, hurt mixing in with his already depress voice. "Who-" Himchan was cut off from Yongguk's voice.

~3 Months Ago~

Yongguk came into my room while I was sitting at our window. Small hot tears slowly dripping down my face. I was spaced out until someone cleared their throat. Quickly wiping away the tears I turned to see Yongguk standing there.

"Seems like you've been ignoring Himchan." Yongguk smiles and walks over to me staring straight outside. Not even a single glance.

"W-What do you mean?" I softly mumbled while looking at my hands resting on my lap.

"Himchan told me you guys dated 3 years ago." Yongguk finally looks at me. I slowly looked up and met his gaze. Silence slowly walked in and the next thing that happened left me breathless.

Yongguk leaned down and kissed me. KISSED ME! He slowly pulled away, however his face still remaining inches away from mine. I gulped down the remaining saliva in my mouth.

"I liked you too 2 years ago... but you never noticed me." He softly spoke, his voice melting my heart. My breathing was heavy. Yongguk then slowly stood up and walked away. However I quickly stood up and caught his wrist.

"W-Wait, y-your saying that you went to the same university as I did?" Yongguk gives a single nod.

"Of course. Where did you think you got those little gifts from?" Yongguk smiled at me. Even though I couldn't see his full smile, it melted my heart. We both stood there in the middle of my room. And I thanked him for loving me even without knowing.

He smiled once more and cupped my face. He leaned closer and whispered something to my ear but I didn't quite catch what he said.

"Bwoh?" I asked.

"I asked if you can be mine. I still love you Choi Shinhye." My heart beat fasten as my eyes shot wide open. However I slowly pulled away from him shaking my head.

"M-Mianhae, b-but I think I stoll have feelings for Himchan." I looked at Yongguk to see his face fill with pain.

"A-Alright." His voice cracked a bit. He turned around making his back face me now and was about to leave my room until I stopped him once again.

"B-But I can try." I softly said. Yongguk turned back facing me again with a warm smile.

~Back to reality~

"Shinhye, let's go!!!" Yongguk shouted. He walked over and took my hand into his. I can tell that he was still going to try and change my feelings. I looked at Himchan and slowly pulled my hand away.

"Mianhae but I think we shouldn't be together like this or people will start thinking that a commoner girl is dating an idol." I softly said walking away. As we were walking away, I felt like crying again. Why couldn't I forget about him. He left me not I left him.

Soon a hand interlaced with mine and gave it a small squeeze.

"Don't cry or people will suspect us." Yongguk softly whispered to me. I nodded softly and continue walking.

When we were fulling outside I ran towards B.A.P's van, quickly hoping in and sitting between Zelo and Jongup.

"Let's go party!!!~" I shouted happily, quickly pushing away all my depression.

"Gaja!!!~" They yelled after me. When Himchan came inside the van, it looked like he was about to cry and it felt like a pang to my heart.

"Ya, you still crying!?" Daehun laughed loudly.

"Yeah, something like that." He stole a quick glance towards me and then looked outside.

***

When we reached my house, everyone rushed out. Can't even wait to celebrate their win. All the members settled in front of the TV, cuddling on the small couch that I had. I chuckled and thought that I should go buy some drinks and snacks.

So I told the guys that I was going to go to the small convenience store down the street to buy some snack and drinks. Yongguk decided to hop along so here we were walking together. Side by side.

"Everything alright?' I just blankly asked, confused on what to talk about since it was completely quiet and awkward.

"Yeah, everything's alright. I'm just tired from the show." Yongguk wealky smiled at me. I nodded my head lightly and looked away.

Once at the convenience store , I bought everything that I needed. When I was about to leave, I remembered Yongguk. So I quickly started searching the small store.

"Where'd he go?" I mumbled still looking around. I kept walking around and seriously I was walking in circles. Until then I bumped into someone.

"Cheom-" I finally found Yongguk. All he was doing was buying some soju. "Gosh I thought you were kidnapped by some sasaeng fans." I joked and Yongguk lightly chuckled shaking his head.

***

When we were finally back, I opened the door and it was pitch black.

"Is everyone asleep?" I muttered walking in. Just one step inside and 'BOO!!!' I screamed and hugged whatever was there. After a few seconds I notice that the lights were on, so I slowly peeked open my eyes.

