Flower's Shop

It’s raining outside, so cold and gloomy. Just like my feeling right now, I walked to my window, look at the raindrop tap on in. I sat on the chair, thinking about why is my life like this. I look at the withered carnation that I get from my dad funeral “Will I become like this carnation? Withered and dying?” It’s been a week since the funeral, my dad died because he can’t control his car. He was too drunk. My dad became an alcoholic since my mom ran away with her old lover. So cold, so sad my heart hurt, “Dear God Are you punishing me? What did I do?” I’m crying. I hate to be alone because it makes me sad. It makes me remember the moment that my mom left me. How could she so that to us? “Appa loved you mom! Where are you going?!” I cry and hold my mom hand, she just sigh “I married with your father because I have to, I’m not in love with him” she let go of my hand and take her bag, she never look back for us. It was six years ago when I was 15, I thought my dad already forget about my mom but he did not. The last time I talk with my dad before he died, he hold my hand and said “I’m sorry I’m not a good Appa ___-ah” I look at his smiling face “What are you talking about Appa? Are you leaving me too? Don’t do that or I will not cook for you tonight!” I said to him, sulking. He smile “Not like that ____-ah, I always drunk and trouble you, mianhae my daughter. I’ll promise I will be a good dad after this” “I don’t mind it Appa. As long as you be with me” I kissed his cheek. “Aigoo that my daughter” he laughed. That was my last memory of him. “You promise to be a good dad but why did you leave me like this!” I’m holding my dad picture and start to cry again. I really miss my dad, he is all I have.
Here we go again another plain days, I woke up in the morning get dress and look at my dad picture “Appa I’m leaving now”. I drove my car to my work place. With the heavy traffic, I have to wake up early to hurry arrived. “Aish... same day, same route, everything is the same”. I’m working like always, until in the evening when I want to go home. I was on my way walking to my car , suddenly when I try to cross some building I saw a man, so good looking man looks like he want to go home to. I walk pass by him our eyes meet, I look at him and he look at me. We both look at each other, I’m so speechless. Like some kind of connection. Is this the love at first sight? My heart beat for him.
And then I walk to my car start to blush. What was that? Who is he? I never saw him before. It makes my heart fluttered. Suddenly I feel so happy, “I think I’m in love” I said to myself. That night I couldn’t fall asleep, I keep think about him. “I hope I will meet him again tomorrow” I wish. Every day I walk at the same time to make sure I meet him, this time he smile at me. Wow that smile, make me crazy and want to talk to him. He will be at the same time every day, but sometime he not shown up. “Omg, what am I doing? Am I became a stalker?” I feel like I want to meet him every day.
One day, after a long day working I plan to walk around the city, ahh it’s been a while I dodnt walk here at night. I just wondering look at the street food stall, some shops and suddenly I saw him. He looks different this time and he was alone, I walk pass by him. He saw me, he just looked at me but suddenly he tap my shoulder “Hey I have seen you somewhere,” I blush “Ah I’m working at the place same as you, we always meet in the evening” “Yeah that true, my name is Kiseop, Lee Kiseop” he said to me and give me his hand to shake with me. “Owh hi, I’m ____” this is awkward but at the same time this is the happiest time ever. He talks to me? He recognized me? I was wondering myself. “I have seen you so many times but I didn’t get a chance to talk to you, should we go for a drink?” he said to me. “Sure why not” I replied.
Then we walk to the topokki stall near the river, when we arrived he ordered soju, well I hate soju this is the reason my dad die. But what can I do I have no right to mad at him. I order some toppoki and just drink cold water, he look at me “You don’t drink soju?”, “Owh, I can’t drink it” I said to him and smiled, and then we keep chatting like we already know each other for a long time. Then I ask him “You always come here?” he look at the river “Yeah sometimes, when I want to release my stress”. He looks so lonely, and sad. “Are you ok? You not look so well right now” I said to him, he look down and suddenly he start to cry. It makes me shocked, is he drunk already? I asked him “Hey are you ok?” He looked other way and wiped his tear “I’m sorry, this place reminds me of her”. “Who?” I confused. “My girlfriend” he said, ahh already have girlfriend no wonder a handsome guy like him. “We broke up” he said sadly, I look at him I don’t know why but I feel so sad and bit happy. “Cheer up, ok I will stay with you just drink as much as you want, just let it go and tell me anything you want. Maybe this could make you feel bit better” shit what did I said just now? Drink as much as you want? Genius, if something happens to him it was your fault ___. I will definitely stay with him, I’m afraid if he does something stupid.
