Jessica.

"You can't hide feelings for anyone.
Especially for a boy.
Because each girl, no matter how tough,
we will still have this part in us that's yearning for a special romance. "

I still ponder about this like almost every time whenever I see those typical romantic teen couples walking hand in hand in the hallways of the campus. I feel a sharp pain in my heart that's etched inside whenever I look more than once at them. Probably because I'm just a lonely girl in this little world where almost everyone seems to already be in a relationship. It is sad and yet pathetic from the way I see it now. What if I end up being single all my life? Goodness. Okay, if my ancestors can get laid then so can I. That would be stupid if they all could and I couldn't.

I used to have someone in my life.
But, we did not last very long and he was not very sincere in it like I was. It hurt.
Gave me so many memories and well, to him, it would all probably just be sweet nothings, but to me, it was practically everything. But, I seriously must have been a complete ass or stupid. Either way, conclusion is that I probably was drunk the whole time.

So, back to me now. I've been in this campus for almost a year now and I've been seeing this guy everywhere but it seems like only I'm the one who's being persistent in looking high and low for this guy. I don't know but I feel like there's something there. Or maybe it's just me?

He is a heartthrob. One of the popular boys of the university who doesn't seem to be genuinely interested in any of those really beautiful and seemingly sexy girls over here. I still don't know if he has a girlfriend or he has had a girlfriend and can't forget her? I just can't put my finger on it.

I think I'm thinking too much.

Maybe he already likes someone?
Who's highly and clearly not me.

I sigh and turn over to the other side of my bed and hide myself under my comforter.
"Looks like I'll just end up being a old sexy woman with sixty cats..", I mutter as I pull over my comforter again.

I rolled my eyes as I saw a picture of me and mum in a photo frame beside me and thought about the reasons of why I just couldn't have a perfect relationship like them from how they met to how they have me. I adjusted my t-shirt as I got up from my bed and walked immediately to my full-length mirror. I took in what I saw. I saw a lady who's not a girl anymore. I saw a lady with a petite figure and long shiny legs and a small frame as a whole.

I also saw bad hair as the crown on my head. Pfft.
Well, I can fix it, really. I've never been a girly-girl. I've always preferred jeans over skirts, no makeup over makeup, playing car racing games over shopping, caps over hats, sneakers over heels, comfort over style and food over men.

I pull back my hair and run my fingers through it as I grabbed my laptop and logged on to Facebook. I scan the news feed as usual, meh, boring as always until a message pops up.

What now?

I opened the message and saw the content of it in the screen.
Just a 'Hey :3 ' from some person.
I aimlessly reply a ' Hey ' back and minimize it without even bothering to see the person's name or profile.

Within a second, another message.
' Where are you studying, exacty? I just feel like I know you by your name. '
Okay. This is getting annoying.

'At some university like yourself. :) ' I added a smiley just to sound polite.
Like I said, just to sound that way when I'm actually getting annoyed.

A reply.
'Exo High? ;) ' was the reply.
WAIT. WHAT? EXO HIGH. That's exactly where I go. Who-

I immediately visited his profile since we weren't friends either on Facebook. How did this guy or whatever find me? Let's see who is this crack.

I think my heart just stopped. He uses a nickname as his Facebook name.

'Devil Dancer' is the nickname and in the bracket, is usually the nickname, but here's the real name.

SHOOT ME NOW.
ASDFGHJKL.

In the brackets, ' Kai '.

KAI.

The heartthrob. Or to be more specific, my crush.

Great Sica, now he obviously thinks you're some egoistic ass.

Another reply.

'You're still there, aren't you? Well...accept my friend request already! ;) '

GOODNESS. WINK. Crap.
OH.

Can't I be like more alert at midnight, even after my what-seemed-like-two-hours-'nap'??
WHY.WHY.WHY.

I accepted his request and instantly,

'Thanks for that Jessica. ;) '

WINK. MAKE IT STOP.

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