I notice the guys standing there staring at me, then my eyes shifted to what I was hugging and they shot wide open. I was hugging Yongguk the whole time. I quickly moved away clearing my throat.

"You that scared noona?" Zelo cracked a smile, ready to laugh his head off.

"U-Uh a-ani!" I defended and speed walked away embarrassed. The guys then burst out laughing, some even fell onto the floor, literally. Yongguk was smiling, freaking smiling!!! Aish!

As I was putting away the groceries, a hand then stopped me. My eyes went up to the intruder and there stood Himchan.

"Here, let me do it." He softly smiled at me. He was always that kind-hearted man. I softly smiled back and pulled away.

"If you need help just ask me." I said before leaving to wash the veggies. As I was washing the veggies a ton of heat just pressed upon my back. I turned my head a bit listening to his deep voice.

"I'm sorry about before. I didn't know you and Yongguk hyung were dating." Himchan sadly said. I turned around and was shocked to see how close Himchan's face was from mine. I gulped and quickly looked back at the veggies. Then my cheeks heated up. Someone kissed the back of my head.

I quickly turned around again to see who it was again, however it was Himchan again.

"Himchan what are you doing!?" I quietly scolded him. "What if the others think that you and me are secretly dating?" I scolded more.

"Mian." Himchan pouted and pulled away. I sighed and looked at the members hoping no one saw however he saw. Yongguk's eyes were fill with hurt and anger. I quickly looked away and sighed. When I turned around Himchan again was right behind me. I jumped a bit scared.

"You that scared?" Himchan pouted. I roll my eyes and look away. Again, my eyes caught Yongguk's. However this time he looked away as if he wasn't even looking. I looked at him with a arched eyebrow confused on what's happening right now.

I pushed Himchan away and grabbed a knife so I can cut the veggies. Right when I was going to grab the cutting board, Himchan backhugged me.

"Can you give me one more chance?" Himchan whispered, desperately. I was seriously getting annoyed now. I pushed Himchan away and forgetting about the knife. I dropped it, cutting my hand.

"Ah!' I screamed, causing everyone to look at me.

"Nona, gwaenchana!!" Zelo was at my side in seconds.

"Huh, yeah. Just a cut. I'll go aid it." I bitterly smiled towards Zelo and stood up, quickly walking upstairs.

"I'll go help her." Yongguk said lightly glaring at Himchan who only saw and not the members. All the members nodded and went to normal.

"Shouldn't you be helping your noona?" Youngjae then asked.

"Well, Yongguk hyung went so it'll be alright. He has more experience then I do anyways." Zelo shrugged and started to cut the veggies but with a new knife of course.

'Knock' 'Knock'

I opened the door to see Yongguk standing there with a worried expression.

"Hey you alright?" He worriedly asked. I nodded, focusing on the cut.

"Yeah, just applying medicine right now." I mumbled fumbling with the medicine. Yongguk sighed and walked over to me. He sat next to me and grabbed my injured hand.

"You scared me when you screamed." Yongguk said with full sincerity and worriedness in his voice. I sweetly smiled at him as he continued applying the medicine. He then slowly looked up at me and we both were caught in each other's eyes.

Yongguk was slowly leaning in, however I quickly turned away.

"Mian." Yongguk quickly apologized.

***

When the party really started, everyone was drinking and eating, and laughing their asses off. When it was 12 am, everyone was practically knocked out. However I was alright, not too drunk, not too tired. Yongguk knocked out on my shoulder. Himchan sleeping on one of the couches, Youngjae was on the floor and Daehun was sleeping on the couch I was sitting on.

I decided to take Yongguk and let him sleep in Zelo's room however once I opened the door. There was Jongup and Zelo cuddling together on his bed. I sighed and ecided to let him sleep on my bed tonight and I can take the floor. I mean, he's an Idol. So it's not good when your back hurts. We for Youngjae, then I'm sorry.

"He won't do anything to me right?' I then asked myself as I got in my room however was still standing at the door. Once I took another step, Yongguk's head suddenly flung up. "O-Oh, Yongguk, you awake?" I asked looked at his drunk state.

He looked at me weird and slowly stood on his own. He walked in front of me and slowly he closed the door. I was leaning against it, feeling a bit scared of what he was going to do. When the door was fully closed, I heard the door lock click. I gulped down the remaining saliva in my mouth.