He start to tell about what happen, “I fought with my girlfriend lately, she say that she can’t be with me anymore she want to broke up and she always said she hate me”. In my mind, broke up? Great I got my chance “And then?” I said. “When I went home, she already move out and left me a note “We never meant to be together”, I try to call her but I can’t reached her, I don’t know where she go” he start to cry again. It so hard to see him like this and my heart ache too, look like he really loves his ex. I keep calm him down, “Just give her sometimes maybe she will call you back, don’t worry” I feel so hypocrite to say something like that, he keep drink, until he almost pass out. To see him cry like this it really makes me sad and hurt. Why are you crying like that? You must love her all of your heart right? Just now I thought I got a chance, I thought he was single I guess I have no luck in love at al. I looked at the dark sky, I sigh “Why me?”
I just stare at him, he was sleeping right now. How could someone that so handsome like this being left out? I ask myself, I touch his hair, look at his lips. What am I doing now? Stop it genius! I look at my watch is already 2 A.M in the morning, lucky tomorrow is Saturday. The stall ajumma already packed up her things they are closing right now, “I guess we have to get going as well I stood up and pay up the bill. Suddenly he gets up, and he start run to the river. “Yaa! Where are going?!” I yelled “Ajumma keep the changes” and I start chased him. He jumped into the river. I bite my lips “Aish this baboo” without thinking I jump in too and I try to save him. 2 A.M in the morning, the water is totally cold as ice and it so dark here, I jump in the river because I don’t want to lose this guy and also I’m in love with him. He tried to kill himself? With all my strength I swim over him, I grab him and drag him to the land. He said “Let me go, let me die!” I hold and hug him, calmly I said “You’re just drunk let’s go home”. “But she left me!” he crying and still drunk, I sigh “This is all just a dream, just sleep and everything will be ok” he look at me with his drunk face “Really? It just a dream” and then he fainted. I talked to myself “I won’t let you die, if you want to kill yourself not in front of me” I just stared at him.
Love will make you do something stupid. It so cold right now, Aish if I left him here he will get sick. I take him to my car, he is so heavy. While we walking to my car I heard he whispered “Don’t leave me”, I just answer “Ok I won’t leave you, let just go home ok”. I lay him down on my passenger seat; I take some sweater inside my car boot and then I covered up his body so he won’t feel cold. Wait I don’t know where he lived! Aish, “Hey where did you live? Show me the way I will sent you home” I shake his body, he just mumble, “What was that?” I said to him. He just crying and keep telling me he wants to go home. What should I do now? I don’t know where he taking me he keep show me some weird direction, then I make decision to take him home.
Arrived, I take him out of the car and slowly walked him inside my house. We are all wet, “Genius next time don’t you ever make me jump into the river again” I mumble and I pinch his cheek. I put him on my couch and went into my room grab some my dad cloth “Perfect size”. I pull out his shoe and his cloth. “What am I doing right now?” I’m blushing. Ahh ignore it if I didn’t change his cloth he will get fever. Wow he got abs, yaa stop look at his body! “I’m sorry for looking at your body” I whispered to him and bow, I close my eyes and open his pants this is embarrassing. I dress him up. Yay task completed. I can’t stop blushing. I make him wear socks and put some blanket on him in case he got cold. Then I walked to my room, take a bath, changed up my cloth. “What a day today, meet a person that I love and then jump into a river for him” I laugh myself. But what will happen if I didn’t found him tonight? He is so stupid for doing something like that. I sigh “I think he will be ok out there” I lay down on my fluffy bed, I turn off my night lamp and then try to have a sleep, my back hurt because I lift him and try to save him. Suddenly my door opened and slammed on the wall, I saw he was standing in front of it. Did he wake up? He walked toward my bed. I turn on my lamp back, and I saw his pale face and his cheek was so red, I think he still drunk. He breathed heavily, he said to me “I don’t want to sleep outside it hurts my back” he pouted and then he slide into my bed. “Yaa!” I yelled at him, I touch his forehead, omg so hot. I ran to my bathrooms; take some hot water and a hand towel. I test his temperature, 39°C? He got a fever!
His body so hot, I put the warm wet towel on his forehead and turn on the humidifier. I’m so tired right now, after risk my life to save him, and now I have to take care of him? This is crazy, love is crazy. Ok he looked bit calm right now, “Please sleep well” I said and smile. I guess I’m the one who will sleep on the couch tonight. I change his towel for the last time, and when I try to stand up he grab my hand and look at me, “Please don’t go”. “I have to sleep outside ok? Good night” I try to escape, but he won’t let go of my hand. With his eyes closed, suddenly I saw tears fall down “Please stay” he said to me. I don’t know what to do. I look at his face, he look so lonely “Ok I will stay” I take a chair and put some pillow so I can rest my back. I just sit and watch over him. At last, I sleep sitting beside him while he holding my hand.