"Y-Yongguk w-what's wrong?" I then asked. I wasn't leaning against the door anymore. To tell you, I was walking backwards, away from Yongguk. I was starting to feel more scared. He just smirks at me as he continued to walk closer. "Y-Yongguk?" I whispered his name.

The next thing you know, I fell onto the bed and Yongguk got on top of me right away. My eyes shot wide open.

"Y-Yongguk." I said his name once again. He smirked once again before he started attacking me with kisses everywhere. I started struggling and everything. Man I shouldn't have let him buy fucking soju. Now what's going to happen to me!!!~

"Y-Yongguk s-stop!!!" I screamed. Damn for those guys to be completely wasted not even hearing a single damn thing right now. I kept trying to escape, however his hold was too strong. Soon he started stripping me. My face was full of tears and fear.

"YONGGUK!!!!~" I screamed yet no one came to my rescue. Is this going to be it? Is this how I'm going to lose my virginity. The last drop of my clothing was gone, he raped me. He seriously just raped me.


*


It was finally morning and I was in the corner of my room, staring at the beast whom sleeps so peacefully on my bed right now. I saw him move a bit, and I hugged my knees closer to my chest, scared. His eyes were slowly opening.

"A-Ahh. Damn my head hurts." He mumbled while sitting up. I quickly hid my face a bit, only letting my eyes show. I can not let my eyes off of him or else something else will happen again.

Yongguk then looked at me and I tried to move away even more if that was possible. He looked at me furrowing his eyebrows. He blinked a few times and looked at himself then back at me. After a few minutes everything hit him like a tornado. His eyes shot wide open.

"W-What h-happened?" He slowly asked scared of what was to come next. However I didn't answer. I lost my voice. Tears soon started falling one by one. Yongguk looked at me with fear washing over him. "D-Don't tell me t-that I-I accidentally d-did t-that." Yongguk stuttered afraid if what he said was true. And it was very true.

Yongguk quickly stood up covering himself.

"I-I wasn't myself Shinhye-ah. I-I'm sorry. Please forgive me." He quickly apologized but nothing was going to change what he did to me. "Sh-Shinehye." He whispered my name however his voice scared me even more. He took one step closer to me and I totally freaked.

"Get out!" I finally spoke, well yelled.

"Sh-Shinhye-ah..." He stared at me terrified to see the scared look on my face.

"J-Just put on your clothes and leave." I softly spoke hugging my knees tighter.

"Shinhye-ah...mianhae." He stepped closer however I quickly yelled at him again.

"Get out! Get out! Please." I pleaded. "Leave me alone." I mumbled, digging my nails into my skin. Hugging myself tighter. Yongguk stared at me full of guilt. He nodded his head and quickly put on all his clothes and left. Quickly stealing one last glance towards me before closing the door.

Once the door was fully closed, I quickly locked the door and ran towards my bed. Throwing the bed sheets on me, hiding my whole body. Tears that I have been holding in, finally burst out. I became a crying mess.

Yongguk stood there a bit longer staring at my door, listening to my sobs. His heart clenched.

~Yongguk's P.O.V~

*I-I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry Shinhye. I promise you that I won't ever do that to you ever again. I promise to never hurt you. I really hate myself.*

"Hyung, let's go. Manager hyung called and said we have a fan meeting today." Zelo said coming out of his room. I nodded my head and began heading downstairs. "Annyeong noona!!!~ Love you!!!~ See you later!!!~" Zelo then yelled from upstairs.

"A-Annyeong!!! I love you too Junhong-ah!!!~"She yelled back. I can tell that her voice was different from her normal one. It was broke. my heart was broke. How can I do that to someone I truly love.

*Aish stupid Yongguk, your never drinking again!*

"Mianhae." I whispered to myself not letting any of the members hear. I left the house full of regret, guilt, hatred, pain, and depression.

Notes

That was edited 2nd chapter!!!!~ I hope you guys liked it!!!~ I usually became a writer who write really long chapters so sorry and please bare with me. Neoreul Saranghae!!!!~ Please wait for my next other edit chapters!!! I'll make it even better!! Annyeong!!!~ See you guys next time!!!~ Oh p.s., please comment my loves, would really want to read your amazing comments. Always makes me smile.


"Neomu Mianhae..."