I wake up in the morning, Ahh my back it’s hurt, he still sleeps and still didn’t let go of my hand. My hand hurt a bit, suddenly he yawned, I fake my sleep I lay down back. He looks like shock he let go of my hand, and then I scream “Ouch, its hurt”. I raise my head and looked at him, he blushing? He just sits in the bed “Where am I?” “You are so drunk last night so I brought you home since I don’t know where you live” I said. He starts to look around, I hold my hand because it’s hurt, and it already turns red. I hide my hand, “Ah my head hurt” he said. I blush to his cute face and said, “I’m going to cook you some hangover soup”. He looked at my hand “Wait, your hand…” “Don’t worry it just fine” I hide my hand, I walked out the room.
I’m prepared up for the soup since my dad always drunk, I have all the ingredient and start to cook, suddenly he walk out and keep blush. He sit on the chair beside the kitchen look so bashful, “Hey did I do something bad to you?” he ask. “You did nothing, but last night bit crazy you know” I answer while cooking. Then I tell him about what happen last night, he just keep blush. “I did all of that? I’m so sorry for made you going through all of that” “Why you didn’t just leave me there?” he asked again, I walked to him with the soup in my hand “I couldn’t leave you since you keep begging me not to go, plus, I can’t just leave you there when you tried to kill yourself” I said to him, in my heart because I love you that why I can’t leave you there alone. “This is my entire fault, I’m sorry” he said, “Stop saying you are sorry, the important thing is you are safe” “Here, drink the soup” I put down the soup. He just eat it, and he start to cry again. “Hey what wrong? If it too delicious just say it, don’t cry” I tease him. He smiled “Thanks, if you not there probably I already died today”. I know he still remember about his girlfriend. I rub his back, “Just stay strong who knows she will come back for you” I said with my bitter heart. “Nahh... I don’t think so… She already engage with other guy that more rich than me, she text me last night” he said to me.
I got mad and slapped his back “Just because of that you get drunk and try to kill yourself?! I know you are so sad but, you don’t have anything better to do or what?” And then I start to cry “Because of that my dad died you know! I hate people like you so easily to give up on life” suddenly I can stop cry. He look so surprise and speechless he rubbing his back. Yeah I know it’s hurt. “It’s hurt, then why don’t you just leave me to die there?” He looked at me. “I can’t just leave you there” I said to him “Why?” he asked me and walked to me, he hold my shoulder “Why did you save me if you hate person like me?” he look straight into my eyes.
“I risk my life for you because I don’t want to lose the person that I love twice and I love you, don’t you get it?” I yelled at him “I care about you, when I saw you cry like that I just want to hold you, my heart hurt to see you sad, I just feel like I have to be with you!”, I lost my mind. He shocked. What did I said? His face became red, he grab his things, bow and walked out the door. I just look at it, great now he is leaving. You shouldn’t say something like that ____. I closed my eyes feeling dizzy and start to cry again.
It’s been two days, I didn’t meet him at all, and I give up. I didn’t go to work since I got high fever. I got no news about him. Yeah since I said something like that, he must be hated me for judging him. I must have hurt his feeling, I looked at my hand. I remember when he holds my hand even just one night it really meant everything for me. I miss his scent, his face, his smile, his blushing face but I don’t think he will come back for me. But at least I have told him that I love him. “Appa, I’m being left out again” I hug my dad picture and look up to the sky. I cough again; I touch my forehead “Still hot” I feel like dying. I’m so lazy right now. I curl up with my blanket in front of my television all day.
Suddenly someone ring my doorbells, someone coming? Maybe Mrs. Kim next door since she said she want to give me some porridge this morning, with my blanket I walk to the door and opened it. I saw him, he walked in and said “Why you didn’t go to work? I wait for you” I just hold my blanket and I stared at him “I’ve got a high fever that why I didn’t go to work. Why are you here?” I said to him while cough “I can’t stop thinking about you” and he kissed me. I confused. “It’s better to be with the person that loved me, than to be with the person that doesn’t even care about me” he said while hugging and kissed me again.
(End)

(Dongho Time)
Wahh~ Aish Kiseop hyung how can you make the girl save you?
*Kiseop : Ya Shin Dongho!
Haha ok let’s move to Eli Hyung, more love story coming right up~

p/s : Today special, 50% for a bunch of roses.

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